PixysJourney

PixysJourney, 4 months ago to actuallyautistic

Sensory overload.
Sound. Light. Even smells...
When I go out, I try to use my NC headphones as much as I can.
I have dark sunglasses to accompany me. And often wear a baseball cap as well.
Overload can also happen from socializing. It takes a lot out of me. Even with people that I care loads for.
Sometimes I just need "me time". Just me, a favorite activity and/or series on TV. No talking. No thinking. Just relaxing...

I think it's one of the more difficult things of my autism. I get overloaded too easily, and when I get to a meltdown, it's bad and takes even longer before I can recover.

Anyone recognize this? Any tips I haven't tried yet perhaps? 😊

#ActuallyAutistic

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney, 15 days ago to Pixelfed

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

Alright I uploaded my pictures to #Pixelfed just now!
I'll share the links here, there are two posts, one for upstairs and one for downstairs.
Dad sent me some pics as well, so I may upload some of those as well. And I made two quick videos but I need to make them smaller to fit on this server. 😊 I'm working on it!
But I had a restless night so am a bit slow this morning.... 🥱

https://pixelfed.social/p/PixysSnaps/696119350196152763

https://pixelfed.social/p/PixysSnaps/696120936900005029

Vids coming ASAP!!

Hope it gives a good impression of the house. I didn't get any pictures from the outside and we didn't stay too long. It was so busy (I felt very anxious with so many people, even though they'll be my new neighbors, time enough to meet them later on) and it was very warm (28°C) and I was also tired... So my parents and I walked around, took pics and the vids I'll share soon, and we headed home again before traffic would be bad...
Time enough in a few months to take make pictures when it's done and when I'll be working on it... Alone and with friends! 😁

#NewHome #Moving #AllNew

Edit: I'll make this a pinned thread 🧵 for all things to do with the move from now on. 😊

Tim_McTuffty, 1 day ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 213 , Tuesday 28/05/2024

Up at 6m as Mrs S. was back in work today.

Another day of fighting the agoraphobia & losing . The spectre of the world beyond the front door playing havoc with my mind.

Watching others sally forth, both in analog & digital life makes me realise how far I have to go to get better.

I would go to the GP, but the whole thing over the ADHD assessment has badly shaken my trust in them.
Also I am so very aware of the state of the NHS & I feel that I cannot deny other, more worthy souls their opportunity to get medical help.

So chores are done and now I roam the countryside around Boston in the virtual world of Fo4.
I was analysing my current play style & I am being so very logical about it - for no reason. I need to relax & play the game as I encounter it, instead of maximising companion potential or trying to do stuff in a set order.

Got a new stand for the iPad today , gotta get used to the new layout - it’s more comfortable if a little odd at the moment.

Final Thoughts.

Sometimes my autistic nature makes me miss communication cues. I fail to respond in the way folk expect , sometimes say things innocently that are misinterpreted because there are certain rules that I either don’t know or don’t understand.
I am kind by nature & like to see the best in people, I like to compliment folk, often the old adage ‘it’s nice to be nice’ comes into play.
Sometimes I do not recognise the unseen, unspoken edges of what is acceptable, people have blocked me before today for being too familiar too soon.This upsets me a great deal when it happens. Thankfully it has not happened since I got my diagnosis.
Now I know I am autistic I take steps to try & avoid the more obvious pit falls , but sometimes I forget or get a little over enthusiastic & folk bring me up short. Then I back away & something is lost.

I had hoped that my GP would help me find the help I need but they seem disinterested. For now I am on my own.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney, 8 days ago to actuallyautistic

Question to fellow #NeuroSpicy #AuDHD folks... :confusedparrot:

For what sort of toots could I use hashtags like #ActuallyAutistic or the previous two I just used?

I Toot quite a bit about me and my quirky way life. But I never really know if I "should" add any ND hashtags as the "silly" things I Toot about are quite normal to me. If that makes sense 🤔...

I'm proud enough, these days, of who I am. But I wonder if and when it would be good to add some of these tags... Maybe it could help connect with other peeps like me 😇.

Fankoos 🫶🏻 for your help! 🌸

@actuallyautistic

:boosts_ok_gay:

PixysJourney, 6 months ago to ADHD

Howdy kind Mastonauts! 😁 Welcome to this new account.
I made (another) account to share things that are not health or entertainment related. I have dedicated accounts for those things (links in bio).

I will boost those toots when I feel them "good enough" to share with you.

