kelidanovus

kelidanovus, 6 days ago to random

Learned from a Jewish friend yesterday that there’s an argument to be made that what was taken from Adam to make Eve is not accurately translated as a “rib”, but rather “side” or “aspect”.

So that would mean God took the feminine from Adam to make Eve, leaving behind the masculine.

Working backwards then, if Adam was originally made in the image of God and encompassed both masculine and feminine, God is enby, and by embracing both we can draw nearer to the divine.

kelidanovus, 7 days ago to random

Witness protection ain’t got nothing on the transition timelines of my friends.

kelidanovus, 9 days ago to random

Trying to work the week before bottom surgery is like trying to pay attention to the teacher the week before Christmas. Who can possibly concentrate like this?

kelidanovus, 14 days ago to random

Ewwphoria: accused of “too much emotion” in a daily scrum. 🙄

kelidanovus, 25 days ago to trans

Entering my hot girl era 20 years late is infinitely better than never.

#trans #transjoy #selfie

kelidanovus, 1 month ago to trans

It’s unseasonably warm so I broke out a summer dress while it lasts. Not going to lie: I’m feeling kind of pretty today.

#trans #selfie #TransJoy

kelidanovus, 1 month ago to random

TFW you only realize your pajamas are inside out because the Starfleet insignia is on the wrong boob. 🫣

kelidanovus, 1 month ago to random

Ugh. My white blood cell count was high during my pre-surgery clearance exam two weeks ago. Doctor had me re-blood draw today and it’s still high. If this screws up my surgery, I’m absolutely gonna scream.

I had pink eye during the week between the blood draws. My kids, like all kids, are germ favorites. Not sure if that’s related. I was asymptomatic the days of both tests.

kelidanovus, 2 months ago to trans

Every morning that I get up and see Her in the mirror is a gift. It’s never too late.

#trans #selfie #TransJoy

kelidanovus, 2 months ago to random

So bottom dysphoria actually increases as you approach bottom surgery? It seems that a lifelong coping strategy of repression and numbness doesn’t work all that well once some actual hope creeps in.

kelidanovus, 2 months ago to trans

People like to give #trans folks shit for going overboard with their gender exploration, but I’d argue that we’re owed. Every day, month, and year that we hid away in the closet the universe accrued a debt to us. Time to pay up. Compound interest is a bitch.

And now so am I… 😘

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to trans

Every morning I look into the bathroom mirror and find a girl looking back at me. It’s somehow wildly surprising and the most natural thing in the world all at once.

#trans #TransJoy

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

When you find your people hold on to them like your life depends on it. Because it very well might.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

Bottom dysphoria hitting hard this morning. I have a strong suspicion that the closer I get to May the harder it will be to ignore this. It’s been wrong for 41 years, so you’d think that 3 more months would be easy but…

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to Nails

Winter #nails can still be pretty nails. 💅

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

Early #transition is a procession of profoundly uncomfortable experiences. Every step, no matter how small, feels laden with terrible consequence.

The first times I went out in public presenting as myself I had to fight a nearly overwhelming urge to run home and hide. My imagination was on overdrive conjuring up nightmare scenarios. It was terrifying.

But we power through. We find reserves of strength we didn’t know we had, and it gets better.

Keep the faith. You’ll get where you need to be.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

A series of aggressive text messages from my ex about how my transition is messing up our kids’ mental health.

Perfect. Just what I needed to start my day.

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to trans

When I was 14 I had a dream that I had been magically gifted a girl’s body. I was overjoyed but even in the dream feared the consequences. It was the late 90’s. I panicked, and my dream body reverted. The sense of loss upon waking is something that has never left me.

In 2020 with the world falling to pieces around us I started down a path to reclaim what was lost. In 100 days I will go to sleep again, this time on a surgeon’s table.

It won’t be the end. But it will be an end.

#trans

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to trans

Trialing some new #CurlyHair products today. I’d call this a tentative success?

#trans #selfie

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to random

Average pizza quality can be found by evaluating f(x)=1√2πe−x2/2 where x is the distance from downtown Chicago. You may encounter opinions to the contrary but they are objectively wrong.

I tried pizza in Italy once. It was like if you had described pizza to a Martian chef with no sense of touch or taste.

#FoodFacts

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to linux

Folks on stack exchange will say “oh it’s real simple using sed“ and then post the most arcane line of undecipherable Deep Magic you’ve ever seen.

#linux #sysadmin

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to trans

How will you know? You won’t. That’s all it is. A leap of faith.

#Trans #TransTimelime #TransJoy

kelidanovus, 3 months ago to trans

Had to step in twice today for junior coworkers who were too shy to speak up when somebody repeatedly mispronounced their name in a meeting. #Trans assertiveness powers activate! 😄

kelidanovus, 4 months ago to random

Living as yourself is not selfish. It’s a fundamental need. Damn anyone who would try to deny you that.

kelidanovus, 4 months ago to random

How frazzled am I trying to work my full-time job while my kids are home for a snow day?

Well, I just burned Kraft macaroni and cheese into an unrecognizable black mess. It only has one step: add water. Guess what I failed to do. 🤦‍♀️