How do you process that the person who you thought was your “good” parent actually controlled, manipulated, and punished you into a completely distorted worldview where you saw everything as evil, broken, and abhorrent other than her?
How can you go on knowing your mother actively starved, physically tortured, mentally devastated, and broken you for every year of your existence?
How can you live when your own mother repeated you don’t deserve to exist? #BPD#cPTSD#trauma