It sounds like you’re struggling to find meaning in things and the good news is that’s 100% normal and something everybody has to figure out.
A lot of people will grab a religion, this is an easy way to have meaning assigned to you by 3rd parties, but I don’t personally recommend it.
In truth, the most beautiful thing about life is that it ends. Every moment you spend, whether it’s holding a loved one or having explosive diarrhea, is truly unique and precious.
I don’t believe in absolutes. There is no absolutely “correct” list of rights and wrongs. No magical force dictating what is meaningful or pointless.
My best advice is, anything that you enjoy doing is worth doing, so long as it doesn’t detract from someone else’s ability to do the same.
Doing nothing is a thing you can do too, but if you find yourself doing that for too long, or not enjoying anything, talk to your doctor. I don’t suffer from clinical depression, but I have family who does, and when I left Christianity for atheism at 18 I found myself experiencing depression in a new way.
I got prescribed a simple anti-depressant. It curbed the lows (and a little bit the highs) and made my days easier so I could work through some shit. A year later I was off them and felt like myself and knew what that meant.
For my dad, depression is an on-going thing. He’s learned what helps him and he has support when he needs it.
Take care of yourself, because even if you dont see that meaning now, sticking around is the only way we get a chance to find it.
Dying isn't scary. You fade out into a deeply comfortable darkness of nothing where life stuff all feels very far away and increasingly unimportant and the peaceful emptiness of nonexistence is the final thing you know.
I've nearly died a few times now. If anything I'm more annoyed at being brought back than anything else, at least if I had died I wouldn't have had to deal with the men strangling me or how shit my life and the world we all live in is.
The world is shallow and hollow. Humans are mostly awful and all the systems and industry we have created for ourselves are corrupt and fuelled by greed and cruelty. We are so shit as a species we're literally ending all life on earth with our pollution and inability to be kind to each other and the natural world around us.
Once the ice caps melt, the Blue Ocean Event will happen and the earth cooks in its own fumes as the oceans release shit tons of methane and then evaporate. A few more years as hot as 2023 and the ice caps could be melted as soon as 2027.
What keeps me going is that I'm too lazy to kill myself. Humanity is going to be wiped out by our own hand in the next century anyway, so provided you don't procreate, I think you're ok to indulge yourself in things you enjoy to try to make the rest of your existence as comfortable as possible.
Twitter is transforming into X, as the site’s former bird logo has now been replaced by an official new X logo. Elon Musk, who owns the transformed social media site, began signaling the change early Sunday morning with a series of tweets, starting with one that said, “and soon we shall bid adieu to the twitter brand and,...
Physicist Rajendra Gupta's study suggests current calculations that show the age of the universe is 13.7 billion years old are wrong, and his new theory shows the universe has actually been around for 26.7 billion years.
hi every1 im new!!! holds up spork my name is katy but u can call me t3h PeNgU1N oF d00m!!! lol…as u can see im very random!!! thats why i came here, 2 meet random ppl like me ^^… im 13 years old (im mature 4 my age tho!!) i like 2 watch invader zim w/ my girlfreind (im bi if u dont like it deal w/it) its our favorite tv show!!! bcuz its SOOOO random!!! shes random 2 of course but i want 2 meet more random ppl =) like they say the more the merrier!!! lol…neways i hope 2 make alot of freinds here so give me lots of commentses!!! DOOOOOMMMM!!! <— me bein random again ^^ hehe…toodles!!!
I don't know nearly enough about music to answer well. I just can hear the elements that seem to contribute to what your describing: the lilt of her voice, the rapid beat, and the other sort of warped dissonant sound. I like the song
Don't get me wrong, I'm trying to sell an indie game (see my profile!!!!!!), but its crazy how the culture shifts depending on where you are! On Mastodon and Kbin I don't feel like I'm wasting time just talking to people and enjoying the company.
On twitter and threads I just feel if I'm not yelling and shouting, its not worth my time. Like I'm falling behind if I'm not trying to push the sale.
Google is way to compliant to DMCA request resulting in bad result. Bing doesnt seems to care and will happily link to live and replay of sport event (the main reason I use it personnaly) even as a first result....
But now I'm lying awake, and I'm stressing so much. I'm really scared they don't like me. I'm scared it was all pretend for the sake of being polite. I think I was obnoxious at points, and I said a couple of dumb things. I'm scared they saw me as attention seeking, like I was trying to be the most important person in the room....
I struggle with this as well. I try to remember that I should offer myself the same compassion I have for others. Chances are you weren't thinking that they were dumb or attention-seeking, and they weren't thinking that about you. I think it is so awesome that you were able to visit with them!
If you had a good time chatting, they probably did too. Sometimes i have an extra drink and get too talkative and laugh too loud, but my friends look past my faults and like me anyway. I’m sure yours will too.
Some people will say “it’s ok to be yourself” and I don’t agree. Social interactions come naturally to many but not everyone.
Its good that you’re thinking about how those interactions went, and learning from that post-interaction review.
It’s bad that you feel bad about it. You shouldn’t feel negative about who you are. Look at each interaction as a learning engagement that you improve upon each time.
