orangegoldgreen

@orangegoldgreen@neurodifferent.me

Nicole | they/them | ~NYC | âûtistic
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No idea why I only get notifications sporadically, this is frustrating :(

Freshly migrated here from mastodon.lol, thanks for having me! I occasionally shout into the void about autism, #AuDHD, mental health, music 🤘, & 🌈 shit

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orangegoldgreen, to Autism

The phrase "burnt out former gifted kid" has always given me the ick, but there are unique challenges/issues/traumas related to that experience that tend to come up in discussions and I've never encountered a good description.

Proposal for a slightly less icky alternative:
✨ burnt out former high achiever ✨

@actuallyautistic @autistics

orangegoldgreen, to Meme

My brain for probably @actuallyautistic reasons.

orangegoldgreen, to ADHD

I've been thinking about gamifying the process of making new friends in my city. Kind of like a but your character is just yourself, and you earn points for showing up to small group events. Extra points for helping organize gatherings and coming up with creative ideas for people to get to know each other better.

...I've been thinking about this for over a year, maybe someday I'll have enough energy to actually start it.

@actuallyautistic @autistics

orangegoldgreen, to Autism

Reflecting this morning on the specific ways growing up undiagnosed autistic can lead to distrust of other humans. It's incredibly confusing to have so many demands/expectations of both your peers and people you're supposed to look up to lead to pain and discomfort, and even more alienating when you can't communicate about it in a way that those people would be able to understand because they don't experience life in the same way.

If this resonates with you, my inner child would like to offer your inner child a hug - no pressure or expectations. ❤️‍🩹


@actuallyautistic
@autistics

orangegoldgreen, to psychology

I have a hypothesis that the average adult's capability for problem-solving continually decreases as they age, but we're all too proud/insecure to acknowledge it. 🥴

Imagine how different the world would be if we chose our leaders based on their problem-solving skill level rather than popularity and "experience" (read: age).

orangegoldgreen, to autistics

Curious to hear what other @autistics have experienced with ND-related generational trauma, especially around friendship/community issues!

My therapist insightfully noticed that many of my social issues have a generational component - both my (undiagnosed) ND parents led pretty lonely lives and had trouble maintaining friendships. As a result, I lacked role models for healthy friendships growing up, and ended up in a lot of bad situations because I didn't know any better!

I'm fortunate to have never experienced this, but I'm sure predatory religions have played a factor here for many other neurodivergent families. 😞

orangegoldgreen, to instagramreality

What do people use nowadays to create social groups / plan small gatherings?

Is Meetup.com still as shitty as it was when I last used it 5+ years ago? Are there better options I just can't find?

@autistics

orangegoldgreen, to Autism

Sometimes I'm worried that my gender might be masculine(ish) Miyazaki film characters who really, really needed therapy but somehow avoided it by having a ✨girl✨ swoop in and do a lot of emotional labor to teach them a valuable life lesson. I think subconsciously I've avoided acknowledging a desire to date women because I don't want to hurt them by accidentally putting them in that position, which causes me some level of gender dysphoria - I only have that level of self awareness from being hurt by people treating me like a manic pixie dream girl (thanks ).

I really have no idea what to do about all this, considering I'm AFAB and find my current body really, really, really ridiculously good looking, but also want people to emotionally treat me as masculine? 😖 Also I am in . Also I have very bad imposter syndrome and constantly second guess my every feeling.

I wish there was a word to describe my experience so I could easily find and talk to people with similar struggles.

@autistics

orangegoldgreen, to Skincare

Idea for people who feel self conscious about their ✨skin texture✨: befriend more autistic folks who struggle with eye contact!

Promise we won't stare at your face. If I do accidentally, don't worry - I was busy dissociating and didn't see anything! 🥰

@autistics

orangegoldgreen, to autistics

Is there a word to describe the situation when someone repeats something you've said, verbatim, but somehow drastically changes the meaning?

Also how do I make it stop 😭

@autistics

orangegoldgreen,

@seacow @autistics This is excellent, 10/10, makes me feel like this is just happening to further my story's Plot, instead of a personal failure at social interaction 🥰

orangegoldgreen, (edited ) to ADHD

idea: meeting for quiet people who were reprimanded a few hundred too many times for being "rude" as a child, and as a result are terrified of conversations.

@autistics @actuallyadhd

orangegoldgreen, to autistics

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@autistics

orangegoldgreen,

@ess_austin @autistics Oh thanks so much for this! I'll edit my post to include the info. :)

orangegoldgreen, to ai

Sooo... how do we get large companies to shift resources away from AI that will steal creatives' jobs, to building the technology from Black Mirror that will let me block people in real life? TIA

@autistics

orangegoldgreen, to ADHD

to me! I only want 3 things:

  1. a viable solution to the climate crisis
  2. an easily accessible ADHD medication that actually works, but also doesn't give so many garwsh darn side effects
  3. an eyebrow pen that actually fucking matches the color of my eyebrows

Apparently these are all unreasonable requests.

@autistics

Selfie of me sitting outside with a vintage filter effect. I am wearing corded headphones and white sunglasses, have my long red hair in a braid, and am wearing a necklace with a bumblebee on it

orangegoldgreen, to random

Someone I know IRL who is (was?) actually taking long COVID seriously reshared this article: https://www.nature.com/articles/s41591-022-02051-3 ...followed a few hours later by unmasked selfies with friends at a crowded hockey game. ☹️

I don't get it. All my friends who previously took COVID seriously have completely given up. Feeling very alone.

orangegoldgreen, (edited ) to actuallyautistic

Idea: support group for people who want to get more active together but aren't Intense about it or want to run marathons and shit because our childhood traumas made us very conflict avoidant

@actuallyautistic

orangegoldgreen, to random

One of the cruelest jokes society plays on the community is drilling into the brains of very young children with a predisposition for creative, out of the box problem solving, and telling them that they themselves are, in fact, The Problem.

@actuallyautistic

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