I've started a new Fetlife group for disabled people. It was started after it became apparent that the other group was going to allow chasers to fetishise and objectify disabled people and that the group wasn't safe for us.
@pbump I don't agree with restrictions on the mentally ill and gun sales as it reduces willingness to get treatment by those with mental illness, and generally speaking mental illness results in a lower propensity to violence than a greater one. It's a trope that supposedly mental illness drives these events to avoid the fact that overwhelmingly it's white supremacy.
Yes gun control needs to be substantially stronger, but this is not the way.
If you have questions about what it's like to be bipolar, feel free to ask! I'm type 2 bipolar, but I've also experienced full manic episodes more typical of type 1 on occasion. I'll do my best to answer any questions (and I'll let you know gently if I'm not comfortable answering). #bipolar#MentalIllness#MentalHealth
If you have depression, insomnia, AND a tendency to feel energised or happy (at least for a while) when you don't sleep, I highly recommend looking into the possibility that you're bipolar. #bipolar#mentalIllness#MentalHealth
Was notified yesterday morning that my official termination is complete 😐
Have been employed full time/overtime for 28 of my 44 years. This is a super weird experience for me, because unlike previous gaps in employment, this is not a gap. It is a new and scary chapter.
It was also explicitly stated that returning to work was not an option. I already knew this part of the deal though.
So anyways, based on my previous life experiences, I’m going to be processing this for some time before my Body <=> Mind Continuum registers it on a random day in near future.
My ex recently visited my aunt and uncle I lived with for a year after my divorce, without my knowledge. My ex casually dropped that info the other day. I texted and asked my family if they could observe a boundary: Please don’t have her over without asking if I am comfortable with it.
My aunt responded in rage. Told me how much I hurt her for making accusations, that my ex showed up unannounced with her friend who does business with my aunt.
She told me how horrible and hurtful it is that I asked that. She fuilt d and threatened me that if I don’t take my kids to see them more regularly she will invite my ex as she wished so they can see my kids. “Sorry you have been not feeling well” was nothing but a side note in passing. Mostly it was them telling me they can and will do whatever the fuck they want to, and that my perspective does not matter to her regarding this dynamic.
I feel like shit. I e already suffered months of severe paranoia about my ex colluding with my aunt and uncle to discredit me. And I feel like that’s what is happening right now.
My aunt checks off loads of the boxes for narcissistic traits, and my ex had most of the same ones checked off. Any time I try to set a boundary they stomp all over me and tell me how much I hurt them. Masters of manipulation, guild, deflection, projection, and blame shifting.
I feel like absolute shit and my mood State has taken a sharp turn. I feel depressed and sad, and lost because I cannot tell people when I’m having difficulty or if I’m hurt, without them gutting me and blaming me.
When I woke up at almost noon, I got dressed for the day. An error on my part. Should have gotten dressed for bedtime.
Error corrected
Being out and about in the world for most of the day yesterday left me feeling like a squeezed out lemon. This is not new, it is part of why I stay at home most of the time.
But now? I am completely drained of life, and might be for a few days.