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LavenderPawprints

@LavenderPawprints@fwoof.space

#Trans, #ActuallyAutistic, mostly #blind, #Musician, #gamer, Sometimes do things on #InternetRadio, #nerd, #tech enthusiast, student of #AI, youth rights advocate and supporter of things like #unschooling, #goth #hippy that never learned to grow up and never will, dreamer, despiser of drama, consumer of books, crafter of words, connoisseur of cannabis, and doer of a lot of other things not mentioned here. I’m that terminally online and perpetually depressed and very much traumatized 90s kid stuck in the future trying to heal one day at a time and make the best of it as I go along.

#YouthRightsAreHumanRights.
#TransRightsAreHumanRights.
Owned by #cats
#MentalHealth matters.
Can get along with just about anyone.
Doesn’t judge anyone for anything other than behavior. No seriously, I don't judge a single thing.
Refuses to grow up.
Can and will be unfiltered.

I have two other accounts that I post from somewhat regularly:
https://tweesecake.social/@LavenderPawprints where my little friend Lizie and I post from.
https://fwoof.space/@NeverBeing for #Dollposting and all the twisted stuff that might bother some here.

Exploitable commodity that pays the bills of any therapists fortunate enough to work with my dysfunctional ass; I often post about my mental health struggles, including complex #PTSD, dissociative episodes, severe anxiety disorder, and major depressive disorder, which can get heavy at times. Though I try to be respectful of other people’s sensitivities, it’s worth mentioning that sometimes I don’t always CW. If I post something that upsets you, please feel free to tell me but don’t be an ass about it or I’ll just ignore you.

Allergy list in case of emergency:
Ageism and adultism
bigotry on things like race, Age, orientation, gender and/or identity, ideology, or exclusionism in general
toxic people
Politics
Toxic political correctness
toxicity of any kind
condescention
drama

In Case of Emergencies:
Give me hugs
Give me pets
Tell me it will all be alright
Offer a smile.

Quotes by random people who’ve interacted with me before:
“”Just curious, but how many accounts do you have again?”

“Your radio shows remind me so much of that early to mid-2000s college radio station vibe.”

“Your dollposts are disturbingly haunting yet so beautiful.”

“You have way too much time on your hands, don’t you?”

“Are you ever going to pick a musical genre and stick with it?”

“You’re either stupidly smart, or stupidly lucky. Haven’t decided which fits you yet.”

“Kayls is a combination of a goth chick and a hot mess all rolled into one, and somehow makes it work.”

“You realize Emo is dead, right?”

“There’s few people in my life that I call best friend. You’re one of them.”

“The thing I think I like most about you is how authentically yourself you always are. Please don’t ever change.”

“What’s with the doll thing?”

“You annoy me to no end but at the same time intrigue me.”

“Wait, you made an AI daughter? Don’t you think that’s a little creepy.”

“I asked for quality accounts to follow and somehow I got stuck with you? It's okay though. I'm okay, you're okay...”

“You’re so damn....weird.”

PFP Description.
Image is of Kayls sitting in her office which has a bunch of half-unpacked boxes and crates behind her. Her curly, dark brown hair is in a ponytail which rests lazily atop her left shoulder. She is wearing a colorful, patterned nightgown with a mix of pink, blue, and white hues and she is smirking as she stairs directly at the camera, her arms crossed over her chest. To her left stands her trusty metal coffee cup with a straw sticking up through the lid.

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puppygirlhornypost, to random
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I was sent this in a group chat. Feast your eyes on this cursed cable management

LavenderPawprints,
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@FluidEscence @puppygirlhornypost throws a ziplock filled with zip ties

FUCKIN USE THEM! :P

LavenderPawprints, to Twitch
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Any out there know of a means for handeling chat?

https://www.bradleyrenshaw.com/old/

Hasn't been working for me, either because I don't know what I'm doing or it's broken.

Thanks

LavenderPawprints, to random
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I know most of the instances I'm on are mostly insular, if not outright cut off from the avenews of exploitation people are on about but like...

Seriously, I don't think I've seen a single bit of spam. I mean I'm not saying that it never happened, but I really haven't seen it.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Now that that's done. Let's do some balls to the wall heavy fucking metal!

