Its because they ran into the loudest, most annoying vegans.
IDK how, maybe different areas have more militant vegans, or maybe they just roll with negative stereotypes and the algorithm bs that lets the worst folks float to the top of their media feeds.
I've actively sought out vegans because they have great advice on dietary restriction resources and as long as you're respectful of their choices, they've been consistently so willing to share.
And they also really love a good breakfast, in my experience, like the local vegan group has just pages of discussion on good vegan donut resources.
There's a couple people in my life I've really, really worried about, but who put off actually doing anything responsible with their firearms while they were/still are going through such inner turbulence.
Its weighed on them, and even though I've tried to be respectful about how I express my concerns, I worry that my being concerned weighs on them, too, but it means so many things- having to admit to problems, face them, call attention to them, face financial repercussions, etc.
I don't know you, but I'm so extremely proud of you.
This is one of those things that should be common sense behavior, but is actually an incredibly difficult action to take. It says so much of you as a person.
Even if you can't be Happy, being a person with that kind of integrity is something you should allow yourself to appreciate.
have you tried something to focus before starting a task?
I like a small bit of a not very addicting game before I start something, so I can get in the zone, and assess where my head is.
Just an easy sudoku or bejeweled- something you can knock out in under a minute. I started doing this around 14ish and it helped with school a lot.
If they're younger, you being there to keep them on track is important, but asking them to assess how they feel based on that little game could be a great self assessment tool.
All the alcoholism in both sides of my family, and I'm fretting about my liver, when I'm taking less than the recommended dose of a prescribed medication that could change my life if I could take more.
And I'm on a COPD inhaler and I've never touched any death sticks at all.
Life isn't fair, I 100% feel you.
I also literally felt you when they put me on amitriptyline and that gave me hbp and they kept trying to act like it wasn't that big a deal- that with all my other health problems, my blood pressure would start getting off, and I'd have stress, yadda yadda.
It really does feel physically horrible, especially the headaches and sleep issues.
My biggest advice is to never be afraid about a second- or third or fourth opinion with your health, and be gentle but persistent with your goals.
Its the art of pushing without breaking.
Now, this is the experience for me and some unhealthy overachievers, so take the following with a grain of salt:
A lot of times people with underlying health issues actually function their whole lives by pushing until they crash, but hide their crash, and just assume everyone else hides the meltdowns/16-hour sleeps/weekly puke sessions/etc too.
If that happens to describe you, then you're going to need to get comfortable with giving just 25% effort in a lot of things until you can safely figure out how to actually not hurt yourself.
I'm serious.
Step out of your skin, and treat yourself as you would your precious little sibling or something. Dote on yourself.
Aaand I've typed too much. It gets my own stuff going. But good luck.
My dog responds to swear words by doing the kinds stuff you see emotional support dogs do in videos- press on your chest, give you kisses, nuzzle your face, etc.
Except she's small, blind, and a bit... intense, so she kinda launches into you if you're sitting, with some intense affection.
IDK why. I guess we don't swear very often, ao when we do, its special, and we swear with enough gusto for her to think we're very, very upset.
Way back when, if Google couldn't find it and we did some good Google Fu, it probably wasn't readily available online.
Now, you know it probably is there, just buried in nonsense generated purely by layer after layer of people's selfishness. And they never even knew it could be any other way.
Just to let you know, the whole thing where you look back on every little thing you do and cringe won't magically go away when you're an adult.
That's a self-esteem thing, not a teenager thing.
I guess what I'm saying is that this is one of those things that can get better, but won't just magically get better on its own. It didn't get better for me until I got some control in my physical health (stuff that would affect my perspective) and took agency in my mental health.
If you're in the situation to do so, check out what kind of therapy resources are available to you. You can just try a bunch until you find one that really clicks, and a lot offer free brief consultations.
Many employers offer 4-10 free visits for any immediate family members/offspring, too!
I'm sorry you feel so critical of yourself all the time. Its so draining to live like that.