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RolloTreadway

@RolloTreadway@beige.party

Autistic Welsh NHS emergency care quality improvement person.
(they/them or he/him - those are familiar enough and will do.)

Most important:
Trans rights are human rights; Black lives matter; Tories always despise you even if they pretend not to.

Enthusiastic about woodland, cricket, silent film, constitutional stuff, birds, gardens, tea, sandwiches, music.

(Profile pic: Buster Keaton sits unhappily in a steamship funnel; header is a glass teapot full of leaves.)

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farah, to Autism
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I’ve been reading about “stimming in autism”, which up until now was very confusing to me mostly because that’s the one point kept being repeated in the community being a must for an autistic individual. And I can’t relate to that at all.

Then I came across something that describes the purpose of ‘stimming’ is to deal with extra energy. Then it kinda hit me, I’ve never had the need to stim because I’m a low energy person in general.

I get overwhelmed with activities when they involve raising heart rates (yes, THAT too). I like quiet things, dead of night etc. Once at a time in my life, I was pretty sure I could hear flow of electricity.

So my question to the community: do you think stimming is a must for autistic people? Do you relate to it? Anyone know of any low energy stimming that gets overlooked?

Thanks! Much love!! 💕 @actuallyautistic

RolloTreadway,
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@farah @actuallyautistic I absolutely don't think that stimming is inherent to being autistic. I think some of the things I do probably count as stimming, but 99% of what I see referred to as stimming is alien to me.

It frequently bothers me that I see so much 'we all do this', 'we all like that' in the community. I don't think it's helpful, and it can be othering and ostracising to autistic people (like me) who don't fit into what seems to be common niches.

purplepadma, to random
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Up and in the bath. Didn’t sleep brilliantly and I still feel a bit emotionally bleugh. Hopefully the day ahead will perk me up. Any weekend plans at your end?

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma I mainly intend to relax, but I'm not very good at that. Have some gardening to do, inevitably. I will no doubt spend a bunch of time being torn between the need to relax and the obligation to exercise.

Sorry that your sleep wasn't good enough - nor was mine - but hopefully you have a nice day in store.

purplepadma, to random
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I haven’t felt this bad in a couple of weeks. I really hope this is just a one off thing not the start of another period of mood instability

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Fingers crossed it'll clear overnight.

DJDarren, to random
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With great deliberation, I’ve decided that next Monday’s edition of shall have the theme of…

Animals

Animals are great, and there’s loads of them that people have written songs about. So fling your suggestions my way and let’s see if we can’t put together the best animals-related radio show the world has ever seen.

Monday / 8-10pm BST / https://labr.online / @labr

RolloTreadway,
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@DJDarren @labr Rufus Thomas made a quartet of songs that seem to tell a story about a time he got a dog, took the dog for a walk, got interested in someone's monkey and then had his dog stolen:

The Dog https://youtu.be/mB4xzFR5HA4

Walking The Dog https://youtu.be/GOHofU8CQYs

Can Your Monkey Do The Dog? https://youtu.be/1lT-0sqqGN0

Somebody Stole My Dog https://youtu.be/7zJ2ET6UBpU

RickiTarr, to random
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Have y'all ever had someone act like you were hurting them somehow by just liking a food?

Any time I buy or make kimchi, my Mom says it's so gross and she doesn't want any and just on and on. I never offer it to her, or make group food with it, but for some reason she seems offended by it, and I don't know why.

RolloTreadway,
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@RickiTarr I've come across some people who get bizarrely angry about the existence of mayonnaise and are determined to somehow prove that it's wrong.

RolloTreadway,
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@RickiTarr @cherylgk @fredbrooker I keep intending to make my own. But I'm so lazy.

purplepadma, to random
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Emotionally wrung out after my counselling session. I was supposed to join an online journaling group at 3pm but I was far too tearful. I’m weepy because the counsellor was NICE and VALIDATING and concerned with my wellbeing and happiness. These things make me come undone

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma I'm sorry that you're feeling undone, but definitely glad that they were nice.

purplepadma, to random
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I’ve finally been hit by the UK-wide medication shortages exacerbated by Brexit. My pharmacist can’t get my antipsychotic. The GP surgery blithely suggests that I just switch to another drug until he can. That is… really not how psychotropic meds work. I’ve got the community mental health team receptionist running round trying to get a prescription for this drug from my psychiatrist to be filled at the hospital pharmacy - IF they have it. Stress!

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Ack! I had that problem not so long ago with my antidepressant. Was using the Boots medicine stock checker to see where they had any. I was travelling down to visit Mum that week, so I ended up getting off the train at a station along the way so I could pick some up from a branch there.

Hope you can find some more locally than that!

purplepadma, to random
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Good morning. I paid for yesterday afternoon’s delicious nap with nighttime insomnia. I had to put a sleep story on to drown out the anxieties in my head. Got my first uni counselling session this afternoon, so obviously I’m now anxious about that 🙄 How are you today?