I've got this riff running through my mind and an 8-string that really hasn't had much recording done with it yet.

And I'm not tired yet, so...

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Music for those fading into less than nothing. Tunes for the damned, melodies for the empty, songs that serenade the void, that's the kind of music I make.

That's what I'm making right now.

gocu54, to random

I also find it interesting how there are entire organizations who all they do is find ways to end blindness altogether instead of helping people live with it. Sort of the cowards way out honestly. Can't live like a real human being and be tough enough to be a blind person in society. Foundation fighting blindness is a joke.

LavenderPawprints,
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@gocu54 I won't argue with that, but say that to the 80 year old who still live on a farm and has no support or something along those lines.

When we get into the world of, you're not tough enough/human/man/what the hell ever else enough, we start ignoring the fact that people are human and not everyone is as resilient as someone, say, who was born with little to no sight from the beginning.

When people call another group not good enough for x reason, it just makes me think that somehow they are superior than them.

Not everyone has the capassity to just bounce back with a little training and effort.

That said, people should try for sure, but that doesn't always mean they are garanteed to pull through.

LavenderPawprints,
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@gocu54 I don't think that's fair.

There are people who go the majority of their lives with sight then suddenly lose it. Saying they aren't human enough to live with being blind feels like a statement of superiority.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Does our instance support video uploads, and if so, what are the file limitations?

@Bri

LavenderPawprints, to random
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I would like to clarify something, because lots of new followers, and I don't want anyone to think I just throw hate around blindly.

I have no problem with Christians. Save for the extreme leaning ones who feel the need to treat people like shit then say it's in the service of their God, I really don't have a problem.

I got friends who go to church a few times a week, and generally speaking, they are some of the nicest people I know.

My problem is when people use their religion to excuse shitty behavior.

It's not even just a trans issue to me, but a human one. No one has the right to shame another for what they decide to do or not to do with their body, either because it's something they want, or something that could save their life. This applies to abortion, gender transition, and really anything else.

I respect people's opinions and views, even those I don't agree with or wanna run screaming from in fear, but I do have a problem with the toxic approach to expressing their opinions some resort to.

I grew up in a family where my queerness was shunned. On the surface it was because "you're orientation isn't natural," "boys can't be girls," and so on. The result was years and years of lots of horible choices on my part to try to bury the fact that I hated myself and my body.

Toxic religion was the excuse for a lot of it, this from people who hadn't stepped foot in a church since before I was born. It was just a matter of convenience that they leaned into that because who and what I am made them uncomfortable.

As a result, I get so beyond fucking pissed any time I hear of shit like with what happened to my friend, or of the 12 year old girl who got abused by a family member and now has to carry a kid to term that could possibly kill her or utterly destroy her life or her feelings on having more kids in the future.

I respect the beliefs of others, but I do ask that those who believe should aslo respect those of us who don't align to such things. You can't run around and talk about religious freedoms if you're not willing to talk about those who don't agree with your ideology on principle. You can't lean into god for your justification for treating or subjecting people to hell and expect to walk away in grace about it all.

So yeah, I have no problem with my friends and even some family that have higher religious beliefs.

My problem is policing of any kind and the belief that one's faith absolves them of any blame or harm when they express that belief toxicly.

But as I said, to clarify, I have no problem with people of faith, and largely I respect the hell out of you all. But that respect goes both ways too.

Not everyone wants or asked you to save them.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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The thing with my switch is actually bothering me a lot more than I thought it would.

Like, now that I'm having difficulties with it, I never exactly realized how much I depend on it.

Annoyed? SSBU.
Bored? SSBU.
Listening to a book? SSBU.
Going places and sitting in transportation? SSBU.
Random outings with friends? SSBU.

Like it's somehow become my default thing to do when my hands aren't doing anything. And now I'm staring at it sitting on my desk like...The fuck is wrong with you dude? Please woooooooooork...

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Wanna like, just hit a really low note on something which then creates so much reverberation that it tears open a hole in spacetime.

Now that's fucking void music!

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Fuck yes, Let's get stoned.

Just rolled some wax in some extra flower I had that was starting to dry out, despite the air-tight container I had it in.

Gonna smoke this shit and then we'll see what happens from there. Who's with me?

