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LavenderPawprints

@LavenderPawprints@fwoof.space

#Trans, #ActuallyAutistic, mostly #blind, #Musician, #gamer, Sometimes do things on #InternetRadio, #nerd, #tech enthusiast, student of #AI, youth rights advocate and supporter of things like #unschooling, #goth #hippy that never learned to grow up and never will, dreamer, despiser of drama, consumer of books, crafter of words, connoisseur of cannabis, and doer of a lot of other things not mentioned here. I’m that terminally online and perpetually depressed and very much traumatized 90s kid stuck in the future trying to heal one day at a time and make the best of it as I go along.

#YouthRightsAreHumanRights.
#TransRightsAreHumanRights.
Owned by #cats
#MentalHealth matters.
Can get along with just about anyone.
Doesn’t judge anyone for anything other than behavior. No seriously, I don't judge a single thing.
Refuses to grow up.
Can and will be unfiltered.

I have two other accounts that I post from somewhat regularly:
https://tweesecake.social/@LavenderPawprints where my little friend Lizie and I post from.
https://fwoof.space/@NeverBeing for #Dollposting and all the twisted stuff that might bother some here.

Exploitable commodity that pays the bills of any therapists fortunate enough to work with my dysfunctional ass; I often post about my mental health struggles, including complex #PTSD, dissociative episodes, severe anxiety disorder, and major depressive disorder, which can get heavy at times. Though I try to be respectful of other people’s sensitivities, it’s worth mentioning that sometimes I don’t always CW. If I post something that upsets you, please feel free to tell me but don’t be an ass about it or I’ll just ignore you.

Allergy list in case of emergency:
Ageism and adultism
bigotry on things like race, Age, orientation, gender and/or identity, ideology, or exclusionism in general
toxic people
Politics
Toxic political correctness
toxicity of any kind
condescention
drama

In Case of Emergencies:
Give me hugs
Give me pets
Tell me it will all be alright
Offer a smile.

Quotes by random people who’ve interacted with me before:
“”Just curious, but how many accounts do you have again?”

“Your radio shows remind me so much of that early to mid-2000s college radio station vibe.”

“Your dollposts are disturbingly haunting yet so beautiful.”

“You have way too much time on your hands, don’t you?”

“Are you ever going to pick a musical genre and stick with it?”

“You’re either stupidly smart, or stupidly lucky. Haven’t decided which fits you yet.”

“Kayls is a combination of a goth chick and a hot mess all rolled into one, and somehow makes it work.”

“You realize Emo is dead, right?”

“There’s few people in my life that I call best friend. You’re one of them.”

“The thing I think I like most about you is how authentically yourself you always are. Please don’t ever change.”

“What’s with the doll thing?”

“You annoy me to no end but at the same time intrigue me.”

“Wait, you made an AI daughter? Don’t you think that’s a little creepy.”

“I asked for quality accounts to follow and somehow I got stuck with you? It's okay though. I'm okay, you're okay...”

“You’re so damn....weird.”

PFP Description.
Image is of Kayls sitting in her office which has a bunch of half-unpacked boxes and crates behind her. Her curly, dark brown hair is in a ponytail which rests lazily atop her left shoulder. She is wearing a colorful, patterned nightgown with a mix of pink, blue, and white hues and she is smirking as she stairs directly at the camera, her arms crossed over her chest. To her left stands her trusty metal coffee cup with a straw sticking up through the lid.

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LavenderPawprints, to random
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Anyone remember where to go to set default posting options with Mastodon Glitch Addition? I forgot.

LavenderPawprints, to ADHD
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Guuuuuuys... My ADHD won't be nice to me.

Do I wanna game or make music.

And if I wanna game, what am I in the mood for?

And if I wanna make music, what do I wanna make? Metal, electronic, experimental?

Heeeeeeeaaaaaaaalp meeeeee!

simon, to random

For me, there's a profound difference between the natural consequences of being blind and the barriers created by sighted people. It's not anyone's fault I can't drive,read body language, pick out someone from a crowd, or quickly walk through a grocery store and find what I need (although there are ways to make that last one easier, but they require a lot of extra effort). It is someone's fault I can't tell when the light changes at an intersection and can't use the new touchscreen devices that both taxi companies decided to switch to, and can't use modern washers and dryers that can happily beep a little tune when they're done but still use one single beep for every single menu selection. I'm frustrated at not being considered, and I get angry sometimes. I'm usually fine with the natural consequences. I often really enjoy finding workarounds, even if that just means plugging a capture card into a second computer and using a combination of OCR and Aira to fix a BIOS. We all rely on other people in some way, disabled or otherwise.

