It's so frustrating that I can just about function "normally" for a year max and then everything goes to shit, regardless of what I do, what's been happening, etc.
I don’t know if it’s common but I‘ve had this exact situation for most of my life. Only times when I went ok for more than a year (seven actually) was when I was my own boss. Without being constantly abused by superiors and colleagues I was able to function on my own.
@alexisbushnell i'd say so. But I have learned to build downtime into my "normal" and that helps a lot.
I'm trying to teach it to my daughter now, because she is trying so damn hard to "improve" herself and gets very discouraged when she needs a mental health day.
@willaful@alexisbushnell@actuallyautistic making a practice of building in buffer & recovery times has been challenging, but some of the better work that I’ve done to reduce the frequency shutdown and meltdowns. Sometimes I knowingly forgo this practice—and pay the cost, but I do so with informed consent. It is so wonderful to hear that you were teaching this to your kid. #autistic#autism#actuallyautistic#audhd
@alexisbushnell I havent functioned normally in years, perhaps decades. Society isnt allowing me to function at my personal level of personal norma-ness. I gave up the route of acting like a normal in 2009.
Things havent been fully functioning ever since, and not for a lack of trying.
Most if not all of my barriers to a fulfilling life exist in the control of others.
Feeling out of control seems to be my normal, which isnt fully functional in present society. @actuallyautistic
@punishmenthurts I attempted conformity for about 4 years. Worst four years of my life. Everything before those four years was me obeying 'adults' and seniors to avoid punishments, (not innately motivated)
Retirement! Much older than myself, I'm amazed we can survive all these years of denying our autonomy.
You give me some hope I might not die young after all.
46 is relatively young if I look at lives lived a hundred years ago, lived often over 100 years.
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