I had what we will call “an incident” where I took pretty close to this scale of extra insulin. I’m a much heavier insulin user but it varies greatly between people and the kind of person who is dosing fractions of a unit like 0.15 turning into 15 would be a massive problem. It took about an hour for me to get to the hospital and I seemed just fine at that point. I don’t know why because usually the type of insulin I use hits it’s peak within an hour for me. My only guess is that my body was overwhelmed and somehow delayed my reaction to it, which I’ve never seen before.
I got into the ER and they were very casual about it. From my past experience in medicine I’m guessing they weren’t sure if it really happened and wanted to see how it played out. My blood sugar was somewhere around 100 when they first tested me. 5 minutes later it was in the 40s. At that point the nurse said “oh fuck!” and sprinted to grab D50 (basically a sugar infusion) from where they keep their meds. I have been a paramedic (not just an EMT) and I can count the number of times I’ve seen a nurse run on my fingers.
They started an IV in both arms and were pumping sugar in to keep me alive. My memory gets kinda hazy after that. They kept checking my blood for potassium levels because burning through that much insulin + glucose uses it up and can stop your heart. Eventually they had to start a central line (like an IV but straight into your heart) in my neck to deliver insulin because they were worried all the sugar they were giving in both arms would burn my arm veins. I remember the feeling when they started it and used a probe to see if it was in the right place the “tickling” feeling literally in my heart. I ended up in the ICU on 1-to-1 with a nurse because they had to monitor me so closely. If I had been later to the ER by 10-15 minutes I wouldn’t be telling you this story. I also had the benefit of knowing what happened ahead of time, which you would not if your pump magically multiplied your dose by 100 and you didn’t notice.
I just got up from conversation with a couple of older black men, that I said “well I got to go back to work and start cracking the whip.” And it occurred to me then that it was probably a really insensitive stupid thing to say....
So I look very ugly and honestly don’t look feminine at all and just look like a guy with girls’ clothes draped over him. I have been on HRT for a year and 6 months, I went from 4 to 6mg in April and I still look pretty terrible, I am not sure what I can do differently and I feel like maybe I am overweight which ruined my...
I look at you and see a person. A person who doesn’t deserve the critical words that you’re writing about yourself. I don’t feel comfortable as a cis man coming into this space and telling someone whether they pass so I won’t (that doesn’t mean I don’t think you do!). But the only person who defines who you are is you.
Are you transitioning so that the republicans might be right about something? Therapy, medications, all sorts of thoughts and emotions, changing your body… I didn’t think so. Anyone who assumes as much by simply looking at you isn’t worth my time, and I hope they’re not worth yours either.
Remember, everyone only has so much control over their own appearance, it only represents what’s inside as much as it will let us. The rest has to be made up for by acceptance. You’re so not alone there.
Look around at these comments… You have people from all over the internet telling you directly or indirectly the same thing. Be who you are. For yourself. Or you’ll never be happy.
I recently moved to California. Before i moved, people asked me “why are you moving there, its so bad?”. Now that I’m here, i understand it less. The state is beautiful. There is so much to do....
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Do you ever wonder how normal people would react if we were able to give them our pain for a day? I feel like our tolerance for pain has gone up enough that what we feel on the day to day would make someone legitimately think they’re dying and go to the hospital
I don’t personally have chronic pain, but I have other disabilities which cause chronic suffering if that makes sense. I apologize if this is a poor way to relate and I have no interest in which of us has it “worse” or anything like that.
But boy do I wish I could bestow upon others a time-limited sampling of the life I live with the bonus of having people like themselves around to motivate them.
So I’ve been diagnosed with dysthymia, and have been on various medications for about 13-15 years now. Long story short, it works for the most part, but doesn’t quite go all the way. In other words, I still deal with a great deal of depression every day. Some of it is stress related, and some of it is out of nowhere....
Sorry, I’m getting tired so this response won’t be as complete as I would like. Disclaimer: all of this is based on my own experience and I don’t know how much others differ.
Ketamine was great. I’ve been around the mental health world quite a bit in the past few years and tried all sorts of treatments, and one of the things that surprised me when I started ketamine was how much they let you flounder with less effective stuff before doing ketamine. I remember reading the wiki article on it and the success rate was incredibly high compared to other things I’d tried before.
In case you’re going in expecting to have a mild experience like with most medications, don’t. The first session at the reduced dose I mentally was in another dimension. It’s not uncomfortable or scary, it’s just also not subtle by any definition. It wears off quickly, for me almost always within 45 minutes if I slept the night before, and those 45 minutes never felt way longer. My tolerance built up quickly and twice a week for the first month ended up with less impactful sessions than when I went down to once a week. If I skipped a week or two the next session was pretty much back at full strength.
