IzabelaKaramia

IzabelaKaramia, 24 days ago to random

I've showered.

Brain should be better today although the overcast skies and light rain will be a damper on my mood.

Getting ready to run errands for supplies.

Been here for over a month now and starting to form a map in my head, but at times I feel some sort of lost in how I don't feel I have familiar places from my past nearby. A sense of disconnection and being unmoored.

Last night I woke briefly and thought about Longwood Gardens and a sadness that I didn't have time and energy

IzabelaKaramia, 26 days ago to random

I woke up early early, about 230, but it's Friday.

Need to keep today on the easy side and when I take a walk after work, it'll be only 30 to 40 minutes and at a slow pace.

Ginza is the best cat in the world.

Supposed to be mild today but clouds are going to roll in and then comes a stretch of gray days, but maybe next week the more summer like pattern starts to take hold and sunnier warmer days become more consistent and frequent.

IzabelaKaramia, 26 days ago to random

Seems like the unpacking effort and stress from Sunday and Monday then combined with yesterday's walk really tuckered me out. I took a 2.5 hour nap late afternoon, got up for about an hour and a half and then went back to bed.

Ginza no longer sleeps by my feet on the bed. She has to sleep next to my tummy or my back, whichever side she's on when I sleep on either my body's right or left side.

If I've come awake and she stirs too as I get my bearings, she makes happy sounds, chirps and purrs.

IzabelaKaramia, 28 days ago to random

I've awakened early. Really could have used another night of long sleep. We'll see how today goes.

Furniture in the bedroom has been rearranged bit over the past few days and as a result, Ginza's cat tree is now located between the bed and the wall and that seems pretty convenient for her, putting her two favorite pieces of furniture right beside each other.

Last evening, when I got into bed, I felt it when she leapt from the floor onto the bed next to me, but immediately leapt from there...

IzabelaKaramia, 29 days ago to random

Morning came too soon. But I slept long and well and I hope that I will have better energy today but I probably should still take things easy as possible.

I can hear Ginza thrashing away at the ball that dangles from her cat tree.

Time to make me breakfast.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I'm up early early unfortunately.

Yesterday was a hard and draining day. It took a long time to fall asleep after everything and now here it is Monday.

But Ginza is very happy to have the old bed back. She's happy to have those familiar scents again.

And while I didn't sleep nearly enough, I'm glad not to feel like I'm sinking down into a marshmallow. I very much prefer a firm mattress.

I don't think I'll have any extra spoons to take on unpacking today.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Slowly getting my feet under me.

The weather looks to be gray and wet. Forecast says it'll get wetter as the day goes along.

Ginza has had her breakfast, she spent some time looking out at the weather, then it seems her judgment is that it's quite gloomy out there and her best place to go for now is under the bed and into her cat bed that sits under there for times she wants to hide away from most everything.

If I could fit under there, I'd join her.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Slowly getting up today. Had a stressful day yesterday that wasn't much fun in the late afternoon.

Did manage to take an early evening walk which helped release some stress, but I can tell by how my muscles feel this morning that I slept with a lot of tension.

Ginza licked my right hand this morning to wake me up for her breakfast maybe?

onwards somehow....

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to animals

Sometimes Ginza gets so excited when we wake up in the mornings I have to pin her down with Dinker Donkers. Which she enjoys, she purrs even louder when I pin her down with the stuffie dinosaur.

#CatsOfMastodon

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Ugh, my sleep got interrupted again last night and it probably cost me at least 1.5 hours of sleep, maybe more.
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That's just not good for me.

Weather is going to be wetter than yesterday. But hopefully I can get a short walk in to help circulate blood and help with the recovery of physical health I'm now in.

And maybe tonight I can get a peaceful and full 10 hours of sleep like I need presently.

Ginza was a very hungry kitty when we got up today. She's now napping up in her tree.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Awake.

Feel rough because I last evening I was awakened by noise just as I was finally drifting off into sleep after a long time getting to that stage. It would take another 2 hours to relax enough that I was able to fall asleep thanks to the help of Ginza, who came to purr beside me and fall asleep there.

But if feels like I slept in a state of tension all night, fearing another noisy wakeup.

So I'm grumpy this morning. Sleep is so damn important.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Awake.

I continue to now see improvement in numbers concerning exercise and heart rate and heart rate variability. But it's early and I may not really believe it until we're at least 3 or 4 months along and still seeing improvement.