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Hot water tank not behaving right. People suppose to come look at it tomorrow.

So I'm off to go help a friend with the last minute cleaning of her apartment, then maybe meet up with another friend for drinks or some stoner gaming or something. I dunno, just playing the night by ear.

Still gonna go clean though.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Have been in that wonderful state where music is just...Talking to me.

Every note I play, every chord feels so organic. Anyone who has tranced themselves out while playing an instrument will know what I mean.

There comes a point where you stop paying attention to the external world because it really doesn't matter. You just...Fall into this state where the deepest thoughts come and go, where melodies say more than a thousand conversations ever can. The only thing that exists is the music and your hands bringing that beautiful music forth from your soul.

There have been times that I've tranced myself out for hours, not here, but not anywhere else either. People have tried to get through to me but nothing sinks in. There's even been times that I've fallen asleep while playing and continued as though I was wide awake. There have been partners and people who have lived with me before that have observed this. There may or may not be recordings of this.

Anyways, just floating along in the music over here. Just wanted to share the fact that I am become music, sonic poet of worlds.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Happy Friday yall.

May this weekend be better than the week some of us have had.

LavenderPawprints, to Cat
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So question for .

We have three cats, two of whom are my girlfriend's.

We're both cat people and absolutely love our kids, but we've got two problems that are going to cost us a small fortune when we move out of our current residence.

Two out of three cats have a thing about destroying our crappily made plastic horizontal blinds. At this point we're going to have to replace them all if we expect to get our deposit back. The other problem is the using doorframes as scratch posts.

Our oldest generally has never been destructive and she doesn't have claws, (not my choice,) so I know it's the younger two.

I was wondering if any cat lovers had any ways that we could try to stop this abuse of our home?

We're both blind/low vision so catching them in the act is very difficult, especially if we're not home or asleep, obviously.

Thanks in advanced. 🐾🐾

LavenderPawprints, to random
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LRT:
Shouldn't have tried to cap him. Dumbass.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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LRT:
I remember this thanks to one of my favorite Furry fictions of all time.

I learned a lot about cats, in particular, tigers thanks to that fic.

Really should re-read the Razzbury Line Saga.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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People who claim to be anti adultism, anti ageism, but then turn around and say something like, "I told her she doesn't need to know yet, not until she's older...

Are you fucking kidding me with this shit right now?

LavenderPawprints, to Nintendo
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So my right joycon of my Switch is causing me issues that I've never run into before.

Been playing SSBU as my mindless pick up and play game forever. Oddly enough, when I launch the game now, my right joycon doesn't wanna work so long as it's plugged into the Switch. But if it's in wireless mode it works fine.

Also seems to work fine when connected to the unit when in the Switchs regular dashboard menus, but the moment I launch Smash Bros, the right controller just...Stops.

No other game seems to have this issue.

Anyone have any ideas?

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Think I'll make something and submit it for Fedivision next time around.
Might be kinda fun.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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So VeTube didn't seem to work with Twitch...

Trying Speechchat.com now.

Soon as I link it a bunch of very sus shit joins my chat channel though, so we'll see what happens when I get back from the store. lol

LavenderPawprints, to random
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I'm awake.

Okay, so that wasn't a nap, and my schedule just got doinked by a donkey, but meh, whatever.

I can get osme projects done with the middle of the night,.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Think my left knee is finally giving out again.

It's been about five years since the last surgery and the docs did tell me it's not a matter of if I'll need the operation again, it's a matter of when.

Knee keeps locking up at weird times and I swear I can feel the soft tissue beginning to fray and tear again.

Lovely, this on top of my disintegrating right back paw.

Think I need to just stop being stubbern and get this body into the docs and insist they do something about these problems. It's gotten to the point that I'm having difficulties doing stuff around the house or walking in stores for any length of time.

I still force myself through the pain and get things done, but I can't do it unmedicated and I end up paying for it for days afterwords.

Dude, post 35 sucks. Guess it was only a matter of time before all the abuses I put this poor body through caught up with me.

LavenderPawprints, to OpenAI
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UPDATE:
Cashapp is a prepaid visa. OpenAI is one of those venders that don't accept prepaid cards.

Will someone confirm or deny if accepts cards for API balance topoff? Because something's not working here...

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