xilliah

@xilliah@beehaw.org

Developmental informatics hacker

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xilliah,

Have you tried FOSS? I use it for everything and pirating software is likely going to infect your computer.

xilliah,

Just search FOSS alternatives, there’s a plethora of websites for finding those.

xilliah,

It was actually quite funny. I was biking and this man asked me for some cash and gendered me right. So I went over and gave him something and then he suddenly misgendered me when giving thanks.

Last time I misgendered someone? Never in someone’s face actually. But I did while talking about someone. Because she was pretransition and always had stubble and would wear a baseball cap backwards. So in person she was clearly a she to me but in my mind’s eye I just saw this man and so said he :/ oof

And the photo? Well it’s hard to see anything on that photo. I’d say a he from the jawline.

xilliah,

Can you explain?

xilliah,

I cook a lot and still have tons of plastic. Cheese. Quark. Cream.

xilliah,

Maybe it can create a css file with dark background so I can read this 😜

xilliah,

Good question. I’m an adult from the NL and I’d say more than half of the people I know on hrt use diy.

The first step would be overcoming your fear to visit a gp. These are tied to your postalcode and often there isn’t much choice.

Now you have to overcome it again when seeing a psychiatrist, and pay for that because it isn’t fully covered. So you might be paying a lot just to simply be discriminated.

I finally have a supportive gp now, which was a pain to find. The only medical professional I’ve seen that knew what she was talking about was the woman who did my laser treatment.

I’m still waiting.

xilliah, (edited )

Yup. Cuz I’m poor I have only the basic level of healthcare. I should add that this is essentially free and so it’s not an entirely bad system. But it’s effectively useless in many cases if you are poor.

How can someone be poor here? Well this can happen when you don’t fit squarely in the safety net. For example a friend of mine lived with her bf, but because it was social housing they made it extra small to motivate people to get out. But that also somehow made it legally too small for two people to live there. But because she is trans and poor she was essentially forced into that situation. So people often can’t be registered in the right places, which can impact your social stipend.

That’s why you are forced to pick the cheapest healthcare option, and that means your own risk will be about 1k euros a year. You have to pay that much for healthcare that year before you are covered 100%. It’s to demotivate overusing the system. Makes sense if you can afford it.

But what if you are genuinely poor? It’s common. Just imagine the levels of discomfort we go through. Imagine being a woman with facial hair and it makes you uncomfortable. How are you supposed to do anything like work? And all the stress causes mental health issues. It’s common to see in my community. People get panic attacks and everything.

And when against all odds you do go, and you pay all that somehow, you’ll likely be discriminated. There’s simply not enough training for psychologists here. From where I stand it’s absolutely reasonable that people use diy hrt, financially and emotionally. And you have to set that in perspective to the past, where that was the status quo. 😿

xilliah,

Hey, can you try again?

xilliah,

Could someone else do it? It doesn’t work properly in my client.

xilliah,

Try again

xilliah,

I imagine a lot of people are already in such a situation right now.

xilliah, (edited )

Thanks for sharing. I’ll be sure to bring it up so perhaps we’ll be able to avoid it as much as possible.

If you have any actionable ideas? As in what to watch out for. Or perhaps any resources related to this topic.

xilliah,

There is no link. Move along. (added it)

I have chronic sleeping problems therefore I love(d) taking naps but waking up afterwards is absolute hell. What should I do? **Edit: I have found a short-term solution**

I am currently struggling heavily with depression. Which impacts my quality of sleep. Sleep now has never been a talent of mine. So I generally make up for it by napping. I used to absolutely love it. Both the initial and the waking up (feeling well rested). But lately the waking up part is getting more and more difficult. It...

xilliah,

Have you tried any sleeping meds? Or at least sleeping tea?

Are you familiar with the sleeping cycles? If you wake up during the wrong part you’ll feel like trash. You can set an alarm to avoid that. There’s also devices that can detect when you fall asleep and then take care of that for you.

Further, how’s your sleep hygiene? Ear plugs? Good curtains? Blue light filter on your phone?

It can also help to do a lot of sport. And I mean 2 or 3 times a day. And if your rythm is screwed just skip a night.

Further you’ll want focus on reducing anxiety and working on mental health. I can recommend mindfulness.

xilliah,

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xilliah,

I imagine it saying wassaaaaaaap

I've noticed a lot of chill religious people on Lemmy.

Idk why I’m mentioning it but compared to a lot of other online platforms where if religion is being mentioned outside of a religious community it is really in your face on Lemmy it seems like when it is mentioned outside of that kind of community it seems relevant to whatever they are saying and are generally nice....

xilliah,

I run into anti religious people sometimes and then I like to mention that I feel we can all make it our own. It’s just a human thing.

Of course it is nice when you have a community too but you can still be religious without that. Take the Bible for example. You don’t have to be into what your local community is saying. You can get into that stuff in your own way, just the way you think is right. Nobody owns that.

xilliah,

I’ve always thought the idea that consciousness just suddenly starts with us makes no sense. I can’t believe it exists within a vacuum.

Take the eye as analogy. Eagles might have the best eyes in one sense, but dragonflies have a panoramic view and see more colors.

There’s also convergent evolution happening all over the place. If consciousness is useful for us, it must be for other animals too. Same for intelligence and so on.

xilliah,

They’d ban themselves lol

xilliah,

I like them

xilliah,

Have a healthy spiritual life. That is, not be overly busy with myself. To be able to look beyond yourself and see that it’s all connected.

A lot of people struggle with their egos and when you have to start facing the fact that it’s transient you better be able to leave that behind or it’s going to cause a lot of pain. I’ve seen it plenty of times.

xilliah,

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