It’s no surprise to me that I’ve barely slept tonight, but it is frustrating. I’m listening to some binaural beats which are supposed to prepare you for sleep but I might get up and make some hot chocolate ☕️ Insomnia is so boring!
@purplepadma I know, it's like you're wide awake, but don't really have the energy to do anything, and I sometimes even feel guilty for being up. Such a waste of time!
I’ve been strongly advised to avoid stressors and triggers for now, which makes reading any of the timelines super difficult right now since I have zero filters and only a hazy recollection of who posts what.
I also have zero energy right now, so composing all the filters and lists I would need is equally tough.
I’d love to chat with pals but at least for now, [at] me if you want to engage as that lets me just click on mentions and bypass the feeds. 😘
@jessica hey! Glad to see you taking care to protect yourself, that's so healthy.
I remember you saying you'd been more into TV and stuff than music necessarily lately. I need more stuff to watch, because I suck at just relaxing and vegging out. Watching anything good lately?
@jessica haha, my kiddo loves SpongeBob. It's one of those shows that translates well to all ages and I never get sick of it. They did this stage musical of SpongeBob that actually won a Tony, it was pretty cool.
I love baseball. My team is the Red Sox, which I follow closely but they're not great this year, lol.
I love this show The Big Door Prize on Apple TV+. It's so funny and cute and thought provoking in an easy way.
I want to watch Dune 2 also, but haven't seen it yet.
Well, I’m still awake, been up since 2am… I’ve tried a sleep story, a sleep meditation, journaling, reading, getting up for a bit, a bath… nope. Gave up at 5am and got up for a morning meditation, when it gets to 6am I’ll go for my first run in weeks. Strange start to the week!
Obviously my big stressor right now is not knowing whether to go back to my PhD and, if not, what to do with my life. We could manage with me not having an income for a couple of months, but not much longer, I have to do something. I’m trying not to fret about this, I have opened myself to opportunities, I’m sure it will all work itself out in time
@purplepadma I also have tons of trouble with those transition times where I'm not completely sure what to expect and prepare for. You are right though, things always do seem to work out one way or another. At least you have a few months to play with before there is pressure on you.
@jessica I always liked YOU, though your music and style were cool. I'm down to know this incarnation if you feel like posting is good for you. Feel free to DM anytime. Xoxo. 💜
As much as I love Lady Gaga, I find it careless of her that she did 5 shows while she had COVID, and that she seemed proud about it. There are several things that doesn't make this as problematic as it sounds: (1) she told everyone in her team and they could choose not to go to work; (2) this was in 2023 so most of the population have already been vaccinated.
But there are lasting effects to COVID, and it's just a bit insensitive to blurt that out in an interview as something of an achievement.
@teacherbuknoy I love her. But she can be out of touch, for sure. To put it mildly in this case.
I was also upset she did that, though clearly there is a lot more than 6 feet of space from the audience, maybe she was getting bad advice? Idk. Everyone makes mistakes, maybe some negative feedback will teach her something.
The beautiful weather has ended, grey cloud with rain predicted. My social worker is visiting today, this will probably be her last visit as I’ve thankfully moved out of my depressive episode. Just the clinical anxiety to deal with (“just” haha). How is everyone today?
I didn't sleep well, had an atrocious gruesome nightmare. But despite that, I'm feeling more optimistic than I have been today. Feeling lucky to have as much support as I do during a tough time.
Over 4-5 days new server- and media storage bills are coming in for this month
Currently I am still over €428 short this month😿😟
For upcoming weekend I have a server migration planned to scale down the costs by another €200 on the main servers but that will only take effect next month
Wanted to have breakfast at a garden centre but mood too low to get up in time. We’ll still go and buy some bedding plants. Just feel utterly miserable and so very tired. Sorry for the constant moaning, I must be so boring to follow!
@purplepadma many of us have strings of bad days where our posts get stuck in one mood. We follow you for you, not your wit or grand adventures. I hope you find a bright spot or two today 💜💜