The goal is to wake up some of your neural pathways you’ve neglected to use while depressed. Think of it as hiking trails through a forest that have become overgrown so you stick to the comfortable, well-travelled ones (depression). What this means for what you might experience is the awakening of some of your demons so you can confront them and leave them behind. The good thing is that they’re not scary in the moment, but you likely will come out of some more intense sessions feeling some ways about stuff. After the whole thing I would say definitely worth it, and I’m the “avoid anything even slightly unpleasant at all costs” type. ETA: I also had a lot of “epiphanies” about stuff I already knew that helped me see reality in a different way. For example, I already knew that most of my issues were situational, but through these sessions I realized that if a problem is from something outside of myself, that means it’s not evidence that there’s something wrong with me. I know it sounds silly when written out, but those are the types of revalations I had and that specific one has been one of the strongest tools I’ve had since then.
Ketamine was the last treatment I did for my depression, a rather severe case with one of the episodes lasting a few years and a serious suicide attempt. Depression is no longer on the list of things I feel the need to actively work on (apart from small maintenance to my thoughts) and I’ve discontinued all of my depression meds that I was relying on before that.
No kidding, I stared at it for a minute going “is this going to set it off?” and when my brain finally decided it couldn’t come up with an explanation it launched hard into the skin crawling, scalp itching and nausea. It’s like visual kryptonite.
It’s very similar but it’s not the exact same (not including the time release part). Vyvanse is 100% dextroamphetamine after time release; adderall is 3/4 dextro and 1/4 levoamphetamine. Different people feel that differently, for example with only dextro I feel much calmer/less prone to anxiety, but without the small amount of levo I have trouble motivating myself and can fall asleep easily. They also have 100% dextro in instant release format: dexedrine or zenzedi.
I have been on reddit for just about 12 years now. Something I’ve noticed over time is just how hateful the place has become. A complete outrage machine. Every single sub became filled with it. I’ve filtered so many subreddits over the last few years, it’s insane. I don’t know enough about this place to be sure, but I do...
Holy fuck 200k workers!? I'm not familiar with lemmy internals but I've literally never seen any program run anything close to well at levels that high. Want some help from someone who is a DevOps engineer by day? I think I remember you said you were a psql dba professionally so maybe my experience could help out?
Lawsuit time 🇺🇸🦅 (lemmy.world)
Reminds me of the Therac-25 incident…
This may seem kind of stupid but I am kind of stupid, is there a list somewhere of phrases that are stupid or insensitive racially or gender biased?
I just got up from conversation with a couple of older black men, that I said “well I got to go back to work and start cracking the whip.” And it occurred to me then that it was probably a really insensitive stupid thing to say....
Why Elon Musk Fought a Federal Search Warrant to Help Trump (www.thedailybeast.com)
Twitter, owned by Musk, fought for months for the right to tell Trump about Special Counsel Jack Smith’s search warrant for his account.
Should I de-transition so liberals don't see me and say maybe the republicans are on to something (pricefield.org)
So I look very ugly and honestly don’t look feminine at all and just look like a guy with girls’ clothes draped over him. I have been on HRT for a year and 6 months, I went from 4 to 6mg in April and I still look pretty terrible, I am not sure what I can do differently and I feel like maybe I am overweight which ruined my...
Obligatory "You will own nothing and be happy" (lemmy.world)
Why do people dislike California?
I recently moved to California. Before i moved, people asked me “why are you moving there, its so bad?”. Now that I’m here, i understand it less. The state is beautiful. There is so much to do....
Me_irl (lemmy.world)
DOJ prosecutors request gag order after Trump arraignment, citing social media threats (thehill.com)
Just a though about allowing others to feel our pain
Do you ever wonder how normal people would react if we were able to give them our pain for a day? I feel like our tolerance for pain has gone up enough that what we feel on the day to day would make someone legitimately think they’re dying and go to the hospital
Ketamine for Drug-Resistant Depression
So I’ve been diagnosed with dysthymia, and have been on various medications for about 13-15 years now. Long story short, it works for the most part, but doesn’t quite go all the way. In other words, I still deal with a great deal of depression every day. Some of it is stress related, and some of it is out of nowhere....
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How do I get rid of the hard particulate matter embedded within my window screen (lemmy.world)
I moved into a place with one very hazy window screen that is difficult to see through....
Oof… (i.imgur.com)
TIFU by accidentally choosing a nazi username
Obligatory “not today” disclaimer: actually fucked up over two decades ago, but found out today....
Reddit slowly became filled with hate
I have been on reddit for just about 12 years now. Something I’ve noticed over time is just how hateful the place has become. A complete outrage machine. Every single sub became filled with it. I’ve filtered so many subreddits over the last few years, it’s insane. I don’t know enough about this place to be sure, but I do...
John Roberts Begs the Liberal Justices to Stop Criticizing the Court (newrepublic.com)
The chief justice doesn’t like his conservative Supreme Court colleagues getting called out for judicial overreach.
Federation troubleshooting
So I've been troubleshooting the federation issues with some other admins:...
(mid)Journey to the bottom of the sea (i.imgur.com)
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Linus be like... (sh.itjust.works)
~~Almost~~ OVER 90% of the accounts on lemmy are now bot accounts!!
Here you can see 2 day old post warning about the danger of not using email/captcha verification: https://lemmy.ml/post/1345031...