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emmaaum, 16 hours ago to random

i went out to the darkest area i can manage to get to in hopes of seeing aurora. saw some clouds coloured by light pollution and some interesting shades of blue amongst other clouds and i have a headache because my ears got too cold (10 C stupid ears)

emmaaum, 1 day ago to random

The schizophrenic neighbour's latest set of patterns is keeping me on edge.
Not great given other concerns.

sheepchase, 2 days ago to random

Shabbat shalom.

emmaaum, 2 days ago to random

@sheepnik i ordered these two, plus a samphire to try because the discount was more than its cost
bee collection for the aromatic border in the front and the herb tea mostly for the back. thanks for linking to their shop earlier.

https://urban-herbs.co.uk/products/herbs-for-bees-collection?variant=31584392020068
https://urban-herbs.co.uk/products/herbal-tea-collection?variant=31584217202788

emmaaum, 3 days ago (edited 3 days ago) to random

there are two mental health things going on which affect each other but have different causes.
one is the seeming return of something i thought was gone. i don't know why.
the other is understanding my current reaction to two lifelong problems more clearly, feeling like i should try again to fix them but also knowing both are immensely costly high-odds gambles (emotional as well as physical energy) which have never worked out before.
i don't have the resilience to buffer more failure.

sheepchase, 3 days ago to random

So what happened to the warm weather?

Positively chilly!

And why is the waiting room of my clinic super hot?

sheepchase, 3 days ago to Eurovision

Those outside of the Europe can vote now for the participants of the #Eurovision second semifinal.

#Israel’s entry by Eden Golan was denied twice because the lyrics were deemed too political, referencing the October 7th Supernova dance massacre committed by Hamas. Finally a version was accepted. I think the song stands well on its own but if you know the background it’s much more meaningful. I think the choreography of the dancers (some of which is included in the live stage version) is powerful.

About the music festival massacre: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Re’im_music_festival_massacre

A reminder that it was Hamas and associated terrorist groups that started the war on October 7th (bizarrely a lot of media seems to imply now that Israel started it). We know this because Hamas recorded and live-streamed much of their attack themselves: https://www.october7thattack.com/ (Warning: Graphic footage)

Israel’s entry into Eurovision, “Hurricane”, performed by Eden Golan: https://youtu.be/lJYn09tuPw4

The Eurovision Grand Final is this weekend. I’m expecting Switzerland to win but I hope to see Israel perform.

#ESC2024 #EdenGolan #WeWillDanceAgain

sheepchase, 5 days ago to random

I have a Pixelfed that I’m actually going to start using. Follow me for pics!

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emmaaum, 8 days ago to random

shabbes soon, sun is going down and oh fuck it whatever i say about being a Jew on fedi is going to be taken the wrong way or just not understood
shalom aleichem i am so depleted

emmaaum, 8 days ago to random

i need to find something fun that i can manage to do within the limits of energy impairment disability, including cognitive, from home and on my own.
i have half a mug cake in the microwave but after that?

emmaaum, 9 days ago (edited 9 days ago) to random

omg people have actually joined my wee dreamwidth community to talk about Thai series!!!! whoo hoo

asks what the others like about them; writes about how good many of them are with mitigating stress and big emotions with warmth and real compassion and how open-hearted and generous much of the humour is

responses: sex

all evidence is that i'm now admin-ing a community i don't fit in with

sheepchase, 10 days ago to random

Have booked a trip to the UK to see my folks.

You have no idea how anxious this whole things makes me (I had two panic attacks today). Haven’t flown since 2019 pre-pandemic, get anxiety just leaving my area of Tokyo.

sheepchase, 11 days ago to random

Read Night by Elie Wiesel this afternoon.

emmaaum, 13 days ago to random

Between point-scoring English takes on Scottish politics, rest of the world point-scoring takes on Jews and the Jewish state and all of the agenda-serving spin, I am just exhausted.