IzabelaKaramia

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

One thing I've learned over the years is if I wake up from a dream which involves flowing water, it's certain that I'll need to get out of bed and use the bathroom to pee.

Awake. Brain is quite reluctant to wake up. I hope it does otherwise it'll be a very long hard day.

Ginza has eaten breakfast, she's now bolting about with a case of the zoomies. She and I had a lovely snuggle session last night followed by play with her wand toy. She loves playtime.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

I slept in kinda late this morning. Had a real bad nightmare.

Since getting outta bed, I've fed Ginza her breakfast and me my own.

A couple of news stories this past week have really disturbed me about the state of American politics. And how precarious the civil rights of many groups are becoming.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

I woke up early today. Have been up long enough that I've already had tea and breakfast. I'm holding off on feeding Ginza until it's closer to her usual time when I feed her her breakfast. She's been bouncing around since I got up.

Yesterday after work I got a pleasant surprise in watching a movie I had never heard of at all before but it was quite good with a solid story and interesting characters. The movie was The Train (1964) and stars Burt Lancaster as the main character...

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

I'm up. Feel hopeful that the brain will do better today. Yesterday was quite bad and I ended up going to bed before 6 last evening. Sleep was reasonably deep but I did have 2 nightmares that woke me.

Ginza has been a bouncy berzerker cat since getting up this morning.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

2 day weekends are too short.

Slept okay last night but feel like I won't have many spoons today.

I'm really struggling to put anything into words this morning. Well if I do try to enwordify it all, I think I've been dreading this week and 2 anniversaries that will be in it plus another date that in many ways is becoming more and more meaningless to me although most people wouldn't understand it at all if I told them about it.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Slowly waking up and piecing myself together.

Much of the night last night it seemed that Ginza was pressed against me while I slept on my left side.

I got into a bad and frustrated mood yesterday afternoon about how I've been unable to write poetry for a long long time now. I sometimes feel so close to writing, but it continues to elude me and it may be tangled up with frustrations I have about regular everyday communication with the world around me...

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Maybe 2 or 3 inches of snow overnight. It must have been snowing hard some point to get that much accumulation, yesterday temps climbed to near 50F and the ground is not frozen.

Not sure what my brain might be like today. I woke up around 330 this morning, might be a good day to take a late morning or early afternoon nap. Ginza, of course, is already working on achieving her daily napping goal,.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Slept long enough and well enough to mark that as positive in the ledger.

Both Ginza and I have had our breakfasts.

Today's dose of probiotics was the seventh day of them. My GI tract seems to be behaving better but that just might be coincidence of me sometimes having better weeks. But if it persists in remaining less gassy and less crampy, I will be much happier.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Got off to a real slow start this morning and just now realized I haven't tooted a single thing yet today.

Bright and sunny, but cold and windy. Somehow though it felt necessary for me to bundle up and go for a slow walk that lasted about 15 minutes. To feel both the sun, how pleasant it was, and the cold wind, how sharp it was upon my cheeks.

Before that went to pharmacy to pick up rxes. And some goodies for the indulgent junk food rations to snack upon outside of meals.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

I hear sleet tapping on the windows. We're going to be in that messy marginal zone where the rain and snow line could dance to either side of us. Maybe we get 4 inches of snow this morning or maybe it's mostly rain.

I've fed Ginza her breakfast and have just eaten my own.

Not sure where the rain/snow line is for my own brain yet and whether I would want rain or snow in it anyhow anyway.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

A bad anxiety nightmare woke me up. I'm trying to stay away from thinking too much about American politics, but it's hard not to feel scared about this election year. And those anxieties got into the nightmare that woke me up badly enough that I actually started clawing up into the air after I woke up...

Fortunately when I did eventually move into sitting on edge of bed position, Ginza came and rubbed against me and purred. There is still good in this world.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Awake, slept better last night though I had a long interval of waking up and taking a while to go back asleep.

Ginza's been bouncing around this morning since she ate her breakfast. She's finally settled down enough to where she's loafing on the bed and watching me do Duolingo on the computer.

Today's big project is cooking meals for today and the next few days.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Finally kinda reaching a functioning brain this Saturday morning. Didn't sleep so well as prior nights. And since it is the weekend, I've felt no need to try to hurry anything along.

