Although I've healed a lot from past relationship, there's still some leftover stuff that I'm trying to work through. I know one of the reasons I actively avoid accepting dates is due to feeling like I'm going to burden someone because I'm disabled & have progressive illnesses. I don't want to be a burden on anyone. I don't believe I'm a burden on family/friends in my life. Devaluation of who I am by ex is why I'm still working through the post-abusive damage.
I believe several #PeopleWithDisabilities can probably relate to my thoughts & feelings on this. #Dating is difficult in general. It's much more difficult when you have lifelong #disability & live in an #ableist society.
Remember how I posted about how a former ableist boss told me, to my face, that I should be grateful he even hired me, because I'm a gimp that no one else would give job opportunities to?
Well - it's the same kind of attitude with a lot of #ableist men, who I made poor #dating decisions with in the past. Back before I learned to empower myself more. I'd blame myself all the time & curse my #disability. I dated the wrong kind of men, who presented themselves as kind, caring guys but they weren't