@OftOverthinking I still remember the first months of transition with something like wonder mixed with horror. I had no idea the lows could be SOOO low. It felt like a mistake just because I had the capacity to be sad at a scale I did not even understand was possible.
Over time, I realized that before I was not feeling lows, I was feeling numbness. And that my baseline pre-transition was so much lower.
So not only did I feel more variability in my moods, my average mood changed. That took a long time to get used to.