CynAq

@CynAq@neurodifferent.me

Jack of all trades, master of none, other than materials engineering. Managed to get a master's in that. I make documentaries too.
Cishet dude - he/they
#ADHD (probably #ActuallyAutistic)
#Humanist, not humanitarian
Proud #AntiFascist
#Videography : Semi-pro
I have a #documentary crew. I do #colorgrading, #postproduction
#Music : amateur
#WaterColors : noob

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mialikescoffee, to meta
@mialikescoffee@social.tchncs.de avatar

The discourse in the last few days regarding and gives the impression that the entire Fediverse is already blocking Threads. I wanted to take a look at the numbers and they speak a different language. The data source for my calculation is https://fedipact.veganism.social/?v=2.

Measured by user count, 76 % of all users are federated with Threads. Remaining instances with 24 % of users either block Threads or are limited (e.g. infosec.exchange).

CynAq,

@mialikescoffee that just means a few very large instances are federating with threads and a large number of smaller instances are defederating or limited.

In other words, it’s a representation of the real world where a large majority of people just follow trends set by people of influence and are content with just belonging, and many different minority groups are trying to loosely hang together to form a defense against their complete eradication by the enormous majority’s inertia.

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic

Do my comrades have a carb addiction?

If so, you’re not alone.

Do you find that carbs regulate you? Or dysregulate?

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic carbs make me feel awful so I need to avoid them but without carbs my brain doesn’t work, which makes me feel awful, so I need also need them.

I legit need to walk a tightrope of carbs-exercise-work-rest-sleep to feel alright and be functional at the same time.

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic

What does the term “unmasking” mean to my comrades?

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic I overthought this answer and now I’m second guessing everything I start to type. Unmasking is the opposite of this.

CynAq,

@EVDHmn @theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic thank you for your concern ☺️

Check out my post history tho, you’ll see I’m quite comfortable with the company around here. I feel pretty safe.

CynAq,

@EVDHmn @theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic no misspeaking, nothing to forgive 😊

Just wanted to put your mind at ease. Because you cared, I cared back.

baldur, to random
@baldur@toot.cafe avatar

“Nobody takes AI criticism seriously because it’s all lazy and badly thought out!”

Well, no, I and others tried the whole “let’s criticise this based on science, research and thoughtful arguments” and the response was just a firehose of diarrhoea nonsense wrapped up in a bow of mock-scientific theatrics and disingenuous falsehoods

Every single person—every single one of them—who is today complaining about the ‘quality’ of AI criticism spent months of outright ignoring thoughtful AI critique

CynAq,

@baldur I am a small time AI critic who values high quality, and one issue I’ve run into in my endeavors is that high quality criticism goes over people’s heads for whatever reason.

I don’t want to sound like I’m reader-blaming but I think when people are saying they want high quality criticism, they aren’t exactly aware that it will contain more information than they are willing to sort through and digest.

CynAq,

@baldur that would be the difference between big time and small time circles, I think. Maybe ego plays a bigger role in yours than mine?

As interest as this phenomenon is, I understand your frustration and want to say I appreciate your input regarding “AI” whenever I get a chance to read it.

CynAq, to actuallyautistic

I have a number of question for people who report :

Do you daydream at all, and if you do, how does that work without visuals?

How does your memory work in general? Assuming you remember seeing things, being in places, meeting people, how does that work?

When you need to describe the appearance of something, how do you go about doing that? Do you plan ahead and memorize lists of features while the thing is in front of you?

Thanks! I’m trying to wrap my brain around this phenomenon I can’t experience myself so if you take some time to educate me I’ll be forever grateful.

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@joshrivers
Thank you so much for the reply, it's very interesting!

I can relate to the 3d modeling environment analogy. My mind's eye is like that too, but the detail level isn't consistent. I can't say it's lossy by default. The loss depends on how much attention I can spare to look at something. If I'm paying attention, I usually remember a lot of details, and the more I intellectually know about a thing, the more details I can remember. I think my brain recreates the image like a self-correcting compression algorithm, piecing it together from different kinds of information,
@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@james
Very interesting.

It sounds like you actually do have pretty good visual memory but comes in parts. I think my visual memory is also like than when I'm alert and active, but my comfort zone is to hold the visual memory in place. That way I can hyperfocus and think about complicated details as deeply as my brain allows.

Now that I think about it, I can't really hold a vivid memory in my head AND keep myself alert and active. My ability to hold a detailed visual image completely disables my ability to perceive the physical world.

Shit, I think I discovered that I'm hypnotizing myself! Thank you for the assistance 🙂

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@FrightenedRat @james

I think by these two comments, I realized something about how my own visual imagination works.

If I'm active and alert, I have detailed but fleeting images. I can momentarily see something in my head and then it triggers a list of features in verbal form, which I can talk about, for example.

But I can also conjure up a detailed visual world, separate from the physical world and stay in it long term to explore the details. This is quite similar to a virtual reality but with all of the senses intact instead of just vision and hearing. While doing this, I absolutely can't perceive the physical world consciously though, so I can't stay alert and active.

I think I've been performing self-hypnosis my entire life without knowing I'm doing it.
@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@Susan60
That is fascinating!

If it won't be some sort of doxing (I don't know why it would be but, you know...), could you point me to the direction of this writer? I'd like to read some of his stuff.

@actuallyautistic

CynAq, to random

Thank you for the alert! I’ll immediately block the domain 👍

From: @Gargron
https://mastodon.social/@Gargron/111576825980285552

CynAq, to random

For some people, it feel’s good to add an apostrophe whenever an s follow’s a word, no matter the function of that s.

