I'm awake early, though it felt like I was sleeping really deeply while asleep and the sleep app graph says I was
The difference may be from it didn't get so chilly overnight and when I did wake up once during the night and then when I woke up today, I was comfortably warm and didn't feel chilly any
Not sure what I'm going to do with today. Primary important task of something to get done is laundry. Everything else is do if I feel energy to do it.
The do laundry task is something that helped push me to going to the dr office yesterday. Because a few weeks ago, I had been able to manage to do laundry one day while I did work from home. This past week I would think about doing that but also realized it would spread me too thin with the effort involved. Or risked that and I couldn't afford to utterly crap out before 4 PM in the afternoon.
While multi tasking is more taxing for me than neurotypical people, in the past I would have been able to do something like work from home and also do laundry.
But now my energy margins are so thin and narrow I can't do that without risking me falling off the page.
Though if things unfold where I don't do laundry today, I have a backup plan where when I have Tuesday scheduled off, I can do laundry in morning and then of course in the afternoon go to my appt with my primary doctor
Slept for another 2.5 hours. Urgency of needing to pee woke me up though it feels like maybe I could sleep more, it also seems like a good idea to get up now and try to do the few small things I might be able to do.
Duolingo streak has reached 1960 days. I'm going to make another small pot of tea, enjoy that, then get showered, cleaned up, dressed, go check the laundry room to see if it's in use. If not, then I'll grab the laundry I want to do and get that task out of the way.
After that, I'll take stock of how I'm feeling and think about what else to try get done.
The big task I need to keep foremost for tomorrow is being up early enough to get to the lab first thing when it opens so I can get blood drawn, if I want to have those results back in time for the Tuesday afternoon appointment.
If the sun keep shining, it's going to be a lovely warm day. I hope it keeps shining through afternoon by which time I might only best be able to do is going outside and enjoy lollygagging in the solar embrace.
I've got 2 loads of laundry in the washers now. So in about 2 hours I will have fresh smelling clothes.
And my usual thing of when I do laundry, urging you all to consider using vinegar in the washer. Do that and you won't need fabric softener sheets in the dryer and those sheets are bad for the environment.
Watered the flowers and veggies. Yesterday's warm weather and sunshine had dried out the soil, so they were probably thirsty in plant terms.
Took a bit of garbage to dumpster.
I'm feeling relatively good, but can also tell when I do expend physical effort, I can feel how narrow the margins are.
Still I think when I get the laundry going in the dryers, I can use that interval of time to do a short walk. Do the small bit of exercise I can which is beneficial and prevents bad stuff like clots.
I didn't realize that somebody had left clothes in the dryers. They obviously been there some time because they weren't running when I went in the room.
Is it okay for me to remove those clothes from the dryers and put them on the table in the laundry room?
I feel like I'll be, I don't know, impinging upon privacy almost doing that. But I want to dry my clothes that are laundered and now wet.
@IzabelaKaramia And definitely don't sweat it. If you need a cognitive sinkhole for the blame, I'll gladly take it for you - it's not a radical act. Just do it as gently as you can.
You aren't invading their privacy - they didn't remove their clothes from a shared space.
Got laundry out of the dryers, brought back to apartment. Sorted, folded, hung as appropriate.
If only I had more energy and with how guanfacine is helping my emotional regulation and helping me take things step by step, I could get so much more done.
As it is, I feel almost exhausted after folding laundry.
Ran some errands. Good doing those but now it's clouding and I don't think the sun will reappear. I was hoping to sit in warm sun and read but that deal has expired
I bought mint chocolate chip ice cream today, which was my favorite flavor when a kid.
Had kinda hoped today that the ice cream truck might show up while the sun was shining. Some day, some day, there'll be a good warm sunny day and I'll get to be all excited like a little kid.
I have noticed in the past week some time they pulled the tarp off the swimming pool which opens Memorial Day weekend.
Realized I should make the bed while I still have some energy left to do that. Still going with the flannel sheets and all my winter blankets so I can stay warm while sleeping. It seems like otherwise I get too chilly during the night because my body isn't thermoregulating properly.
Thinking back to the mint chocolate chip ice cream, it's wild some to think how mint and spearmint can suppress testosterone and how that was one of my favorite flavors as a kid.
Almost like my spirit or soul was trying to hold off what it knew was not going to be right for me.
Late day goal now is trying to make it to 6 PM before I go to bed and sleep.
Setting an alarm for a bit earlier than usual for me to get up, would like to get to the lab before it opens at 6 tomorrow morning. Try to be one of the first in line and that way get back home with some time to relax a tiny bit before starting work at 8.
The afternoon might be tough tomorrow but I'm off on Tuesday.
Let's just hope that I don't get so bad to need an ER visit before a diagnosis and treatment
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