I'm #AuDHD (#Actually Autistic and #ADHD). I live with #Fibromyalgia and #Hypermobility. Got a fake hip. Love fitness. Have an eating disorder that I struggle with. I also have been fighting with #ChronicDepression for many years.

My big love is my 10 year old Labrador lady Arwen. She's slowly showing her age, bless her, so I'm often worried about that.

I have a silly kind of humor and often a either too straight forward or too anxious to say anything.

Have a nice day everyone! 🌸

Tim_McTuffty, 2 days ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 212 , Monday 27/05/2024

Up really early today (05:30) which is ironic because it’s a public holiday & I should have had a lie in.
Hey ho.

Bit of banter on Mastodon - congrats to @dgar for a very respectable 3rd place in #FediVision24 btw !

Binge watched ‘Traces’ series 2 - not a bad series !

Final Thoughts.

I was in quite a dark place this morning & wrote a whole thing on things that triggered me, but I’ve mellowed out during the day.
The upshot of this is that I have gone from epically insightful final thoughts to this ! 🙄🤦‍♂️ 😆

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney, 6 months ago to medical

#Journal of a silly Dutch Pixy 🧚🏼‍♀️

So, yesterday (Wednesday) was a bit different than the past 10 weeks or so... I don't have group on Thursday anymore which means mum and I can resume out groceries shopping in Germany on Thursdays again, instead of Wednesday.

I got up a wee bit before the alarm. It was very cold, well, cold enough for me. I got dressed and prepared Arwen's food. We went for walkies and then I finished Arwen's meal. She got a snack on the couch and I headed to the gym.

Got on the scale first and it was super kind to me! Compared to my measurements of the 12th (10 days ago) I lost 1,5 kilos. I definitely had not expected that. 😊
I started with some arm exercises, even though it should be leg day. Just wasn't up to them I guess. After some arm training I got to the seated bike for my usual simple ride. Then, I felt OK enough and I hit some of the leg exercises that I should have started with. But hey, doing them now so good on me!

Then I got home and had some breakfast. Let Arwen out for a pee and then I did something totally weird to most 😂. I hate the long, green, bits of leak in my food. I had gotten a big bin of Nasi Goreng from the supermarket. It was enough for two meals. So I got two smaller bins and... I slowly devided the big one over the smaller ones, trying to scoop out all the leeks I could find. And yeah, I did measure the weights to be sure they were as equally devided as possible. 😂

I got to my hometrainer next. I wanted to ride 90+5 minutes but I got distracted so I ended with 98 minutes. It was just on a low setting due to my muscles struggling, but I rode it nevertheless and it felt good. 😊

After washing up and getting dressed again, we went for our 3km walkies with our friend and their dog. The weather was cold but fortunately also dry. Then I went onwards to the Lidl, as I'd not been able to go on Monday, as I usually do. When I got back I fixed some food and then got to the treadmill. I walked slowly for an hour. It felt very long and I was bummed I could not go a bit faster. But again I had to remind myself that it was a 60% kinda day the way my muscles felt, so I had to relax.

On my way back from the Lidl a dear friend called me and we had a nice chat as I was going about my groceries. Ow after that I took them to the voting area across the street as I felt I should vote for the House of Representatives this time around.
They were still chatting with me when I started my treadmill walk, after I had some food. My food was crunchy so I apologized for my eating sounds often 😂.
After a bit we said goodbye and I was almost done with the treadmill walk then. So that had been nice. Some Downton till my hour was up.

I walked Arwen and got stuff ready for some coop gaming with a dear friend later on. Unfortunately they had some issues with their account and we had to play another game. Not that bad, it was still fun! Just not what we'd both been aiming for. 😊 I started yawning and kept it going throughout the game! I guess I must have yawned their ears off!!

That always happens when it's in the afternoon and I sit down to relax. My body goes into a "you're not moving so let's yawn because you already did a lot" mode and it's kinda annoying. I hate yawning all the time, especially when I'm at a voice chat and trying to play a game...

Around 4 we closed up the game and before saying goodbye, my friend just vanished 😂! Haha! I got a big sorry text about that. I just laughed and said it was OK. I got ready for bed with the usual bits that I do. When Arwen and I went out, of course it started to rain. Just some drizzle but still kinda annoying. My bed was nice and cozy when I slipped in and I don't think I had loads of time to read before I dozed off... 😴

#PixysJourney

Tim_McTuffty, 22 hours ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 214 , Wednesday 29/05/2024

Up a little later today as Mrs S. was working from home.

