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IzabelaKaramia

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trans woman, I write good poems, ADHD, autist, type 1 diabetic, love to study languages, dx exocrine pancreatic insufficiency Dec 2022. Runner not currently running because of years being undernourished. Now walking some and feeling better, convinced I will fulfill a promise I made in a poem The Pale Horse

Definitely a fan of Gruyère cheese.
You can never have enough elephants.
I'll close the door behind us, a tiny tap.
It's where museums tuck away the weird.

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Too fat to hunt? I'll show her

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Hero cat 😸

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Slowly waking up. A hard lift to get myself out of bed this morning, it still feels like the disrupted sleep of Sunday night is affecting me, plus I didn't really sleep great last night and I also have to remember how I'm a lot more physically active now.

So the primary goal today is go easy. It's going to rain too. I will at least try to do a walk of 30 minutes and maybe a short easy cycle ride if the rain isn't too heavy.

More and more Ginza likes it if I put a hand on her

IzabelaKaramia,
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when we sleep together at night. I do that and she'll roll onto her side and she then likes it if I curl my hand around her and against her belly. Guess that makes her feel very safe and happy.

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I hope I have a better brain today. Yesterday's brain was pretty crappy and I had lots of trouble focusing. Maybe why I felt such relief during the easy paced cycle ride where I didn't have to think about things, I could just lollygag along and look around me at the world without thinking too hard about any of it.

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Feels so chilly and damp today in the PNW. Ginza is snoozing on the bed and I'd love to get back underneath the covers and sleep alongside her.

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Sometimes it amazes me to think how a year ago I would try to keep a watch out the windows to see if I might spot Ginza and go out to offer her food or treats.

Now she sleeps next to me every night and likes it when I put a hand on her. Still she won't sit on my lap, although there are times when I'm sitting in a chair at the computer and she comes to rub against my legs and I can see her looking and thinking, "What if I jump up there?"

So maybe one day she'll become a lap cat.

IzabelaKaramia,
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Decided to change my avatar to the selfie I took back on Sunday. HRT has really changed my face a lot and I'm happy with how it's changed.

Though I admit my face seems wildly babyish looking for a woman who is 54 years old.

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I need to go real easy today. Last evening my falling asleep period got disrupted and it cost me at least 2 hours of sleep and plus I didn't sleep deeply. So I lost important recovery time after a day of the most physical activity I've had in years.

I'm grumpy about it.

Soon gonna make my breakfast and feed Ginza her breakfast.

It's gonna be a long day.

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The brain is waking up slowly but still likely to be a bad brain day, one where it always feels like it's dragging and I'll only have one or two short term memory slots at best.

For activity, just a short lollygag walk and a short lollygag cycle ride. Make some blood circulate but the prime goal of today is to nurture recovery if I can.

Tomorrow might also contribute towards that because the forecast calls for an inch of rain and depending on how I feel and how miserable the weather gets,

IzabelaKaramia,
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tomorrow could end up being a zero activity day. I'm okay with that, though I'd prefer to have at least some time that gets me traversing distance through physical space.

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@ninetiger

I still struggle with it. I'm better about it, but sometimes my enthusiasm and drive regarding something is so strong.

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Been doing okay enough so far but also just trying to do things in as slack a way as possible. I'd take a nap or two if that were possible.

IzabelaKaramia,
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Perhaps we need another hashtag...

as a way to show off your cat's murder mittens.

These are Ginza's.

IzabelaKaramia,
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The amazing thing about murder mittens is how they have the adorable toe beans.

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One thing I'm going to miss from last year was the ice cream truck. No chance of one showing up out this way.

That's why I bought ice cream bars this last weekend. Ice cream seems like a good fueling option for the fact I'm walking and cycling now.

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Easy walk and easy bike ride after I clocked out from work. Enjoyed the ride mostly though I didn't enjoy the wind which seemed to get stronger during its last 15 minutes.

I've eaten dinner. And wow, I'm about ready to dive into bed. Last night's sleep getting disrupted was really hard on me. Thinking felt like a struggle all day long.

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@ninetiger

Yeah, that's what came around where I lived last year. I think I got 4 or 5 milkshakes during the summer. My big difficulty was remembering to keep some cash on hand because they only took cash.

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I had hoped to sleep around the clock, but woke up, tried to go back to sleep, and couldn't.

So I'm up now. I've already had first breakfast and think I'm going to soon make a second breakfast. Just so hungry from years of how my body had been slowly starving, but now in addition to that is much more physical activity every day. Weight has been holding steady and more importantly, I think the balance of micronutrient intake is in my favor thus far.

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21.4 mile ride on the bike. Here comes 3rd breakfast.

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Stopped at the turnaround point to take a break and a couple of photos. One is a sign outside a small restaurant and the other is a selfie. I haven't take one in a long time and haven't taken one since getting out here to the PNW.

The bike helmet and the bicycle are the only biking gear I have. Not visible in the selfie is the fact I was wearing a pair of jorts.

I'm standing in front of a small building and I'm wearing a bicycle helmet that I bought 8 days prior. I've already done about 11 miles on the ride and have about 10 miles to get home. Unseen in the photo how I don't have any cycling gear beyond the helmet and bicycle and that I'm wearing a pair of jorts.

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Got really sleepy about an hour after the bike ride, so I took a nap of about 2 hours. Maybe that's really good to do. Eat and sleep after exercise. Those are the 2 basic means of recovery after stressing the body.

Now I'm trying to get myself ready to take an easy walk and get blood to circulate through the legs and help them recover. I can feel tiny pings of soreness down in the butt and hamstrings. The quads aren't really sore but have an odd feelings to them.

You know, I won't complain

IzabelaKaramia,
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if bicycling builds a bigger butt and thick thighs for me. I'd kinda love to have thick muscular thighs like you see on some bicyclists.

Ginza was my napping buddy. I fell asleep with her curled up in front of me as I slept on my left side. When I woke up, she was still right there, and purred loudly when she woke up too.

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3.8 mile easy paced walk to help circulate blood to the legs and get me time on my feet. Need to get that time on feet to help strengthen the muscles and bones and prep them for when I start running again.

Stopped and took photos at times along the way.

Had sunshine every now and then. But on the cool side with temps only in the upper 50s F. I'm used to having sunny days with temps up in the 70s and low 80s. Those are my happy temps.

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I've eaten my early dinner, washed dishes, and am now sitting down to relax and drink tea.

Legs feel tired, but good. There's a pleasant sensation of strength even with the tiredness in them from having walked and cycled more than 25 miles today. I feel closer to achieving an important but almost forgotten goal I had when I started transition -- to have good feeling runs where I felt a sense of easy speed and strength.

I want to know that feeling again in the context of this changed body.

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Youtube has The Natural (1984) available to watch and I'll enjoy watching it again. So that's my after dinner entertainment to wind myself down with today.

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A photo of the best cat in the world, Ginza Pumpkin Totoro.

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