I too love the idea of the "small web", I've pined for it these last few years as I look back on the web of my childhood where there were many interesting and quirky sites compared to now where everything feels consolidated and interest for non-techies or semi-techies to have their own website is all but gone it seems.
I'dd like to share a website I came across a while back. I can't remember the URL cause sadly I didn't store it.
The site was a personal website of a photographer. It has a very unorthodox design and consisted of a bunch of repeating sections, each for a topic or category of content.
Each of these sections were a list of cards, scrollable in the horizontal direction. Each section has individual scrolling. The cards were either links to articles or high-res images.
The page loaded atrociously slow, and a quick look at the inspector showed why, we loaded about 300MB of images, quite the amount of code and it was clear that the entire site was made by a novice programmer, which made me immediately load all of the images that I could ever scroll into view. Quite the opposite of lean website technically, but definitely a small web website in essence and presentation. I think "small web" websites are small in scope and very personal. But whether or not they are small in size or features is less of a concern to me, I got spare cycles to burn anyways.
I think the web has for a long time lacked identity and personal connection, I hope that the renewed interest in federation and the small web will let more people express themselves more freely.
Some users wonder if the dev will be charged for having it still up, others argue Reddit can't charge him without having signed a contract. Everyone is confused as to why the API change hasn't made it inoperable....
Batteries have an insulated separator between the positive and negative sides. They design the battery with a particular maximum voltage in mind, so they engineer it with a separator that is always a higher resistance. Thus the electrons will only be able to make the jump when a circuit with lower resistance is formed.
It's not really the electrons moving. It's the electromagnetic field potential that's moving. The rope is that field. And the distance it moves isn't measured in meters, but in volts. In most cases, around 240 volts (more or less...but that's a whole other discussion).
A lot of this is hard to wrap your head around because you can't physically see these forces, only measure them with instruments. We'll dive a little deeper while still trying to keep the rope metaphor going.
Imagine each electron in a wire as stationary, and all standing in a line next to each other all the way down the wire, each connected to its neighbour by a loop of rope. If you turn one of these electrons, it causes the one beside it to turn, which causes its neighbour to turn, etc all the way down. Our pulley is attached to one of these electrons. You pull the rope one way, it turns the pulley, which turns the first electron, which transfers that energy all the way down the line. How far you pull in one draw is the voltage. How hard you pull is the amperage.
This is the basis of a generator. A magnet (our pulley) is passed over a coil of wire, which induces an electromagnetic field (our rope) in the wire. It makes the electrons "turn", and sends that energy down the entire length of the wire. Nothing really moves except for the electromagnetic field.
I've actually typed the line "not perfectionist enough to call myself a perfectionist" into my Discord profile, so you're definitely not wrong... Personally, I might even add imposter syndrom on top of it: "What if I'm not actually a perfectionist and a real perfectionist calls me out?" So... Yeah.
PI is what (i.imgur.com)
deleted_by_author
Twitter is now X as the little blue bird disappears (www.theverge.com)
Twitter is transforming into X, as the site’s former bird logo has now been replaced by an official new X logo. Elon Musk, who owns the transformed social media site, began signaling the change early Sunday morning with a series of tweets, starting with one that said, “and soon we shall bid adieu to the twitter brand and,...
Study suggests universe is twice as old as presumed (www.ynetnews.com)
Physicist Rajendra Gupta's study suggests current calculations that show the age of the universe is 13.7 billion years old are wrong, and his new theory shows the universe has actually been around for 26.7 billion years.
There's more reasons to feel old than just old memes (feddit.de) German
Hahaha boy do they have us pegged (lemmy.ca)
Can anyone help me figure out why I find this song so gripping?
https://open.spotify.com/track/5erINbTb8XLbTjv85ajj6r?si=39461e7b3782496e...
deleted_by_author
Unpopular opinion : Bing is a better search engine than Google when it comes to piracy
Google is way to compliant to DMCA request resulting in bad result. Bing doesnt seems to care and will happily link to live and replay of sport event (the main reason I use it personnaly) even as a first result....
Is your child texting about Blahaj? (lemmy.world)
I had a really nice night tonight. Hung out with some newish friends, and we enjoyed each others company...but
But now I'm lying awake, and I'm stressing so much. I'm really scared they don't like me. I'm scared it was all pretend for the sake of being polite. I think I was obnoxious at points, and I said a couple of dumb things. I'm scared they saw me as attention seeking, like I was trying to be the most important person in the room....
The small web is beautiful (benhoyt.com)
A vision for the "small web", small software, and small architectures.
Shoutout to All The Lemmy Servers (And Their Admins) (lemmy.world)
3rd party app for Reddit, Boost, is still functioning well after July 1st (www.reddit.com)
Some users wonder if the dev will be charged for having it still up, others argue Reddit can't charge him without having signed a contract. Everyone is confused as to why the API change hasn't made it inoperable....
ELI5: How does electricity actually transfer energy?
.
OC Perfectionists probably try to handle their perfectionism perfectly
This thought actually made me kinda sad :(