I've spent the last two hours tidying up round the sawmill, and queuing up the next three logs to saw. It's been hard physical work and it feels as though nothing useful has been achieved; I feel exhausted, despondent and defeated.
I know fine well that this is not real, that the preparation is an essential part of the production, that this is just depression speaking... but the fact that I know this does not break through the bleak mood.
@simon_brooke oh how familiar that sounds. this is a very stupid advice so feel free to disregard, but helps me a bit: I start spinning a tale in my head, sort of just "writing" a story. It doesn't leave room for mulling over said mood trying to tear it all down then.
@soukyan good advice. I went inside and took a break leaning how to mod #Kenshi, and then I sawed a log (as you have seen), and then I went out on my bike.
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