DivineKestrel

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

Surgeon: You have to understand that your new vagina will not have any internal lubrication because you don't have a Bartholin gland like a cis woman, so it will remain dry and you'll have to use lube.

My pussy: Fuck that shit, I'm gonna drool honey down your damn legs you horny ass bitch.

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

I remember living in South Carolina. It was racist as hell. Like, just straight up open love of The Confederacy, people straight up saying n** and talking about "those people." Whole areas and towns of Black folk living separate and interacting only when they need to.

Now I live in Oregon. Almost nobody is openly waving confederate flags. Everyone talks about inclusion and tolerance and acceptance. And there are a lot of people who will tone police others about that. It's a happy place of liberal joy.

Here's the thing: There are a TON of Black folk in South Carolina. Some places they are the majority, if not in power. And the Black folk know what they're dealing with, and can fight it very directly.

Meanwhile, there barely are any Black folk in Oregon, because the state made laws to exclude them. And now we're either subtly excluded or openly objectified. And we can't say anything because we'll hurt white feeling.

Twitter is like South Carolina.

Mastodon is like Oregon.

DivineKestrel, 16 days ago to random

Something I think about sometimes is the difference between us late bloomers and the Trans kids now.

I look around at all the Trans women my age and it's like we're this weird cookie cutter form where the similarities are fucking eerie.

And I think of all the young kids now, and how there might be so much variation in the Trans community with those kids. How I hope none of them will be cookie cut-outs.

The sad truth is when I stop to think about it, I know why all the late blooming Trans girls are the same.

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

Okay, time for a little story writing theory.

When writing a story, we have a narrative arc… Ultimately, this is the journey the protagonist is on. That can be internal (Emotional, e.g. "who am I?") or external (Physical, e.g. "what do I have to do?").

The narrative arc often (not always, but very often) follows a path with certain points. Normal life, something weird, inciting incident, try to go back to normal life but can't, plot point where something big changes… etc.

One of these points is the Midpoint. (This is the midpoint of the arc, not the story or book). It's the point where things stop happening TO the protagonist. It's the point where the protagonist goes from inaction to action. From having choices made for them (even, importantly, by their subconscious or involuntarily), to making choices actively, with intention.

Shit really hits the fan at the midpoint. It's the part of the story where things starts going really badly for the protagonist, but where they take power

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

There's a Black saying: Racism is such a part of America that when you complain about it people think you're complaining about America.

Look at all the people telling me complaining about Mastodon.

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

FaceID doesn't recognize me, so weirdly I'm annoyed by an actual early transition goal that I never thought would happen.

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

Goddess! Who knew "the right lipstick" would be the difference between "I hate my face!" and "Bow before me!"

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

If you are considering gender harmonization surgery (of any kind), but just not sure if it's the right decision, here is the best way to figure out whether you actually want it or not:

First thing's first: Take the first step right now.

Here's the reality: Wait times are absolutely horrendous so get on the list. Today. Now.

All the rest of this can happen during the year or however long you are forced to wait. Get on the list.

Call around, set up some consultations right now. Put all the "But which minor variation of the surgery do I want?" thoughts out of your head. Get on a list.

Then get on another surgeon's list for a different minor variation. Then get on another for the third minor variation you're thinking about.

Get on the list. Today. Now.

Because it's going to be like two years before you are in surgery, and you can do all your hemming and hawing during that time.

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DivineKestrel, 26 days ago to random

Braless in an underbust corset to go grocery shopping and I legit feel like a fucking warrior queen.

DivineKestrel, 25 days ago to random

Rumor has it it's @Alice's birthday! Happy Birthday to the walking 90s version of American Doll! 💖💖

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

And by "therapy," I mean "buying everything in my size from the Torrid clearance rack."

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

St. Patrick was a racist colonizer and a murderer. If you don't understand that "snakes" was a metaphor, you're missing history because it was written by the victors.

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

That male gaze.

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

Trans girls will be like "Ugh this picture of me with my hair pulled back and no makeup is 100% man" and then send you a picture of the sexiest fucking Sarah Connor pose you've ever seen like what the fuck stop being dangerously hot I'm trying to drive.

DivineKestrel, 8 days ago to random

So, my original vaginoplasty consult was with OHSU, which is an amazing hospital and where I wanted to go. But the consult was in two months.

On a whim, I decided to set a consult with another doctor. I now have a vagina two months before the original consult.

Just as a point of reference people: A 20 month wait for a consult and another 20+ month surgery wait was avoided by looking around.

This falls into the "It can't hurt to look around" category.

DivineKestrel, 2 months ago to random

Anyone large women who've bought Only Maker shoes out there? I'm a 14 women's and desperate for some cute shoe options. Wondering how they are for sizing and quality?

#boostme

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

"I'm too old to transition."

I thought that too. Then at 51, I started hormones.

Two years later, I look like this.

DivineKestrel, 5 days ago to random

Transition turning point.

I was pretty hell bent already, life was falling apart. I couldn't come back from COVID because being home with the kids all day was too amazing. I knew I wanted to be a mom and couldn't because…well, I'm a man. There were a lot of things pushing me but I knew I had to suck it up and just be a good dad.

Then one day, a group of the men from my church approached me and said they wanted me to join them for coffee on Saturday, which they do every week, calling it The Old Men Coffee Club.

I almost vomited.

I was forced to be a man, but I didn't want to be… that. Just picturing being in a group of old men made me sick to my stomach.

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

Dilating and watching episode 1 of Farscape.

Wish me luck.

DivineKestrel, 1 month ago to random

The next time I go to hang out with a cis male friend who knew me before transition I'm gonna just go on a hike alone and not hang out with the cis male friend who knew me before transition. Because neither "friend" nor "knew" are valid words to use in that sentence.

DivineKestrel, 22 hours ago to random

My favorite white feminists are the ones who question whether I "should really be a part of this community" immediately after saying they are angry that I have the audacity to look this hot all the time.

"We can't have these Trans woman dropping their kids off at school looking better than us!"

DivineKestrel, 23 days ago to random

Welcome to the world of the unemployed, I guess.

DivineKestrel, 29 days ago to random

I just took my collar off to go into my doctor's appointment and it feels like a piece of me has died.

DivineKestrel, 23 days ago to random

*Slides on lace panties

*Snaps stockings onto garter belt.

*Puts on violently red lipstick

*Pulls on low-cut, backless dress

*Steps into stiletto heels

*Walks into the IT convention speaking loudly

"Why aren't there any lesbian characters in Star Trek?!"

DivineKestrel, 14 days ago to random

I don't know who needs to hear this, but Deanna Tori had a perfect waist mainly because Marina Sirtis wore a corset.

It's me. I need to hear this.