Ginza exfoliated my right hand when we woke up this morning, gave it a very thorough grooming.

I still could use a lot more sleep but at least now I see signs that I'm recovering with improvement while I sleep.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Hard to lift myself out of bed today.

Ginza was full of vim and vigor at first wake up although she's now back to napping. But when we first got up I had to pin her down with Dinker Donkers because she wanted to play with my hands. She doesn't go after them with fully extended claws but it's best not to encourage her to swat at my hands when all I want to do is scratch her behind her ears.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I've been awake about an hour already.

Yesterday wasn't perfectly peaceful and lazy but overall it was a good day and I think the extra rest has been beneficial.

Today's weather won't be so nice but I should still be able to take a walk.

I've already eaten breakfast and want to eat at least 2 more good meals, but maybe 3 if I have enough time and hunger for that.

Ginza, the best cat in the world, is having an after breakfast snooze.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I slept in til almost 6 this morning. Needed a long night of good sleep.

Soon after I got in bed which was after I took the photo of Ginza taking her first nap ever in her cat tree, she noticed that I had gone to bed and got down from her tree and joined me. More and more now she sleeps up near my shoulders and it seems an indication that the bond between me and her keeps growing stronger.

I hope to not do much of anything this weekend. Resting and relaxing would do me a lot of good.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

yesterday was a hard day but I know what went wrong and feel better after a good night sleep, so I hope today will go better

Ginza was my anchor yesterday, a reminder how life can be surprisingly good

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

It always happens eventually, brain got worked up some, had trouble falling asleep last night and woke up around midnight, didn't get back asleep til after 2 in the morning.

Alarm woke me up in the middle of an intense dream and that always seems to make my brain feel unsynchronized with the world.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I've already been awake a while, though I feel I slept quite deeply while doing so.

Fels like there will be more spoons today and the brain is thinking okay.

I've been chasing a metabolic shift over the past week and think I know why that's shifted the way it has, though it's never fun having to knock down high blood sugars. OTOH, the ridiculous post meal blood sugars could be a very good sign of something going on.

But still way too early to count chickens and make conclusions.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Slept heavily last night.

Still feel I need lots more but I also feel better this morning than yesterday morning. But need to be slow and careful again today.

Ginza has begun to headbutt my chin and face when I wake up in the mornings. She purrs loudly while doing that.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Awake.

Yesterday morning I said I shouldn't do anything but I ended up investing 2 hours in another cleaning project in hope that doing it would provide long term benefit although possible cost in short term.

I feel the short term cost this morning. Body is sore, brain feels like it will be in sputter mode all day.

One of these days I'll get a weekend where I won't need to do much of anything at all.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Yesterday was a really bad day for me. Absolute crash state, I hardly did anything and that still felt much too much.

We'll see how today goes but the smart thing is to do only what's necessary and as little as possible.

Ginza is using her cat tree more and more. I haven't yet seen her sleeping on it anyplace but I feel confident that in time she'll use it more and more and claim it as her territory.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Ginza went to the top of her cat tree this morning.

Feels like I'm finally having the crash from all the stress and effort of the last 6 weeks, but honestly if the crash is this manageable and my mood ain't so terrible, perhaps I really am now recovering and that I am getting better, though obviously now that I don't have so much in front of me, I would like to avoid fatigue crashes.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

The sleepiness yesterday put me in bed a little after 5 PM and I fell asleep almost instantly. Was so tired and unable to calculate anything except to decide that it was okay to eat extra carbs and be assured the blood sugar wouldn't go hypo.

Unfortunately I woke up with very high blood sugar and I've taken a large bolus shot to knock that down before I start eating breakfast.

Brain feels like I got a lot of good deep sleep.

Physically I feel rough because of

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I'm already awake. Might be better if I were still sleeping, but damn, it's not a bad awake where I feel run down and anxious and wondering if I'll survive the day, though I expect to be tired when my work shift comes to an end.

But my brain is feeling pretty sharp and good, I may know what that is so.

Ginza has gone back to sleep. Smart girl.

She still never sits on my lap but she has a new trick of jumping up between the back of the chair and my back and she purrs happily there.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Haze kept the sun from being as strong as I would have liked but it was still rather pleasant to take a walk and not have to wear an extra layer of a cardigan or jacket.

And I walked around for close to an hour, though took a few breaks to look at things but also think...

okay, yeah, there has been a shift to better physical health

One to two months ago I would have laughed bitterly if anyone asked me how I might feel after what was ahead of me...