Was it stupidity, denial or just obtuseness that made me not recognize #executivedysfunction for 50 years? Not even an "oh, it's that feeling again where I'll do anything I can to avoid this simple 5m task, maybe listening to music will help".
Or #RSD. Prooooobably most people aren't assuming that everyone not currently actively praising them is deeply angry at them for unspecified reasons.
Anyway, talk to your doctor and try some medication. It's pretty great.
