@eniko I don’t know if this will help you, but I managed to start to chip away at that feeling by reminding myself that even a roomba needs to go back to its charging dock to rest, and that I should at least treat myself the same as a roomba and allow myself that recharge time to sit and do ‘nothing’.
You are not ‘doing nothing’, you need to recharge. And sometimes watching youtube/TV is the way you need to do it. This is not a bad thing. There will be a day when you have energy again.