kelidanovus

kelidanovus, 6 months ago to trans

“Most changes are done after the first 1-2 years.”

Uh huh. Tell me another.

Just keep swimming. 😘

#Trans #TransJoy #TransTimeline

kelidanovus, 7 months ago to random

Why is the predominant response from cis women when I mention bottom surgery “Are you sure you really want to do that?”

Like, “Yes I’m sure. I’ve had this urge for nearly 30 years. I didn’t just wake up one morning and decide to do it for the yucks.”

kelidanovus, 10 months ago to random

New discovery: long fingernails make laptop chiclet keyboards even more frustrating than before. 🙄

kelidanovus, 2 months ago to random

So bottom dysphoria actually increases as you approach bottom surgery? It seems that a lifelong coping strategy of repression and numbness doesn’t work all that well once some actual hope creeps in.

kelidanovus, 7 months ago to random

Ugh packing as a girl is bonkers. So many things for a two night trip. Still worried I’m forgetting something too…

kelidanovus, 6 months ago to random

It’s 36F at elementary school drop off this morning and the number of kids walking in without a jacket or a coat boggles my mind. Do these kids run on antifreeze or something?

kelidanovus, 1 year ago to random

Took the day off work for a salon visit. I’m getting color in my hair for the first time ever and am sitting in the chair right now while the stylist preps the color in back. So nervous and excited all at once to see how it turns out. 🤞

kelidanovus, 9 months ago to random

Douglas Adams plays it as a joke but honestly "Don't Panic" is just about the best evergreen advice. God knows I need to hear it some days.

kelidanovus, 6 months ago to random

First time through an airport since changing my legal name and gender marker. Gotta love not having to out myself at each checkpoint.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to linux

Folks on stack exchange will say “oh it’s real simple using sed“ and then post the most arcane line of undecipherable Deep Magic you’ve ever seen.

#linux #sysadmin

kelidanovus, 1 month ago to random

Ugh. My white blood cell count was high during my pre-surgery clearance exam two weeks ago. Doctor had me re-blood draw today and it’s still high. If this screws up my surgery, I’m absolutely gonna scream.

I had pink eye during the week between the blood draws. My kids, like all kids, are germ favorites. Not sure if that’s related. I was asymptomatic the days of both tests.

kelidanovus, 4 months ago to random

The combined post holiday funk and simple weariness of extended all day parenting kids on winter break is reaching critical mass levels. Going back to work is starting to sound not so bad.

kelidanovus, 8 months ago to trans

I swear to God estrogen is the fountain of youth. Like how is this even possible?

#TransTimeline #transitionTimeline #Trans #TransJoy

kelidanovus, 5 months ago to random

My weekend itinerary starting tomorrow: home -> car -> local train -> overnight train -> hotel -> Uber -> company holiday party -> Uber -> hotel -> subway -> airplane -> car -> home.

I have definitely made this more complicated than it needed to be. 🤦‍♀️

On the flip side, fancy dress opportunity imminent! 💃

kelidanovus, 5 months ago to random

I used to laugh at the scene in a movie where a woman stands in her walk-in closet surrounded by clothes and complains, “I have nothing to wear!”

Now I want to cry. The pain is real. 🙃

kelidanovus, 9 days ago to random

Trying to work the week before bottom surgery is like trying to pay attention to the teacher the week before Christmas. Who can possibly concentrate like this?

kelidanovus, 6 months ago to random

Modern computers: connecting us in a globe encircling mesh of high speed communications enabling heretofore unimaginable leaps in productivity, entertainment, and commerce.

Also modern computers: wasting 3 days of my time with cryptic error messages because I used a dash instead of an underscore.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

A series of aggressive text messages from my ex about how my transition is messing up our kids’ mental health.

Perfect. Just what I needed to start my day.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

When you find your people hold on to them like your life depends on it. Because it very well might.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

Early #transition is a procession of profoundly uncomfortable experiences. Every step, no matter how small, feels laden with terrible consequence.

The first times I went out in public presenting as myself I had to fight a nearly overwhelming urge to run home and hide. My imagination was on overdrive conjuring up nightmare scenarios. It was terrifying.

But we power through. We find reserves of strength we didn’t know we had, and it gets better.

Keep the faith. You’ll get where you need to be.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to trans

When I was 14 I had a dream that I had been magically gifted a girl’s body. I was overjoyed but even in the dream feared the consequences. It was the late 90’s. I panicked, and my dream body reverted. The sense of loss upon waking is something that has never left me.

In 2020 with the world falling to pieces around us I started down a path to reclaim what was lost. In 100 days I will go to sleep again, this time on a surgeon’s table.

It won’t be the end. But it will be an end.

#trans

kelidanovus, 1 month ago to trans

It’s unseasonably warm so I broke out a summer dress while it lasts. Not going to lie: I’m feeling kind of pretty today.

#trans #selfie #TransJoy

kelidanovus, 13 days ago to random

Ewwphoria: accused of “too much emotion” in a daily scrum. 🙄

kelidanovus, 6 days ago to random

Witness protection ain’t got nothing on the transition timelines of my friends.

kelidanovus, 5 days ago to random

Learned from a Jewish friend yesterday that there’s an argument to be made that what was taken from Adam to make Eve is not accurately translated as a “rib”, but rather “side” or “aspect”.

So that would mean God took the feminine from Adam to make Eve, leaving behind the masculine.

Working backwards then, if Adam was originally made in the image of God and encompassed both masculine and feminine, God is enby, and by embracing both we can draw nearer to the divine.