Same, my friend. And not only bad allyship, but years of addiction and hurting people. I’m fairly old, and it’s been a long journey. I ran in leftist circles even back in the 90s, but I’d say I was an ignorant liberal posturing, going through motions, naively thinking things would just sorta turn out okay.
reading diverse voices and actually reading some theory
I’m not the most widely read person, but can recommend a few books. I’ve also got some links to zines if you want some shorter readings.
accept my queerness and question my identity
Truly wish you the best, and I hope we in the community are able to help
I’ve not been to any parades
Oh, they’re great fun! Mine here isn’t that great because it’s a small town, but I’ve also been to the one in Minneapolis a few times, and it was spectacular! Just the most positive vibes, ever. Unfortunately, my husband’s ADHD has started getting overstimulated from the events, but I still go every year to show support. I lived through a time when a parade here was unimaginable, so I feel like it’s the least I can do.