LavenderPawprints,
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@simon @LeonianUniverse Here, cabs are too expendy to tap into except as a last result.

That and most of the cab drivers are on drugs, especially at night, and many have been known to pocket the money you pay for your ride and not put it in the cash box. I hardly ever feel comfortable asking them to help me with transactions off my card because some of them are very much the type to write down a card number and info or snap a couple quick pics of your shit while under the guise of helping you complete your transaction.

Not all the drivers do this, but it's hit and miss.

We used to have more cab companies here, but bad business practices, money laundering, and ride sharing that is more often than not a fraction of the price of cab fairs pushed out most of them. The one good cab company we did have got bought up by a guy who needed a means to move money around from some of the really shady dealings he was involved in and ran a business that had been around for years down to the bone before they were forced to close their doors.

Fortunately, that guy is under a lot of investigations now and isn't allowed to own property in our city anymore because of all the reports for different problems that people have made.

LavenderPawprints, to OpenAI
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UPDATE:
Cashapp is a prepaid visa. OpenAI is one of those venders that don't accept prepaid cards.

Will someone confirm or deny if accepts cards for API balance topoff? Because something's not working here...

LavenderPawprints,
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Right, so if anyone has any problems, I can confirm that Privacy.com, once you run the gauntlet of account creation, identity verification, card linking and all the other things does work with OpenAI.

Hope this helps anyone who had the same issues I did.

matt, to random

I, like other nerds, sometimes romanticize open desktop platforms. Or, because the term "open" is so overloaded, maybe we should call them permissive platforms. Windows, outside of Microsoft's unloved UWP sandbox, is as permissive as it gets.

Then, occasionally, I have a day like today, when I had to do tech support for a family member. This time, it was my mother. Yes, the most tired stereotype of a person who's clueless about tech. Except, my mom has been using computers since 1988. 1/?

LavenderPawprints,
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@matt Defender is good these days.

I haven't touched a third party AV in like 7 or more years.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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So I can't get into my old Twitter account where all my old dollposts are.

Anyone know a way I can extract that shit without getting in because them corpo bastards ain't gonna help me?

On the other side of that, I'm archiving any and all posts I make moving forward because there was a lot of really deep thoughts put out in the world through dollposting and I'm low key kinda pissed I can't get that shit back.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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We all know of the lost and abandoned dolls.

They’re the ones who get left at parks, an afterthought when everyone goes home and they are left half-buried in the sand of the playground. The ones left in an abandoned derelict house on the top shelf in a dark closet, tucked out of the way and left to be eaten alive by the moths, or even more degrading the spiders that find their porcelain surfaces to be excellent locations for their webs.

But there’s also the dolls who suffer a different fate, though one equally as lonely.

The doll on the pedestal in the museum, the ones inside glass walled cases, put there to be admired and looked upon but never interacted with.

Such a sad and unfortunate fate.

For these sad and miserable dolls, the promise of love and effection are always just out of reach, separated from them by spotless glass walls and barrier ropes, relics of a time long since passed, looked at as curious little keepsakes, even as their true stories are denied not only to their onlookers but also to themselves as their purpose is left to fade.

Another curious little detail about these lonely little things is how they envy the lost and abandoned dolls, for even something lost always has the potencial to be found.

But no one will ever find the captive museum dolls.

Why?

Because they aren’t lost.

Even though they are right there for everyone to see, they are not there for everyone to love and one has to wonder what empty little thoughts fills them anytime they think about this for too long.

They dream too. Everything dreams, everyone dreams. You’re dreaming right now as you read this.

Every doll dreams of a home, a permanent place of belonging for such impermanent and fragile things. Whether it be with a witch who takes care of the doll, whispering arcane secrets to it in the dead of night, or a collector who’s dwelling resembles that of a dollhouse, filled with so many happy chattering empty things.

Poor museum doll, won’t someone set you free, take you from your prison of softly patted ropes and polished glass walls?

If only someone took you from your bondage and left you lying somewhere as though they forgot you existed, maybe then you might yet be found and brought home. Maybe the museum could close and all the priceless things moved away, very far away and you could be the last thing left behind, eagerly awaiting someone to come collect your case as you wait alone in that dark musty place.

If only they just left you behind, maybe someone would then remember you, remember that they left you, lost you so that you could finally be found.

The things behind the glass can’t ever be found because everyone sees them, even if they have no clue what they are looking at.

But lost things?

They can be found, and what can be found can be kept and loved.

