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Subrote

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#DeathBeforeDetransition

What up, I'm Ellie (she/her). I'm a 30-something #transgender woman living in Denver on land stolen from the Arapaho peoples and sharing the #TransJoy I find every day while fighting the fascist coup our country is in the middle of.

Fully Automated Luxury Gay Space Communism Will Win!

lotta #trans shit comin' your way, not gonna lie.

The cheerful queer auntie I wanted to see in the world.

Have you eaten?

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Subrote, to trans
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Fun thing 326

My (trans) therapist ended this week's session by asking if I had a solid DIY source for my HRT and if I had out of country options for surgeries.

If you need help with either hit my DMs.

And remember: you do NOT talk to the media about DIY HRT.

Subrote, to trans
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fun thing 321

Ok it goes like this. Its already gone like this in florida. Donnie says he's going to make 2 official legally recognized genders. If the gender you present as or thats on your ID does not match your birth certificate you go to jail.

He also promises that no state or federal funds can be used for gender affirming care, so once you're in jail and all your medical care comes from state funds, you are forcibly detransitioned by being denied hormones and you're put in holding cells with people who match your agab. Even if you're post-op, even if you're completely stealth and/or passing.

This is what the plan is. This is what they said their plan was in leaked emails in 2023, and its the plan that's already underway in a decent chunk of the country.

https://www.vice.com/en/article/7kxv8a/lobbyist-anti-trans-leaked-emails

https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2023/03/anti-trans-transgender-health-care-ban-legislation-bill-minors-children-lgbtq/

Go look up Project 47 if you don't believe me. They've been saying this part out loud for years now.

I need a drink.

Subrote, to random
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Im so fucking tired of being .

Im so tired of having to walk this fucking knife edge with what i eat and what i do and how i sleep and what i drink and how i exercise and just on and on and on and on.

My partner just kissed me and smelled faintly of peanut butter and i had to go scrub my fucking mouth out just in case they got some in my mouth and I have a reaction.

Now I get to sit here and wonder if im going to vomit for the next 5 hours, blowing my voice out and emptying my GI of any acid or bile and then probs some blood just for funsies and then id be stuck in bed for the next 3 days.

Or will my godsdamn throat close up this time? Hopefully it would be in my sleep and Id be done worrying at least.

The only reasonably safe thing i can do is not kiss them for at least 8 hours and hope theres nothing left in their mouth tmrw. Hell, i wont be able to sit next to them cuz the smell gives me so much anxiety i wont be able to think about anything else.

Subrote, to trans
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Fun thing 313

Im sure its a total coincidence that Cigna - the insurance company whose paperwork changed this year to not cover injury due to war, declared or undeclared, or violent political insurrections, and whose CEO makes more than any* other health insurance CEO suddenly all but stopped paying for my hrt. Now charging me $115 per ~month for estradiol valerate (which sucks as a medication.)

But if I - HYPOTHETICALLY - got a grey market vial of estradiol enanthate it would be $400 for more than a year of injections without insurance at all. even at monotherapy levels.

Subrote, to ADHD
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About 80% of being late-diagnosed (, , or ) is finding out that we're not horrible fuckups who lack the willpower or moral fortitude to function like the normies. But rather that our brains just run on different firmware and we were never taught how deal with.

Subrote, to Autism
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Hey are you ? Do you have the or the ? Were you a kid back in the day? Or do you have one now?

Then you should check out our podcast Gifted Kid, Messy Adult!

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/gifted-kid-messy-adult/id1723375479

My wife and I are all of those things and we discuss the science and personal experience of having messy ND brains!

Its also an important part of how we make a living so even if you don't listen, subscribing would help us pay for like, staying alive.

Subrote, to trans
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Apparently Neil Degrass Tyson got into an argument with ben shapiro about ppl exisiting.

lil sheppy kept saying 'theyre not biological women' and Tyson kept coming back with 'ok, and where are u going with this?'

Cuz he has nowhere to go with it. Just shouting about how we cant have kids (false, u just need to keep trying to impregnate ur trans gf) actually has no point other than to try and shame and discriminate against us.

That is, he thinks its shaming cuz he sees women as serving no function other than as either brood mares or sexual conquests.

Subrote, to random
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So the final season of just premiered.

The entire series is a mirror of its self with the pivot being the 3rd season when they fix The Burn and bring the scattered federation back together.

So just as season 2 ended with Burnham going forward in time 1,000 years, this season will end with the bad guys winning and using the macguffin to do The Bad Thing thus requiring Book and Burnham to go back in time ~1,000 years so the ship can wait around to grab the tech before the bad guys do.

The spore drive can move in time, Season 1 had the ship coming back from the mirror universe months after they left.

Book and Burnham then take one of the disco's 2 shuttles and fly off to live out their days in obscurity on Kwejian.

This sets up the events of the short trek Calypso where the disco has been stripped of all its future tech and is waiting in a nebula for 1,000 years.

