Trying to recoop after getting triggered last night from something completely insignificant
To my #CPTSD it was the end of the world and I just collapsed mentally hyperly aware of how ridiculous it would look to anyone else not feeling what my nervous system was feeling
This is my life as a #TraumaSurvivor and today I'm paying for it with 11/10 physical pain
My whole body was shaken and in terror, my mind unable to comprehend wtf is happening
"what's the big deal"
"nothing is happening"
Trying desperately to pull myself together to wait just 5-10 minutes to do what I need to do, gather up the resources to mask and make a #comfy space for anyone who would be there for my music
Fighting voices saying "no one cares, your music is stupid, this is useless, they just pity you, you're a fuck up"
A perfect chance to escape the feeds for a bit, interact with and directly support an awesome independent artist outside of the pressures of other platforms.
@radiofreefedi so much thanks to #RFF for the space and community. So much thanks to everyone who tuned in. I very much needed this time for my heart and soul. Will see you all next week for the #comfy
What if I wore all black alpaca wool clothing for improved healthy and aesthetic and comfort, and then did a silly lil thing of running away and bouncing around on my bed and hiding behind the feather pillar!
These are friendly for comradery and a perfect chance to interact with and directly support an awesome independent artist outside of the pressures of other platforms.
Chat is on if you'd like to participate or just #joinIn for a lovely listen.
These are usually a fun time for some comradery and a perfect chance to interact with and directly support an awesome independent artist outside of the pressures of other platforms.
On fait une petite pause douceur (avant de repartir à la bagarre) avec les illustrations que je réalise pour ma mécène qui à pris l'abonnement "Arbre Vénérable" sur Patreon. Comme d'habitude cette illustration est faite sous Manga Studio et la prochaine que je pisterais sera en tradi' au crayon de couleur.
Elles on été réalisées en Septembre, je n'ai eu aucune indication (donc carte blanche) et je voulais rendre une chaleur cocooning typique de l'automne ou il fait doux, mais un peu brumeux et frais. On commence à porter le pyjama en pilou, boire du thé, chercher des châtaignes... (Alors que dans la réalité au même moment il faisait 25° ^^' ).
J'espère que cela vous plairas, n'hésitez pas à me dire ce que vous en pensez en commentaire !
Je posterais régulièrement d'autres illustration déjà vu en avant-première par mes mécènes.
Si vous voulez me soutenir c'est par ici : https://www.patreon.com/LaurierTheFox