Coloring got my brain off the triggered spiral train and distracted me.
All those memories came up, but my world didn’t fall apart and I’m still safe.
I survived a really sh*t life, so I can be thankful I turned out the way I did. It means I’m a tough mofo. 😄
I have a new tool for my business that is fixing ALL my stock supply issues, and I've been absorbed in that. It's gotten me excited about something again. Good after having a triggered mental breakdown the last few days.
@Tooden It’s nice to be excited about something again! It fixed all my stock supply issues. I had SO many products and variants out of stock for a while, but wow they are all back. It’s a super fun tool and really helpful for my business.
@ashleyspencer
Sounds like good news and something positive to focus on. 😀
Also, I can't help thinking that even the awfulness of being triggered and what followed, shows how much you've changed and progressed. I'm sure, not even that long ago, this would have been a lot worse and would have sent you spiralling downwards for a long time. :bear_hugs:
@pathfinder it’s a testament to how much my therapist helped me. Because of all the inner work I had to go through to have self-worth for the first time, I had the tools to recover from remembering everything from the last 39 years that my brain erased.
The one conclusion I can draw is just wow my life has been total shit.
It’s a miracle I got where I am. I could have become a drug addict or self-centered or be angry and bitter at the world, but I didn’t. I must be very strong.
@ashleyspencer
Very much so. You've obviously had so many chances to end up badly and yet you're where you are now. Independent, strong, giving so much to our community. It really is a testament to your character and the beauty of your soul. ❤️
Hey. I was out all day and just saw this now and I'm really sorry. Muting words sounds like a good solution; please advise if there are things we should be CWing.
But I'm also so impressed that you solved your spiral and your supply problem!
[Dips the "what Kevin said" stamp in virtual ink, applies it to internet.]
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