IzabelaKaramia

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Yesterday late afternoon there was some sunshine and today is supposed to be partly cloudy until later on when clouds will roll back in. Temps may climb to 60F and I'd really like that if they do.

I'm beginning to feel more certain there is an improvement occurring in my physical health which has allowed me to get through the stress of moving and I now feel a few more spoons and I don't need to sleep as much as I have needed for a long long time.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I'm awake, slept pretty well.

During the night I woke up while I'd been sleeping on my left side and felt Ginza pressed up against my back between my shoulder blades. I moved slightly and felt her stretch her legs and press her back into my own.

She was comfy and I felt guilty about getting out of bed and going to the bathroom.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Yesterday was a day which felt like I paid a toll or some of the toll for everything over past 4 or 5 weeks. Had very few spoons to do much anything at all. Fell asleep very quickly last evening and it feels like I slept like the dead.

So far it feels like I'm doing okay this morning. I hope that's true because if it is, it's a good sign that I am getting back some more energy. But of course I need to be smart and cautious.

Just fed the amazing Ginza her breakfast Such a good kitty cat.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Unfortunately I didn't have a long sleep like I had hoped.

Kinda grumpy on that and I probably won't have opportunity to nap any today.

But maybe I'll actually get to really really cook food today.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I'm awake already and just ate my breakfast.

I have things to do today but I hope for things to not be too stressful and too demanding. Still surprised and also hopeful that the fact I haven't collapsed from the disruption and stress the last month may be a good sign of improving physical health.

Onward

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Tough waking up this morning, not helped by the low blood sugar. But okay, I've oriented myself and have fed Ginza her breakfast.

Really weird dream that I was in Baltimore and supposed to go to the airport but couldn't remember why I had to go to airport and was asking others to clarify that for me.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Awake. Adjusting to this morning schedule of waking up and starting work in 2 hours is going to be difficult.

One nice thing about this new bedroom is that its lower windowsill makes it easy for Ginza to rest comfortably on the bed and look outside. It might be possible to set up a bird feeder out in the yard and that could give Ginza a great way to do her favorite interest of study, ornithology.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

strange apocalyptic labyrinth nightmare

awake, I return to work in 30 minutes after vacation time that wasn't vacation really

Ginza is happy and I'm happy she's happy

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

@ninetiger

Ginza has put me on probation status. I am being tolerated and allowed to view her presence and pet her if I give her proper tribute in the form of treats.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I feel the effort from yesterday. Don't think I'll be able to do all that much today.

Brain feels slow and wandering.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

It's a big project really but I just did the first 90 minutes and I can see a noticeable improvement that will be helpful to my feelings and improves the sense of light in the kitchen.

I am setting a time limit of working until noon on the project. There's no final finish or perish on this project and I don't want to go beyond my fatigue limits.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

This is day 2 in the new place and area. Ginza's doing well and I'm proud of her. She and I had a very long snuggle on the bed yesterday afternoon while we watched Seabiscuit together.

Still very disrupted from sense of routine, but this morning I managed to duplicate hers and mine usual breakfast routines.

I again want to thank all those who chipped into help with the moving expenses for Ginza and me. As might be expected, there has been unexpected expense but y'all provided needed margin.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

Ginza and I have made it to our new place.

She's hiding under the bed. She has eaten a few treats I put right in front of her and I've laid a trail of them toward the litterbox.

IzabelaKaramia, 1 month ago to random

I'm already awake. I've eaten breakfast and have already fed Ginza her breakfast.

This day is going to feel so surreal.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

Slowly getting moving this morning. Down to the last 2 days here. Feelings tend to veer back and forth all over the place regarding it.

I've got stuff to get done today so I'll be ready to do the final things tomorrow and have myself ready for when my ride to the airport shows up to take Ginza and me there.

This week when I've been waking up and that gets Ginza moving, she gets up from where she sleeps between my legs and comes up to sniff my face. That's different.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

I'm up early. Forecast says it's gonna rain all day.

I plan to chip away at knocking off a few more needed tasks today.

Watched a few videos last evening of people doing hikes at places in the Cascade Mountains. I wonder if it is at all possible that one day I might feel good enough again that I could at least do short day trip kind of hikes in those mountains.

It reminds me of how in 1984 I went to Philmont Scout Ranch in New Mexico and hiked there. I was too damn young then to appreciate

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

I look to the left and down. Ginza is a loaf leaning slightly to her left. "Psst psst psst?" I ask her. She lifts her head and puts her sharpened eyes towards mine.

I give a slow blink and when I lift that, she softly blinks like how a summery breeze fades and lets a veil like curtain fall. The breeze resumes and lifts that veil.

Hi, I love you, baby.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

Ginza had a better day yesterday and only spent a couple of hours in her safety nook. She's such a good and brave kitty.

I slept pretty well though I woke up early.

3.5 days away from leaving this area which is where I have lived all my life. I'm all sorts of terrified.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

Understand that this toot thread is rather speculative and may be highly peculiar to a small group of people in the world...

A lot of empirical sorts of data are lacking and there's a lot of me drawing from how I remember my own history of possibly related physical symptoms to the idea. But lately maybe it feels like perhaps I'm turning a corner and starting to feel less crushing fatigue. But it also may be me trying to psyche myself up.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

I finally had a night where I slept deeply without any wakeups more than 8 hours.

Less stressful day yesterday probably helped a lot with letting me sleep.

Ginza seemed in a much happier mood this morning and this time after she finished breakfast, she has come back to where we're sleeping this week and she's settling in for her after breakfast nap. She didn´t do that yesterday.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

I'm back from Wally World where I bought a cat bed and a cat scratching pad for Ginza. Yeah, amazingly enough I goofed on the scratching pad too yesterday despite I had already thought out how I shouldn't pack it.

So I've set them up in the bedroom here. Ginza has not yet used then, she's back in a sulking mood and had gone into the bathtub to sulk before I left and was still there when I returned.

She's not happy and I hope it'll help when she finds the bed and scratching pad.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

Even with the stress behind me, it seems impossible for me to sleep as much as I should.

Ginza's doing well. When she walks around, it's with her tail up like a question mark, and she makes a lot of soft chirps when she rubs against my legs. Though she still seems curious and puzzled by the emptiness of the living room area.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

Fell asleep before 6 last evening. Had hoped I might sleep around the clock to 6 this morning, but I'm up already. But the sleep I did get felt fairly deep and restful. Remember a dream in which I was so tired I got back into bed and fell asleep inside of being asleep.

I've got a few final packing tasks to be ready for the moving service company that'll be transiting most of my belongings across the country. They'll be picking the load up after 3 PM today.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

So much for the hope and idea of sleeping in until 6. Just too much stuff up in my head. I really hope that after the big hoohah of today, I'll feel more at ease and I'll be able to do some extra sleep.

IzabelaKaramia, 2 months ago to random

Now 8 days away from flying across the country with Ginza, the once feral cat who has decided to take up residence in my home and heart.

Fell asleep okay last night, but woke up around 1 AM and never really got back asleep after that. Just sorta drifted until 5 AM when I decided to get up. Brain feels pretty fried with all the extra thinking and stuff I've needed to do. But I will try to coast today through work and then I will be off the next 10 days.