@brownpaperbag No apology needed. I read your ramble, and your thoughts have worth!
It sounds like you've been guiding your ship for a long time, that's great to hear! I'm really happy for you, that's actually a really big deal lol.
And oh man, I'm thrilled to hear that firefighting is working out for you. I don't need it right now, but it's something I've thought about often and I guess I'm saving it for when I need to shake things up again.
Brownpaperbag is a great example of someone who's picked something tolerable for them, and is now exploring the world.
They initially picked a part-time temp job that seemed okay, and then gently bounced around as they dialled in how much responsibility they can handle vs what they can tolerate. That's just right! That's what I want for you minnieo.
And they're also working out the chaos part, but because they're not on a sinking ship, they get to take their time with the journey. Take their time exploring. Brown has space for their chaos, and that's the goal here.
brownpaperbag