And really, when you get down to it, isn’t that what all dolls want; Just to be loved and not just seen?

Though there is stillness in the thing, there is no purpose in being stared at all the time.

dgar, (edited ) to random
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Long night so far.

A call from my sister just after midnight that she’d taken mum to the hospital.

Been holding bedside vigil while sister goes home and gets some sleep. Doctors running tests and whatnot. Morphine for the pain. Machines that go “bing”.

It’s about 4:30am and mum’s snoring with a plethora of tubes and wires.

Eyes are heavy. Chair is uncomfortable. The nurses showed me where I could make a cup of coffee for myself.

LavenderPawprints,
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@dgar I am so unbelieveably saddened and sorry for your loss. There are many tight friendly hugs being sent to you if you will allow them for whatever little comfort they bring..

dgar, (edited ) to random
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is out of Senzu Beans.

LavenderPawprints,
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@dgar @Aethelstan I cried so hard for him. Still feeling his loss, probably will for a long time.

LavenderPawprints,
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@dgar @Aethelstan I grew up with his creations as a constant in my life.

Truly, one of the best creators and storytellers of our lifetime left us, and the world is so much darker and colder for it.

I finished watching DBS about a month ago. Think I'm going to start the series from the beginning and work my way through from all the way back in the Dragon Ball days through Super.

Probably going to cry a lot, but worth it.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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I relate to this so much. lol

LavenderPawprints, to random
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gotta love how now e-sports is legitimately recognized as collegiate athletics. Way to go nerds. lol

totally imagining that typical father-son exchange.

"So proud of you son, we always knew you'd be going to state championships."

"Yeah Dad, thanks, I gotta go to practice now." heads up to room, fires up gaming pc

Parents of the 90s whose kids dreamt of going to nintendo world championships... oh how naive you all were, it would just be a couple decades and that shit would be mainstream sports.

And you all said that we'd never accomplish anything playing games all day. Pfft, in the words of Davie504; "CHECKMATE!"

BeAware, to ADHD
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LavenderPawprints,
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@BeAware Oh my god, every one of those describes me to a T.

simon, to random

I have two H1Essential recorders so I made a short recording of the firmware update process on the second recorder, in case it helps someone more than the anti-useful text instructions. Assumes you know how to navigate the menus and not much else.
To download the necessary file, go to the below link and select "H1essential System Version 1.10 (Released 02/28/2024)".
Open the zip file and copy H1essential.BIN to the root of your SD card.
TL;DL:

  1. On the recorder, go to the system menu and select Firmware. The recorder should announce the current firmware version.
  2. Press enter/F4 a second time. The recorder will say "firmware update, cancel."
  3. Scroll to "Execute", and press f4 one final time. The recorder will not say anything, but will display something like "Please turn off the recorder to finish updating."
  4. Turn off the recorder. This will play the standard power off sound.
  5. For good measure because I don't know for sure whether this is necessary, wait about 15 seconds and then try to turn the recorder on. This will make no sound.
  6. Wait 2 minutes and try turning the recorder on. If you slide the power switch too early, nothing bad will happen, so you can use this to check whether the firmware is still updating.
  7. Go back to the system / firmware menu and verify that your version is now 1.10.
    Link to downloads page: https://zoomcorp.com/en/ca/handheld-recorders/handheld-recorders/h1essential-handy-recorder/H1essential-support/
LavenderPawprints,
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@simon What does this firmware update do that's different than the one on the unit?

Also, what are the other files shown on that page? Do you know?

the_etrain, to random
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I'd love to get sloppy drunk tonight, but I'd also like to not feel like garbage tomorrow.

LavenderPawprints,
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@the_etrain Tito's Vodka for the win.

Good clean drunk, and so long as you drink water a bit before going to bed you'll be alright in the morning.

LavenderPawprints, to random
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Honestly, I'm a die hard stoner.

Even me, for all my devil may care attitude, wouldn't think of smoking from a random baggy found in public.

With all the opiate bros out there, it's hard to tell what's laced and what isn't.

Not worth the risk.

Onj, to vinyl
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  • LavenderPawprints,
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    @Onj Niiiice! Congrats!

    LavenderPawprints,
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    @Onj I can imagine.

    I've never had that kind of breakthrough, but anytime someone likes something I've made and goes and shows it to their friends I wanna cry a little because it touches me so much.

    You godda be on cloud nine.

    LavenderPawprints,
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    @Onj I'm on...A lot of stuff I've written and put out and passed around to friends, I think like 30 something albums but not all of those were the best quality.

    I think the past year or two has been the best for me in terms of quality and not just repeating the same styles.

