Disabled people are treated like our bodies, our stories, are public property - especially so for those of us who are Aboriginal, who are Black, or People of Colour, who are trans or queer, or read as women.
Consider that if someone with a disability is posting their mutual aid links, either give/share/support or just move on.
Don't message us asking why we're disabled or why we're not on disability support pensions - that's nunya. NUNYA.
Doctor appt today, and he happily wrote up all the pain relief I needed prescribed for my shoulder.
I thought it might be difficult to get him to prescribe endone, panadeine forte, mobic, panadol osteo, and palexia.. but we went over how I was taking them all and he agreed that I was fine with how I was approaching it - and that taking such a variety of things meant actually taking less opioid based meds because I was able to keep on top of the pain with things like panadol osteo.
We also did my mental health plan and I hit a 40 on the K10.. which is Very Fucking High. We talked about that, and about how therapy is helping and that a big part of the 40 score is probably actually pain related as well.
He agreed that I showed great insight into my illness and that I was comfortable with being vulnerable enough to ask for help, so I get to skip hospitalisation (fucking yay!) because I have a good support system and I know how to access acute assistance if needed.
But still, 40 was even higher than I was expecting tbh. I'm usually around a 25-27.
I've started a new Fetlife group for disabled people. It was started after it became apparent that the other group was going to allow chasers to fetishise and objectify disabled people and that the group wasn't safe for us.
Ich bin keine besondere Person.
Ich hab keine besonderen Talente.
Ich habe keinen guten/coolen Job.
Ich bin nur eine sozial vereinsamte, vom System der Gesellschaft kaputt gemachte Person und weil ich #VonArmutBetroffen bin, bin ichvauch nur eine Belastung für eben jene Gesellschaft und werde überall gemieden und bekomme keine Chancen.
Das ist traurige Wahrheit, die ich leider akzeptiert habe, auch wenn man es nicht sollte.
@Omega ich bin auch #Armutsbetroffen und kann dich verstehen. Wer was ändern kann wir du dich fühlst das bist du, auch wenn es schwer fällt. Es muss ja auch nicht immer Geld kosten. Es ist oft auch verdammt schwer.
Aber es lohnt sich, das kann ich dir mit #depression und #agoraphobia sagen.
I went to my first #cybersecurity conference this weekend and despite having mild #agoraphobia,
I actually felt super comfortable. What an amazing industry community that I'm looking forward to engaging with more.
I needed to allow myself to go without the pressure of networking or talking to people in order to take that first step. And I see now that without talking to people, you're only getting 1/10 of what makes a conference interesting.
But that's OK! I needed to just be in the room with people and recognize that I can do that without panicking. And my communication skills are real and don't disappear just because it's new people.
I only made it through half the conference, but I'm way more open to networking and going to other conferences now. Next time being open to talking to people and getting the full experience.
Leaving for #brazil at the end of the week. Hit with a wave of anxiety because it's the first trip of several in the next two months. I'll be gone a total of about 25 days with roughly four days combined time in an airplane.
Hoping my #portuguese holds up, hoping all the therapy for my #agoraphobia did the trick, hoping I remember how to navigate travel after not being in a plane since 2019, hoping my checked luggage goes OK since I never do that, hoping it doesn't go so fast that I'll miss everything, hoping my gastrointestinal fortitude is still primo, hoping I'm not overwhelmed with guilt because I couldn't take my family on these trips, hoping it improves my tolerance for travel, hoping I have a good time overall.
Gonna have to just let go and let "Bob". Can't let my rotten brain get in the way of my #slack.
Drove to the nearby grocery store and sat in my car out front for a solid 5 minutes or so before deciding I couldn't go in and stopping at Burger King on my way home. This, I am loathe to admit, is progress of a sort. #anxiety#agoraphobia