Ginza's napping on the bed. I love seeing her sleeping peacefully.

I do need to run errands today, have to pick up an rx that I emptied the bottle on this morning.

Supposed to be quite mild today but cloudy.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Slowly piecing myself together this morning.

I've fed both Ginza and me our respective breakfasts. Ginza's not taking her more usual after breakfast nap, she's got a mild case of zoomies and berserker energy going.

Slept well last night. Lots of intense and vivid dreams, most particularly one with my father and we were visiting a mountain range with high snow covered peaks.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Feels like my feet are getting under me and that the brain might do better today. Yesterday was a bad fatigue crash.

I only work til 2 on Wednesday. Brain was almost dead in water by noon. At 2 PM, I clocked out and went immediately to bed. Slept almost 3 hours. Got up, fed Ginza her dinner. Ate a small dinner for me and watched movie til 7. Back to bed and slept with super intense dreams.

Been slowly rising from the mire this morning.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

slowly slowly slowly getting my feet under me, one of those super sluggish mornings

Never felt like I got into the deep and restorative type of sleep and I woke up a few times

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

I'm awake, feeling grumpy, mostly about how this point of wintertime I feel like I have felt chilly for almost forever.

Ginza is settling down to nap after eating her wet food breakfast.

I was up early enough that I've taken a shower this morning.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Had a terrible terrible nightmare last night, which I feel was centered around my fears of how precarious the political situation feels for trans people in America currently.

Which made it difficult to drift back to sleep after that woke me up during the night.

Not sure how many spoons I will have today, but it feels like it should be better than on Friday last week.

Ginza has the zoomies while I type this. She's got the crazy eyes going.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Woke up about an hour ago. Slept well last night. Sun is rising earlier and getting high enough sooner now that my bedroom window is starting to get sunlight on it again.

Still need to take it easy today after Friday where I crashed into the fatigue limit.

I'll be cooking chicken thighs later this morning to use in packing up lunches and dinners for the coming days. It's a way to manage my time and create meals that can be quickly heated.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

been awake almost 2 hours now, still not sure if I'll be able to do much of anything today

Had a real bad fatigue crash yesterday. I could tell by noon that reaching 4 PM was going to be hard. Because of that, I did a bit extra in working things to have my dinner ready shortly after 4. At 4, clocked out of work and fed Ginza her dinner and ate mine.

By 430, I was in bed and soon asleep.

Cept for an hour awake, I slept til 6 this morning.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Been up since 3, though I was in bed at 630 last evening and fell asleep almost immediately and it felt like I had slept deeply.

This past week Ginza has really started to use the scratching pad and it's good to see that. I'm not sure if she would ever allow me to clip her nails.

I'm glad it's Friday. I will be more so when 4 PM arrives.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

I'm awake. Slowly piecing myself together for the day which features a doctor's appointment this morning. I'll be taking a shower in an hour or so in advance of that. Taking that trip to the appointment will eat spoons. Hopefully not too many before I get home and then do work in the afternoon.

Ginza's happily napping on the bed after eating her breakfast. She's such a sweet kitty cat and her presence reminds me there is good in the world.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Dreamed I was in Nebraska last night but not this world's Nebraska, but a parallel world's Nebraska and its boundaries were different from our world's.

On Monday and Tuesday, I watched a story that I hadn't watched again in more than 30 years. Wild how different that story hits now versus back then. I was both more cynical towards the characters but also better understanding of the complexities in the plots and characterizations.

IzabelaKaramia, 3 months ago to random

Last night after I went to bed, Ginza discovered that the floor lamp next to my work desk has a short chain dangling from it. I woke up to the sound of her batting that chain against the metal pole of the floor lamp. Ping ping ping ping!

So I had to move the floor lamp to a spot where she couldn't reach it.

IzabelaKaramia, 4 months ago to random

Had a couple of really really awful nightmares last night. Ones that I woke up from and felt near to screaming. I'm glad that I was able to slow myself down and feel Ginza's presence down near my legs and feet.

This is going to be a day of extra spoon use. I had hoped to get to lab and have blood drawn on Saturday, but I was so out of it when getting up that day that I ate a banana right away, and that would have messed up the lipid panel.

So we do labs today.