transfem enby(s) and dissociative system of 12, please handle with care
feel free to follow, mostly a vibe check.
hobbies include but aren’t limited to: writing comfy software, photography (mostly birds, sometimes landscapes or architecture), other miscellaneous creative endeavors
photography is CC BY-NC 4.0, higher resolutions available on request
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inkjet pride flag 🦋
destroy capitalism 🦋
me: i am a kbity meow meow
my headmate: I will study hard to enroll in med school in a few years, something that is normal to want and possible to achieve.
my headmate: (takes private lessons from an MD every week at a comparatively breakneck pace despite not even qualifying for entry exams yet)
what the heck
codeberg pretty good so far! lots of good little features
Fun fact: I still doubt I'm really Trans.
There's so much that doesn't fit. I play the games online and joke about the stereotypes, but I don't fit most of them.
And I don't fit a lot of the history either. Joking and laughing about obviousness aside, when I'm alone in the dark, I still serious doubt it all. In many ways I feel like a fake Trans person.
But a friend gave me a really good question to ask myself: So what?
See, here's what I know:
My brain feels better on Estrogen. My body feels better with girl parts. I feel more at ease when society sees me as a girl.
So, in the end, what if I just like it better this way? What if I'm not really Trans? So what?
It doesn't matter to me if I'm not Trans, because I know that I am happier.
"Three years ago, Apple introduced a privacy-enhancing feature that hid the Wi-Fi address of iPhones and iPads when they joined a network. On Wednesday, the world learned that the feature has never worked as advertised."
today we discussed finding a more friendly/easy source host than sourcehut and concluded that everything fucking sucks. sorry.
my favorite Python package manager, PDM, now lets you install the minimum allowed dependency version, rather than the maximum found. (like
cargo -Z direct-minimal-versions).
this is exceptionally useful in making sure that your software still works with the minimum versions specified
i am such a happy cat =^___^=
I highly recommend against locking your car keys, house keys and wallet in your car, in the peterboroughsire countryside nearly 100 miles from home, where your spare car key is.
i feel like the instance domain block UI needs a "you are about to sever 250,000 relationships, are you sure" 🦋
just got an automatic refund out of nowhere from amaz*n because they claim the package, which I received in good working order, was returned to them undelivered. ??? did interdimensional shenanigans occur
Is it just me or has anyone else had problems transcoding their offline music collection into a format Android doesn't choke on... for the past, like, 10 years
I think one of the more damaging messages about transition is that people are happier post-transition, because it is presented in media as if people are instantly happier immediately after coming out.
It leaves no room for the incredible difficulty of processing a lifetime of trauma, both intentional and unintentional. Or of existing in society as an Other that people openly discuss in genocidal terms. Or even just the fear inherent in learning our own very new bodies.
The view is often "You're out now, you should be happy all the time." And if you are not, it feels like you're failing at transition. "Why aren't you happy, then?" And hearing that, you're always asking yourself the same question, and deep down you start questioning whether you're really Trans at all.
My constant experience with Python over the last ~16 years is I start writing it and it's like, wow, this is so easy, this is great! And then I run my program, and invariably it fails with an inscrutable error/exception 4 layers deep in someone else's library, code I know nothing about— in this case, a wav file library claiming that the number 960 is "not a valid shape"— and I realize that maybe I actually hate Python
they should make respirators in which you can make out
you know, at this point, even if SARS-CoV-2 was magically eradicated from the entire world, i'd still wear the MSA 900. i haven't got a common cold since i started wearing one and for that reason alone i'm happy to walk around in a respirator
The UK government are planning to follow China and require security vulnerabilities be reported centrally and then remain unpatched to allow Five Eyes access. https://www.justsecurity.org/87615/changes-to-uk-surveillance-regime-may-violate-international-law/
In Germany you can say the most messed up shit imaginable, as long as you do it in a “nice” tone and without a non-german accent.
just found out there’s a second, unrelated linus tech tips controversy happening at the same time
it’s kinda fucked how if you as an individual provide a service for free (in Germany), you’re not afforded the same protections against people using your free service to do something illegal
the state will just think it’s you and raid your shit
no one would provide things for free, are you insane, this is capitalism, you’re doing something nefarious 🦋
i read the first asimov robots book and now i’m seeing pop culture references to it everywhere 🦋
people talk about programming being "fun" and debugging being "unfun" but this makes no sense in my personal frame. i can get enthralled in debugging as easily, if not more easily, as i can in the design and implementation
the one thing that makes a computer thing unfun is having been abused in vicinity of it in the past (at work or not)
found a glaring bug in the github user interface
me: doesn't want to use a desktop because i like how i have my laptop set up and don't wanna sync it manually
my headmate, who just bought a desktop and is completely normal: sets up her NAS to be an ActiveDirectory domain controller, joins both of her devices to the new domain, and sets up roaming profiles
not only all of that somehow works, but she didn't spend a week getting it to function.
What the fuck happened in Tiergarten?!
they should make a camera sensor that just has a gradient of increasing resolution towards the center of the frame
the cropping range would be amazing 🦋
Some recent analog black and white shots. I haven't done analog in at least15 years. The look is still worth it. Digital just doesn't do this.
Film: Ilford HP5+
very grainy b/w shot of two empty chairs behind a large storefront window. a door in the background is slightly ajar
dark b/w shot of a contraction scaffolding over the sidewalk, looking down the length of it. the outline of a person is visible in the distance
high contrast b/w shot of a house entrance full of stickers and graffiti. on the top of the door it days in large letters "Yorckstr" and it has a plastic sign with the number "1" hanging slightly askew
sudden throwback to a biology (or, possibly, chemistry) lecture in high school during which the teacher (yes, during, school hours) mentioned that it's possible for girls to get drunk more efficiently by using a tampon soaked in ethanol
until now it didn't register to me as a completely unhinged thing to say to your pupils
plurality hot takes:
- full personhood requires being able to date you without dating your headmates
- full personhood requires being able to like you without liking your headmates
these are 'hot takes' because if you've been around queer people you'll have noticed that many can't even deal with these two if you s/headmate/friend/
(the good old 'you would have to be in our polycule, for convenience' excuse)