Subrote, to trans
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fun thing 310

It turns out known anit-trans bigot elon musk's ugly-ass cybertrucks are prone to some pretty severe rusting.

Indeed, one of the most reliable ways to get said rust started is to pee on one. Which you certainly shouldn't do.

(But tbh I haven't been this excited about still having a dick in like 2 years.)

Subrote, to random
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I dont play video games.

I hyperfixate on a game until the audhd goblin in charge of my brain says I should stop and i lose all interest in it for 6 months.

But that liminal transition period is such an uneasy time while my mind flails around at all of reality, past hyperfixations, games, or new novel things until one of them catches on.

When something does catch its like a sudden gasping breath of air after being underwater for too long.

Ok maybe not that dramatic but still.

Subrote, to random
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https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGePfEg7C/

This has always been the dumbest part of bathroom bills. if you look femme and walk into a men's room people are weirded out. if you present masc and walk into a womens room people are weirded out. Using the right bathroom is just good manners on our part so the normies don't get confused lol

Subrote, to random
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I made a pineapple upside down cake.

Not my favorite.

Subrote, to random
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Me: Heya doc, my insurance lapsed so Im on medicade for now.

Doc: We don't take medicade, ull have to find another doctor.

two weeks pass

Me: Hey doc i no longer qualify for medicade, got regular insurance now. Can I get that appt scheduled now with that insurance?

Doc: We need to see a letter saying you no longer have medicade before we'll schedule you.

Me: ...wut? But I have my new insurance info. Isn't that like, proof that Im not on medicade any more?

Doc: Nope. Get fucked loser.

Subrote, to random
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Ive beein thinking for a while about how in Morgoth's Ring its explained that while Sauron concentrated his (lesser) power in the One Ring, Morgoth diffused his power into the very favric of Arda such that the only way to remove this malignant corruption will require the undoing of the world - probs right before the 4th theme. His ring was in fact Arda its self.

The biggest thing bothering Morgoth was he couldnt create light. So just as gold is a little extra evil, I think the purely artificial light of our phones shining depression and conflict into our hearts should be called Morgoth's Light.

Subrote, to random
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I used to post shitty memes.

I still do. But i used to, too.

Subrote, to random
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Hey remember that time a few years ago when you stopped reading that webcomic Questionable Content right after the main character started dating that trans girl cuz it made you uncomfortable in ways you weren't ready to face or process yet?

Nah, me neither.👀​

Subrote, to random
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"nobody noticed when i got my nose pierced."

'well your presentation is already kinda... Busy...'

Purple hair, glasses, 6 earrings in the left ear, 3 in the right ear, left eyebrow pierced

"How dare you lol."

Subrote, to random
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My friend is a high school teacher in arizona. She got covid and only gets 5 days off to recover. Then has to come back once shes been symptom free for 24 hours.

When they finally get their civil war the red states are gonna have some shitty troops from all the long covid their kids will have survived.

Subrote, to random
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Me: im here to pick up my Rx meds.

Pharmacist: that will be $700

Me: did u run it thru my medicade?

Ph: it rejected.

Me: ok, ill just pay it.

Ph: but its very expensive...

Me: and without it i literally die. Ill just pay for it and figure it out.

Subrote, to trans
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If our is cuddling with me and i have to get up ill slip the blahaj next to him like a sappy indiana jones.

Subrote, to random
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Pay attention to how your friends and family talk about people who aren't in the room.

Its a good model for how they talk about you when you're not there.

Subrote, to nonbinary
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Look, if you ask me the debate between and doesn't come down to -erasure.

The bi flag is gorgeous and the pan flag is just fuck ugly.

the pansexual flag. A pink bar over a yellow bar over a blue bar.

Subrote, to random
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We got caught up on Doctor Who last night. The new doctor is sooooo godsdamn queer, i love it.

I mean just look at these promo shots.

Homesoil is wearing tight muscle shirts zipped down to show a couple necklaces and a bit of chest hair, multiple rings and a thin mustache.

We also got an extended shot of him dancing in a club wearing a tight tank top and a kilt and I don't think Ive ever watched a scene so intently in my life.

You guys, it went SPINNY! So fucking spinny ^.^

A still image from the 4th Doctor Who holiday special. The doctor, a black man with short hair and a mustache dances amid a crowd of young people. He is wearing a tight muscle shirt and a tartan kilt.

Subrote, to random
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I made some peppermint bark for thanksgiving dinner tonight ^.^

Its a trend that my wife loves and hates - that I will learn how to make a favorite food of theirs and then end up making it better than the store/restaurant versions they used to like.

Mostly I think its down to me using quality ingredients and going for tasty instead of shelf-stable or 'easily replicated in a commercial kitchen 200 times a night.'

My gf has now said my peppermint bark is better than all but the fanciest store-bought kind and my gay little heart swells with culinary pride.

Subrote, to random
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You may notice family being more bigoted than usual today.

Sometimes this is a form of virtue signalling. Where - especially in such volitile times - people are saying 'look, im still part of this in-group! U can tell by how much i dislike that out-group!'

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