(TL;DR): I love being terrified, and this has led me to a fascination with imagining being a witness to / a victim of various tragedies. Is that weird?...
I suppose so. I’ve never been very big on them tbh, but maybe that’s because I haven’t found the good ones. Some of the Saw movies were pretty good though.
What I find really compelling, though, is knowing it’s the real world I’m seeing. Maybe it comes from growing up so sheltered. Like maybe subconsciously I want to get a feel of how cruel the world can be and what I may have to deal with if I’m unlucky.
FWIW it’s far from my main interest or anything. It’s just a mood I get into every so often. I doubt it’s something that really shows in my personality, but whenever it comes up I definitely am more interested in tragic news than anyone I know.
I just remembered something that makes me think it runs in my family. My dumbass step brother shot himself through the hand while playing with a gun, and when my mom was telling me about it she excitedly said “you wanna see the bullet hole? :D” and I was like “fuck yeah I do” lmao. It’s not exactly tragic but kinda still morbid to some degree
I guess maybe I’d view your desire as those kids on Tiktok that were mimicking/cosplaying mental illness, autism, & Tourettes syndrome
I don’t use TikTok but when I was in grade school I’d see other kids do this, and yeah it’s pretty cringe worthy. I think we’re on the same page there.
And I definitely don’t want PTSD. Sorry if it came across that way. But I think I see what you’re saying, and maybe I’m overestimating my mental fortitude. I guess I figured I’d be able to adequately process it if I realized afterwards that none of it was real.
It really stems from curiosity about the facts. But when that curiosity turns to morbid curiosity, a lot of my questions can’t be answered, so it seems to me that the only way to satiate that curiosity is to artificially experience the event first hand through something akin to Rick and Morty’s Roy game. But obviously that’s impossible, so all I have is my imagination.
The Roy thing is maybe pushing a little into weird.
That’s good to know lol. And tbf it is probably a shortsighted desire considering the potential psychological damage.
It’s just that the nightmares I’ve had where I’m facing inevitable death have been super interesting to me in retrospect, so I figure something akin to Roy would just be that but I have full control over my mind and body.
They seem to want some FPS features to be integrated in SC 1.0, so maybe you’re right since that sort of development is already done. But if it’s taken this long and we’re still considering this alpha, I don’t have very high hopes for a timely 1.0 release.
But now that I think about it, Rust blew up when it was in beta and I put hundreds of hours into it. Maybe getting out of beta isn’t necessarily what I’m waiting for.
For some reason I’ve just never liked Spider-Man. He comes off as a whiney, ignorant child that never seems to grow up or mature despite everything he goes through. I love a good coming of age story, but he just never seems to become an adult.
Doesn’t this usually refer to music on the radio? I think most people understand that there’s lots of good music if you look for it, but the problem is the “popular” music is getting more and more formulaic
IMO the graphics look great, it’s just that it’s so clearly built on the creation engine. Like, the models and textures and lighting are great, but the animation is just so…creation engine
It feels so much nicer when you start out. I went from smoking nothing to vapes, which was always fun because it’d hit me like a freight train. Gravity felt like it got 2x heavier and my brain/body felt instant relief.
Now I feel nothing, yet I keep chasing that high because the brain chemicals tell me I must.
Choosing the path that makes more death more likely while claiming to want no death…yeah, that’s moral grandstanding.
I get that it’s a real-life “trolley problem” situation, but it really isn’t that complicated. It sucks that the lever only goes two ways because of FPTP, but you’re not a more moral person for refusing to touch it.
If you actually care about people being killed, then join the movement against the FPTP system so that in the future “no genocide” will be an option, and in the meantime exercise your ability to save lives.
Is it weird that I enjoy imagining being a witness/victim of various tragedies?
(TL;DR): I love being terrified, and this has led me to a fascination with imagining being a witness to / a victim of various tragedies. Is that weird?...
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