Still fighting the agoraphobia , sometimes I wish I didn’t live so very far from my family, they would come round & drag me out.
But they live nearly 100 miles away & have their own lives.

Spent the morning totally indecisive about what to do.

Made some egg sandwiches for me n Mrs S. for lunch , then , as per had to clear up & wash the dishes too.

Ended up reading for a couple of hours then hit Fo4 after lunch.

Went wild & forsook the soup option for tea, in favour of spaghetti hoops with a couple of slices of toast - I really need to break out of the house so I can get some real food !

Final Thoughts.

Stupid brain going nuts about going outside !

I need to get myself out of this current episode , it’s not as bad as some I’ve had , but it is doing my tree in!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney, 4 months ago to Spotify

Pressed the #Spotify follow button for #Dgar. (@dgar)
Let's see/listen to what he has to offer....

#Music

PixysJourney, 3 months ago to random

I do hope that Arwen and I will have several more years together...
She turns 11 this year... 💜
My previous Lab gall, Chance, made it to 12. So a small fear in me says this could be the last year together... It scares me a bit. 😔
I know I should not think of this. But life is fragile. And my brain is fighting the dark monster, which allows thoughts like these.
I hope Arwen will grow old and stay healthy for several more years to come...
I hope she gets to enjoy our new place in several months time.
No more stairs and a small garden. 😊
Happy thoughts Pixy, happy ones...

PixysJourney, 6 months ago to random

My #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD brain needs reminders.

TL;DR I didn't do my taxes for two years as they didn't send a reminder 😔

When I don't get them, I know I should be doing something, just don't know what...
I didn't get any reminders for my taxes the last two years. So of course I didn't do them....
I think I need to do them within 5 years though. So I'll gather all info and when dad goes to do his taxes, I'll ask if me and my carriage of paperwork may tag along. Hopefully "his tax man" is also able to do all of mine then. So remember Pixy, you need to log in to a sites and start making prints of all needed info.
Gather and take along in April to get it sorted before it's too late.

I know I can do this. I have 5 months to get it all together. Go Pixy! 😁

PixysJourney, 6 months ago to random

Journal of a Dutch Pixy 🧚🏼‍♀️

TL;DR Arwen wanted to spend the night with me on my bed (she's my dog, FYI 😉)

Last night, well at the end of the afternoon, Arwen and I had gone for walkies. Arwen sometimes walks to my bedroom and looks at the bed. But usually when I ask her if she wants to sleep there, she just heads to the living room. But this time, she put her head on the side. The bed is too high for her to jump these days, so I lifted her up. She immediately took over the whole bed 😂!

I went to the living room to get my shoes off, grab Arwen's snacks and prepare everything for the next day (night). After a loo break, Arwen and I played the game of beds until I had a decent spot to sleep in. I quickly fell asleep with her beside me. It's been years since she really wanted to sleep with me like this and I almost feared that it might be her last night or something and she didn't want to be alone...

But every time I woke, she was there, snoring. Or pushing me out the bed 😂. During loo breaks I asked her if she wanted off and she stayed put. But when my alarm woke me, she was ready to go off and get out for walkies.
Of course I had to dress and prepare her food and all that.

But we had a good night together. I did have some weird dreams about exes, but every time I woke I stroked Arwen's fur and quickly was able to fall asleep again.

#PixysJourney

Arwen laying on my bed, ready to snuggle up for the night.

PixysJourney, 3 months ago to random

#today I've been very busy! Mostly helping my mum. She never really asks for a lot of help, as she's as stubborn as me and prefers to do things on her own when she can...
So when she asked, I helped. When she needed something more, I helped. And I enjoyed it, even though it messed a bit with my routine.
Knowing she asked me means loads so I did all I could to help as well as I could. 😊

PixysJourney, 3 months ago to random

Soooooo I generally dislike calls with anyone that I don't know well enough.
I prefer email. Texts. Or... Even a voicemail if someone does call, so I know what it's about.

I've asked people to use my voicemail. I've told people I prefer email. And still, some people keep calling me... And if I'm brave enough to call back (when there is a number), it's often those I ASKED to use email or leave a voice mail if urgent.

Why do people think it's ok to just call for everything? I have to list a phone number. It doesn't mean I can actually make decent phone calls.

