Bipolar

VaylLarkinPoet,
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Has anyone else experienced psychiatric side-effects with Methocarbamol as a muscle relaxant? I have spastic #neuropathy and was prescribed, but after a month of feeling increasingly anxious and angry, I spent four solid days awake. Did the math, called my doc, stopped the med, but boy heck was that horrid! I'm #Bipolar RC, and I take Abilify along with Strattera for my ADHD. I had a similar, but less severe reaction to Flexaril, but doctor assured me this was different. Any alternatives known?

jessica,
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The long-awaited follow up to an older blog post that was about starting lithium.

This is the companion 'I've been on lithium for a month and couldn't be better' post.

https://www.jessicabkelly.com/2023/10/23/on-the-other-side/

TG_Esq,
@TG_Esq@mastodon.online avatar

@jessica
It's good that you can put it out there like that, for others who may benefit from hearing it.

jessica,
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@TG_Esq

I’ve decided that I’m going to write a lot on the subject after Salvation hits next month.

It’ll keep me busy and it will both help me truly process the journey and distill it for others that may face the same two-headed demon.

I damn near died over those twenty months more times than I can count. And I can count pretty high.

That need not be the fate of others though. Others need to see hope where there may not otherwise be.

jessica,
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Last post of the night and then I’m going to bed.

One of my most respected pals admitted to me that he and others were expecting my imminent death as little as six or so weeks ago. That the disease was going to win.

I’ve been crying thinking about that too. I had tried everything at the max dosages and nothing was working. Had the lithium not worked as fast as it did, the overwhelming odds were that I would have succumbed.

But I didn’t. And the lithium did work and quickly.

DXMacGuffin,
@DXMacGuffin@metalhead.club avatar

@jessica

I was pretty worried too. I am glad you seem to feel better.

jessica,
@jessica@mastodon.heavymusic.rocks avatar

One day when I get around to more tattoos, I’m getting a bunch of themed ones.

Three years ago if someone had told me that I’d be fighting for my life in my late 30s due to progression of a disease that I always had in check prior, I would have told them to fuck off and stop talking nonsense.

Bipolar 1 damn near killed me. I’ve been told I should be a case study with how long the mania lasted. But with the help of friends and a final Hail Mary in lithium, I’m alive to tell the tale.

jessica,
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20 months. No, that is not a typo. For 20 months, the mania got worse and worse without breaks until I was mixing so bad that I was honestly more than ready to end it all.

But now, on the other side of that hellish demon, I am glad I didn’t.

None of us know what future we may have, but final acts of desperation ensure the future you won’t have.

My virtual door is always open for those struggling with . Our lives are worth living and worth seeking healing.

MargaretSefton,
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@jessica 💜

BathysphereHat,
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If you have questions about what it's like to be bipolar, feel free to ask! I'm type 2 bipolar, but I've also experienced full manic episodes more typical of type 1 on occasion. I'll do my best to answer any questions (and I'll let you know gently if I'm not comfortable answering).

BathysphereHat,
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If you have depression, insomnia, AND a tendency to feel energised or happy (at least for a while) when you don't sleep, I highly recommend looking into the possibility that you're bipolar.

jessica,
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A blog post about "day zero" for me.

That is, the first day of taking lithium.

https://www.jessicabkelly.com/2023/09/19/day-zero/

jessica,
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@MargaretSefton

Should the lithium work it’ll be for the rest of my life.

I have unimaginable severe, ultra-cycling bipolar 1; I can go through complete episodes in a day or two, multiple times per week ;-;

MargaretSefton,
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@jessica I don't know why, but I think lithium may offer something. I'm no doctor, but at least one other person I know has been helped tremendously by it.

apodoxus,
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Sometimes I feel guilty for having in my profile because nothing ever happens anymore but now a lot of the warning signs for and a very slight are showing up. I have doubts that this is the correct way to interpret what's happening anymore and I'm exploring that but it's basically the same thing that always happens anyway.

Don't worry. I have a concrete plan and support who has been alerted already.

