shepherd, 10 months ago (edited 10 months ago)

@minnieo

TWO - WHAT IF CHAOS WAS THE GOAL?

So Step One keeps you afloat. You need to not sink, because Step Two could take years or decades. My tolerable job keeps me afloat, and staying afloat means I have the space to work on this step.

I use this mantra: What if chaos was the goal?

This takes some unpacking because it's not what you've been told before. Everyone tells you to stuff all your uncontrollable creative manic learning into a tidy box, and put your stupid box into a neat cubicle beside all the other tidy boxes that aren't supposed to be dripping in this weeks paint-pouring hyperfixation.

Nah.

What if chaos was the goal?

What if you were supposed to be chaos?

What if your brand of chaos is what people want?

Our life's work is figuring out how to harness some of your unstoppable creative output into... literally anything that will help you make money lmao.

Consider this: There are people who really like those tattoos that look like "unfinished" sketched lines. There are people who pay to watch an artist do some crazy thing in sand. There are people who actually prefer what you consider to be unfinished random works.

Your chaos output? It's not useless, that's the plan, man. CHAOS IS THE GOAL.

I can't help you with this either, you gotta figure it out for yourself. Figure out how to turn your brand of weird brain into something that someone wants.

Yes, you jump around a lot. WHAT IF THAT'S WHOLE THE POINT? Some people do it, and a lot of folks really like that apparently.

MAKE CHAOS THE GOAL.

To be responsible here, you gotta find your tolerable survival baseline. But outside of that, you neeeeed to be figuring out how to convert your chaos energy into something that's going to help you out.

It's not going to be an easy job. You're a ship full of TNT. Everyone else is saying you need to keep a lid on that exploding shit. I'm telling you, keep your boat steady, and let's figure out how to focus your exploding shit into a damn rocketship.