I hate them with people I don't know well enough. 😔 Ugh and the I get missed calls from blocked numbers. Also not leaving a voicemail. 😔 If I don't answet with a number, I will definitely ignore when there is none...

Why can't people just frigging email... 😢

Sorry... Rant over...

PixysJourney, 1 month ago to random

Heya @dansup
I love your work on Pixelfed. 😊
I was wondering how the location tags are made as sometimes I want to add a place and it doesn't know it. Is there a way to add locations to images that the app/site don't know yet? Or a way to "teach" it new places?
I now try to find the nearest place (granted some places I've been were rather small), but it would be nice to tag the actual place to the image.
Thanks again for the hard work! Looking forward to the new app release. 👍🏻

PixysJourney, 3 months ago to Pixelfed

Owwww I've shared a lot of images on #Pixelfed this morning and some of them are doing really well. An older one of Arwen, happy to hear we're going on walkies, is very popular.
I've never been popular on IG. So it's quite nice to see Arwen being loved so much on Pixelfed. Really enjoying the platform a lot!
I'll find the picture in a moment and I'll boost it here too. 😉
Also been sharing older pictures and AI. And of course my daily gym selfie 🤳🏼
Hope you're all having a good day! 🌸

PixysJourney, 2 months ago to FF

#FollowFriday #FF
I don't make these lists too often as I'm always scared to forget someone important 🫣 so hopefully I won't mess this one up 😇.

@Tim_McTuffty for his #ActuallyAutistic journey
@MaJ1 for all the squirrel silliness
@skyfire747 for kindness and support
@pathfinder for his #ActuallyAutistic support
@Adventurer for her kindness and support
@fetchezlavache for all the silliness (and support as well 😉)
@UKFilmNerd for all the movie bits (and another go at the couch to 5K! 💪)
@dgar for all the tunes 🎶
@innervisioner for their #AuDHD journey
@DoubleTreble for kindness and their journey (ow and mugs 😉)

Of course I should also mention my night time ladies!
@Cbfoley for alllll the chats (and being stubborn Taures'ess together)
@si_irini for loads of chats as well!
You two get me through many nights 🤗

Special mention without a tag for reasons goes to Fi! Keep on stitchin' 😉

Hope I didn't forget anyone! Have a good Friday folks!

🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾

PixysJourney, 2 months ago to random

@apps
Heya! Ever since the last update (I participate in the beta program), my app often crashes when I want to open toots to read them before replying....
It just closes the Toot and switches back to the main time line.
My phone warned me that it is a crash happening again and again.
Running version 3.28.2 (515) according to the last release notes (screenshot attached).
Hopefully this bug can be fixed in a next update! 😁

PixysJourney, 19 days ago to random

Hey ho sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

It's that one day a year where you're remembered that your parents had a lot of fun together 😂 yeah... I'm getting old!! Haha!

I will do my best to check my notifications throughout the day. But when visitors come, I'll probably be a bit busy and distracted.... 😊

My friends are expected between 10:30/11:00. Dunno about my parents though...

Have a wonderful day 🌸 folks! 🎉

🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾 & 🎂 🎉 🎈

#PixysJourney

PixysJourney, 2 days ago to random

Good morning sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

It's been a good morning so far. Some rain in the beginning, but since the gym, it's been dry.
We had a good SniffBook walkies 🐾 and now we're enjoying the buggy walk.
I finished my journal blog post for today. I worked on some other posts.
Tried to get the rent payment added to my bank app so I don't forget to pay in time (first time for the house needs to be done a few days in advance). But my app was limited, ugh, so now I have to wait a while and then try again...
So first buggy walk. Then some food. Getting some groceries after that. And then, try the bank app again... Ugh...

Hope you're having a good day ☀ 🌸 🌈

📸 May 28 2024

🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾

#PixysJourney

PixysJourney, 1 day ago to random

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

Ugh... So. Much. Rain. ☔
Slowly getting closer to home.
Ready to ditch the moist jacket, pants and shoes.
I have an umbrella, but there's just so much rain...
Arwen just does her thing. But she won't be amused later!
She gets to wear the bathrobe... And we don't have time for the buggy walk (I would not take it out in this weather anyway...).
But as shops are closed tomorrow in Germany, mum and I will be going this morning. So that means an earlier drive to Nijmegen. 😊
But maybe the weather is better on Thursday for a buggy walk then 😉.
Ah well... Slowly walking home... Both dripping some 😉 spring weather, just lovely 😂

🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾

#PixysJourney