Inconsistency is also fine, so you can write maps but not map’s in the same sentence that you write camera’s but not cameras, twice.

From: @smallcircles
https://social.coop/@smallcircles/111573236218398692

russellmcormond, to actuallyautistic
@russellmcormond@fosstodon.org avatar

Introduction is: "Whenever I mention my feelings on ABA, someone always asks me for alternatives to ABA."

https://neurodivergentrebel.substack.com/p/alternatives-to-aba-if-not-aba-then

I really want to know why people think that is a valid question?
ABA is not about helping the person be themselves or have a better life, but to try to “convert” them to be more like other people to make those other people feel more comfortable with their beliefs.

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@Susan60
@KitMuse
@russellmcormond @actuallyautistic people who are knowledgeable about the history of ABA say it’s a version of gay conversion therapy but for autistic people. IIRC, it’s either invented by the same people who invented conversion therapy or it’s based on the same, now discredited source material.

There is a lot of material out there, including a Behind the Bastards series about it. It looks like it’s been horrific from the get go, and if anything, has been desaturated and humanized a bit. It started with straight up beatings and electric shocks, which turned into deprivation from positive experiences when authorities got the inhumane treatment banned.

CynAq,

@Susan60 @russellmcormond @actuallyautistic @KitMuse from what I read and listened, parents like it because it’s marketed to them as the only possible solution to the enormous and devastating problem that is having an autistic child, by a billion dolar industry headed by “autism speaks”.

Parents are told their child (who isn’t exactly human) will not only never have a fulfilling, happy life but will also ruin their lives as parents, and the only way to maybe have something resembling normalcy is to put their kid through ABA.

I suspect you are trying to find a silver lining because you can’t fathom something like this can be done by people to people without well meaning people making honest mistakes, but don’t underestimate the evil people can do to those they refuse to understand for their own comfort.

CynAq,

@Susan60 @russellmcormond @actuallyautistic @KitMuse I hope I didn’t come off as judgy in my previous comments. I didn’t intend to mean you were engaging with the issues of ABA naively.

I myself have a tendency to fit humane explanations to behavior from other people that doesn’t make sense to me and it takes me a while to accept that some people are just selfish and cruel. I think I was projecting that a bit.

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic

How do my comrades cope with / handle / process grief?

Do you do it "differently"?

If so, you're not alone.

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@innervisioner @theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic I’m exactly the same way.

Interesting part is, sometimes I get waves of grief come out of nowhere and I can’t figure out who or what I’m grieving.

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic

For those of my comrades who don't recognize themselves as being in Autistic Burnout -

Is it possible that you actually may be masking your Burnout?

@actuallyautistic

CynAq,

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic I certainly have in the past, but what I’m doing right now is more like denying it.

My circumstances don’t require me to mask anything these days but I’m having a hard time acknowledging that the lack of energy and motivation I’m experiencing is due to autistic burnout.

haui, to actuallyautistic

@actuallyautistic

I feel like I'm really getting into autistic spaces in the past couple of months. It feels very different from the past couple of years, not to say the rest of my life.

Being able to express my feelings without constantly being told they're invalid is a completely new concept for me. Relating to people and them relating to me.

Not sure what to make of it rn but I kinda like it. I don't fully trust it yet but I try to.

Anyone else?

CynAq,

@haui @actuallyautistic yup, same.

I find that even disagreements among frequenters of spaces (at least on mastodon) seem to involve much more understanding and acceptance than I’m used to everywhere else.

kbeninato, to random
@kbeninato@mstdn.party avatar

Changing "trained on" to "stolen from" in the AI discourse would be a better description of what's been done.

CynAq,

@WeavingWithAI @kbeninato it’s not only possible but extremely common to see publicly available works plagiarized, and it’s still a crime.

You either are an extremely superficial thinker or you’re a troll.

CynAq,

@dogzilla @kbeninato @bmacDonald94 human learning and machine learning are extremely different processes in every context.

Outside of word choices for describing “machine learning” and related fields, the two have quite literally nothing in common. Not in the input, not in the training, not in the output.

Human intelligence and “artificial intelligence” as implemented today are more different from each other than the flight of a bird and the flight of a plane.

So no, LLMs absolutely DON’T learn from “other” artists like human artists do. Humans learn, LLMs quantize and encode. These are different processes.

CynAq,

@WeavingWithAI I’m leaning more on troll but of course, why not both?

snoopy_jay, to actuallyautistic
@snoopy_jay@mastodon.world avatar

@actuallyautistic
What's the deal with "keen sense of justice"? I am not sure what it's called in English, but I keep reading that it's an autism thing and I definitely have been accused of an "exaggerated" sense of justice or having too much of it. Why do we have that?

CynAq,

@snoopy_jay @actuallyautistic my personal theory is that as children, we all start out with a keen sense of justice but then NTs get desensitized to all the injustice around them, especially those which benefit themselves or their group, but autistic people tend to stay sensitive as is the case with other types of hypersensitivity common among them.

baldur, to random
@baldur@toot.cafe avatar

‘cohost! - “enshittification is what happens when a disney adult learns about captialism”’

"enshittification is not what companies become, it’s what companies set out to be. enshittification is talked about as if it’s an affliction affecting capitalism, rather than the desired outcome." https://cohost.org/tef/post/3175066-enshittification-is

CynAq,

@pluralistic @benjamineskola @baldur it also shields people from any responsibility. Capitalism or not, people need to not be shitty in order to keep from ending up in “enshittified” circumstances.

Capitalism being inherently doomed doesn’t change the fact that identifying what to avoid is necessary to safeguard against it.

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