I just had my 2nd session since realising my autism, the 1st since 5 weeks with my partner with his family. So mainly a catch-up & info dump. Will clarify goals next time.
In the past therapy has been about me info dumping & them validating, helping me to clarify & a few strategies, but I struggled with clear goals.
I feel so much clearer now.
Previous therapy focussed on the impact of external traumas, the loss of loved ones, sexual assault, divorce etc, but ignored my internal pan that wasn’t explained by those traumas. I learned a lot that was useful, but so much was left unexplained. I was still in survival mode.
She reflects back & asks questions to confirm, clarify & express her understanding, & her very expressive face helps with that. I used to feel that I must look the therapist in the eye for the whole session, but I now allow myself to look out the window.
The waiting room is dim lights, soft music…
I used to feel that I had to work hard to convince the therapist, to get them on board with me, to understand, & maybe to like me so they’d be motivated to really work with me.
I think that having a somewhat better understanding of myself means I’m much clearer about boundaries, & that helps soooo much.
They do exist, but I’ve been lucky. I found a good doctor by word of mouth when I moved here years ago. The first therapist she referred me to was ok & local, but I asked the doc for another recommendation when I started to think that my issues were more than just the usual. I have to travel further now, but she’s worth it. I have seen a few therapists over the years, & this one’s the best.
@Susan60@actuallyautistic What a great therapist you have found. Good for you for continuing to look for someone to help you and see you. It’s not easy for most people but knowing how society has tried to force “norms” on everyone no matter what I’m sure made it much more difficult for you. I’m so happy for you.
@GeorgiaOnMyMind@actuallyautistic
Thank you. I had a good one for a while who I lost touch with, & it took several years to find another one this good.
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