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Woke up very early, also full of anxiety because of the engineer coming this morning, and also the bigger news that's going to keep me very anxious for the next six weeks.

I'll have my fingers crossed that your session goes well. That's rather more important and stressful than an internet engineer coming round!

snaptophobic, to random
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Morning world. The heating's still on. It’s going to be one of those summers, isn’t it.

RolloTreadway,
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@snaptophobic Was reading something about how the long periods of constant rain are now ten times more likely than they used to be. Which is lovely.

purplepadma, to random
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Guess what, the visit from the social worker was FINE 🙄 We agreed she doesn’t need to see me again, the issue is not depression anymore but anxiety, confidence, feeling differently about myself and what I want to do with my life. Seeing a uni counsellor tomorrow for that stuff

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Fingers crossed for tomorrow. I hope they're helpful and reasonable.

purplepadma, to random
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So anxious about the social worker coming, WHY? She is a very nice woman. She has been twice before. She’s not going to say or do anything distressing (as far as I am aware!). She’s coming at my request. But the brain weasels are churning

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Very much understand that. I hope it goes well.

RolloTreadway, to random
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Okay, I've cut my hair, I've cleaned the bathroom, I've done a little life admin, I've fed the birds, I've fed myself, now I think it's time to try and call the internet people.

RolloTreadway,
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I'm feeling stupidly anxious (currently on hold whilst they run some tests). Don't know why I'm so anxious. They're trying to help. But I feel terrified.

RolloTreadway,
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Got into a terrible mess, because the tech support person asked me when was a suitable time for them to send an engineer around, and I said I can be home any time, which apparently is not an acceptable answer. So I had to go through a list of times when I might be available, which is all the times, so I began at tomorrow morning and went on until they had enough.

But I think they said I'll have a call from a fault manager soon and then unless the fault manager has identified something that can be addressed without an engineer visiting me, I'll get an engineer in the next few days? I think? I may have got that wrong.

RolloTreadway,
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Also I was struggling a bit because the call wasn't exceptionally clear and she talked fast and had a thick accent from Essex or somewhere round there and I find it difficult to take stuff in.

RickiTarr, to random
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The most ridiculous thing about cop procedural shows is when they ask where a person was, and what they were doing at a specific time the person always has perfect and immediate recall. I'd be desperately trying to remember what day of the week that was, and trying to open my phone calendar. If I was the cop, I'd immediately be suspicious of the person who remembered exactly where they were and what they were doing.

RolloTreadway,
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@RickiTarr You know what bothers me? Phones are always unlocked. Unless them being locked is a major plot point - the owner is a devious criminal who has a lock on their phone! - cops can always pick up a phone and look at everything on it.

RolloTreadway, to random
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I am too tired and grouchy to make words be put next to each other for purpose of work. Please someone write it for me.

purplepadma, to random
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Ooh the train is quite busy! I always used to get the previous train which was almost empty. But I have a table/window seat. Off we go in the sunshine!

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Have fun!

purplepadma, to random
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Good morning! Even though I’m feeling a lot better, a big source of anxiety for me is the thought of travelling anywhere by myself. So I am bravely going to Swansea on the train this morning to meet my friend. Telling myself I can absolutely do this, it’s just the journey I used to take to work, but I’m weirdly nervous. It’ll be fine, right?

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma You can definitely do it, and moreover, you'll be glad you did.

RolloTreadway, to random
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Morning everyone. Very exhausting dreams again. Head is properly sore. Lots of work to do today but having computer problems again. I just want to have a long dreamless sleep.

Hope everyone had better sleep than me, or has better sleep if you're off to bed soon.

Earworm this morning is Fauré's Pavane, for whatever reason. Here's some kids playing it beautifully. https://youtu.be/wQDoN40-_C4

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Oh yes, it definitely is possible. There's probably a medical reason or something. Maybe one day it can be identified and we can have fewer dreams.

purplepadma, to random
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I HAVE RHUBARB STEWING. THIS IS NOT A DRILL

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma IT'S A MIRACLE!

RolloTreadway, to random
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I've mentioned that I'm getting a new boss, and new boss is not going to be replacing old boss directly - they'll be going into a newly created role (because of an organisational restructure).

The proposed job description has been sent around our team for feedback before the vacancy is published. Would it be wrong for me to suggest that a key responsibility for this new role is:

"Let the quality improvement person get on with their job, leave them alone, and stop inviting them to fucking meetings all the time"

RolloTreadway, to random
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Morning. I had a lot of very exhausting and sometimes challenging dreams last night, so I feel like I've hardly slept. And the hose broke again, after my previous attempted fix, so I got soaked when watering the plants. My internet is still running at <1mbps. I'm not in a good mood.

RolloTreadway,
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@snaptophobic Annoyingly, yes, Monday. Hope your Monday isn't looking too bad.

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