    There was also my old band Badger, which I'm still stupid proud of even though we split up shortly after completing our first and only album.

    Then there was my work on the Colony Wars Redux soundtrack, but sadly that project died out and never went anywhere. Still I can say I got to make music for a video game, which has been something I've wanted to do for years.

    I know I could probably go further with my music if I put myself out there more, but I just like the aspect of creating, making stuff I wanna listen and vibe to, and maybe a few people get it. I don't need popularity and metrics and stuff to feel accomplished with my work, not to take away from anyone of course.

    Am I even making sense? lol

    LavenderPawprints, to random
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    I love first person shooters. They were ultimately what I cut my teeth on growing up.

    Wolf3d to Doom, Heretic to Strife, into Turok and Quake, Golden Eye to Perfect Dark to Duke3d, Metal of Honor, Rainbow6, Halo and so on.

    But I swear, save for a few very choice exceptions, the genre has gotten so bland and predictable in the past ten years or more. And honestly I blame COD for this.

    I used to play first person shooters for the joy of blasting the fuck out of things. It was really therapeutic, especially when I was a teenager, consigned to living most of the week and year in a dorm at a blind school, much to the chagrin of my counselors and dorm staff who feared my obsession with shooters might mean something, thank you Columbine aftermath.

    But now though, save for some exceptions like Doom 2016 and Doom Eternal, the only time I really feel like diving into a modern FPS is for the story.

    I have weird feelings about online shooters, mostly because I can't stand the toxicity of how dickish some players get, and competitive gameplay where people are more concerned with achievements and ranking systems than just having fun honestly just sucks the soul right out of things.

    I remember the Doom and Quake LAN parties I used to lug my tower to back in the 90s.

    You wanna talk about top tear entertainment; There was competition, sure, but it was the good kind. The kind where you'd snipe somebody and from across the room you might hear a dude yell out, "oh you stupid motherfucker," before he'd start cackling and you’d find yourself running from a torrent of shotgun fire and rocket propelled grenades.

    There wasn't any other goal than to capture the flag, become king of the hill, or just ice everyone around you in a bullet fest of rage, guts and obscene amounts of soda and pizza.

    Your achievements were feeling accomplished as hell as you took the top prize by the end of the night or weekend based on how gutsy you played and your sheer will to survive. There wasn't any special conditions that put some players at a higher advantage of winning because they logged more hours or reached some higher rank than the other players in the room.

    Now it's all about metrics, point factors, leveling and unlocking shit so you can unlock more shit to maybe get that super rare unlockable thing that will lead you to unlocking more shit. And don't get me started on pay-to-play BS.

    Nah, the enshitification of first person shooters has gotten to the point that now when I see a new FPS bouncing around, my first thought is, "really?" sigh

    I do know there's some good exceptions out there, and I definitely give credit to them, but man can we just knock it the fuck off with taking the fun out of shooters in favor of crappy metrics and ranking/achievement systems and their rewards?

    Ugh.

    I miss the old days sometimes, I really do.

    LavenderPawprints, to random
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    So I wrote up a project proposition last night for a piece of software that could greatly improve textbook accessibility, as well as the accessibility of virtually any text with graphics materials, including but not limited to comics, manga and well... It's all theoretical at this point, but it might be able to do some things, put it that way.

    Flicked it to my friend, who is now going to take it to his colleague at the university, along with both of our notes on how this project can be achieved.

    Odds are quite good that the CS department of MSU will have yet another AI research and development project come the Fall that started off as one of my brain children.

    Why the hell do these smart people keep listening to me!? lol

    Also have something of an accessibility demo on Thursday I get to go present before one such class of smart people.

    Basically will be showing how normal every day technologies can be applied towards day-to-day life. Things like, using the camera of my phone as a digital magnifier, using my Galaxy Buds as makeshift hearing aids via ambient modes and so on.

    Will be a fun trial run of my H1E as well. giggles

    LavenderPawprints, to random
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    Does our instance support video uploads, and if so, what are the file limitations?

    @Bri

    LavenderPawprints,
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    @Bri Hmm. There shall be experiments.

    Don't suppose you know of an alright video editor for windows that's accessible? Just basic trimming and cutting and the like.

    BeAware, to random
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    I have blocked and defederated from user 'thomholwerda@exquisite.social' because they asked to be Fediblocked by iPhone users.

    Kinda immature if you ask me, but I decided to give him what he wants.🤷‍♂️

    LavenderPawprints,
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    @BeAware It takes all kinds out here on Fedi. lol

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