(1/n)

apodoxus,
@apodoxus@mastodon.online avatar

I also have medication in case of emergency. That's useful to counteract psychosis and insomnia. So far I'm just using a different one to force myself to sleep.

The proper way to deal with this is to first of all not panic, second of all to not take risks, then start reducing as much stress as possible and make sure you're sleeping no matter what. If you think you can't handle it on your own, then you probably can't and you should get help.

(2/n)

apodoxus, (edited )
@apodoxus@mastodon.online avatar

I just coincidentally saw this and I can never recommend her channel enough, so here you go.

"10 Signs I'm Slipping into Psychosis"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQrTyrp03EY

(6/5)

whiteice,

One of my weird quirks is I can't listen to music in the background. It hugely distracts from what I'm doing and so becomes irritating.

I like music, but my world is free of it unless my main task is listening to music, or at movies, concerts, clubbing, etc.. I don't even listen to music in a car.

I get the same problem with television in the background, even if it's muted. Changing background visuals are as distracting as music.

#bipolar #hypomania #depression #neurodivergent #adhd #autism

vfrmedia,
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@whiteice @jake4480 @franktaber

I have this to an extent but its variable (I can listen to some music in the car but have to mute it at busy roundabouts / junctions for safety). I was a rave DJ and a sound engineer (and still do some work for the community radio station), so its also that I can concentrate on it too hard (I am sensitive to glitches and rough sound)

jake4480,
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@vfrmedia @whiteice @franktaber ohh wow. Yeah, I noticed, when it's just me in the car, pretty loud. With wifey, low or not at all. She gets anxiety from it, I've noticed, and having it low is good to talk.. despite us liking a lot of similar music. Just best without. When it's me, like, eardrum blasting level 🤣

CaptainVentris,

Time for a Twitter wave, so by way of :

I am a , He/Him. Currently working on my third self-published novel, a military scifi series called The Dread Naught Trilogy.

I speak , am and have .

I am politically very far left and am interested in most any social cause, particularly .

I try and CW politics and violence, but not food or eye contact. I also always do alt text for images.

I think that’s about it!

purplepadma,
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Well my psychiatrist rang, he does not want to discharge me after all. He was slightly cautious about my eventual work trip to Australia and is going to speak to a specialist pharmacist and formulate a plan to minimise disruption to my sleep and medication so the risk of me spectacularly relapsing is reduced. He’s also going to write me a letter for my new university confirming my diagnosis and treatment, so that I can get student disability support. I like that when he rings he introduces himself as “Firstname Lastname”, not “Dr Lastname”. He’s a good egg.

dancinyogi,
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@purplepadma He sounds like a good egg! I'm glad he gave you what you needed.

purplepadma,
@purplepadma@beige.party avatar

@dancinyogi We had a nice chat :)

fractured_void,

Ah, there's nothing like having those fucked up thoughts about leaving everything behind and vanishing to end your life. It's a passive thought, not active.

But it's out of no where and I'm really tired of feeling like this.

Gonna game and ignore the world.

threeofus,
@threeofus@mstdn.social avatar

I got 8 hours sleep last night which is double what I’ve been managing of late. Thank fck for that as my has been getting out of control. I narrowly avoided a full on war with a senior manager at work, and nearly fell out with an old friend on Twitter, all the while feeling angry, fighty and on the verge of tears. Hoping that the wired rage will now subside. And the .
is complete mind f
ckery

Thehedonist,

@threeofus Glad you managed to get some quality sleep, sending positive vibes as always! 😊

J_T,

Tonight’s of a western desert. My is less today and doing a watercolor seemed right again. Where I live the deserts get burning hot and freezing cold (sometimes both in just 12 hours). The heat I can do without, but I love the sense of solitude. Tomorrow I’ll be spending a bit of time driving through the desert and into the mountains. I’m looking forward to seeing the wide vistas in a region I haven’t visited in a while.

J_T,

Feeling a bit better today. This little sketch came out okay. Thanks to those here encouraging me. It means more than you know!

ArneBab,
@ArneBab@rollenspiel.social avatar

@J_T that looks great! I love the precision.

J_T,

@ArneBab Thank you! 🙂

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