As a teacher, I know that windy days result in “unsettled” students. Years ago I met a guy on a blind date at a seaside location for a coffee, on a very windy day. I think he found me to be “a bit much”. 😁 #ADHD#AuADHD@actuallyautistic
After a rather rough day that's part of a LONG and rough month, I feel like I should reflect on my life leading up to this point...
I was first diagnosed with autism and ADHD at a rather young age. Even though I didn't understand at the time, it did affect my life quite a bit. I was never really quite social, I was too afraid to open up to interests, and I seemed prone to having meltdowns a lot. I was able to get through school fine regardless, and I managed to find a job rather quickly.
Unfortunately, my work life seems at odds with my conditions. It's been especially hard with my supervisor, admittedly. Sometimes, I interpret what they're saying wrong and I get chewed out for it. I often get told to "use your words" whenever I'm trying to process their questions. Whenever I find myself in a meltdown, I'm told to abruptly stop or they'll punish me, and they always call me "disruptive" or "disturbing other people". I often get forced into trying to be productive all the time, even if my brain doesn't want to be productive. It gets even worse when we're working outside the office, as they tend to set higher expectations. And to make matters worse, I'm the only one in a certain key position, so my work load is pretty high, especially over this month. Whenever I make a mistake or forget to do something vital, I get told "you've done this hundreds of times!" or "you should know this by now!" And I'm no longer allowed to apologize because I've apologized so much I they think they mean nothing even though I'm trying to work as hard as I can despite my autism and ADHD making it hard! It also does NOT help that I've been told "I'm not here to babysit you" so many times it gets tiring. (Oh, and earlier this week, some of my co-workers are mocking my sounds of disappointment) And I feel like I have no support network in the real world; only online, which makes it worse since that and my hobbies are the only things keeping me afloat.
As I grew tired of this, I've looked more into how these conditions affect me, and it explained so much of my life. I also realize that besides my autism and ADHD, I might have executive dysfunction, rejection sensitivity, and demand avoidance/drive for autonomy. As I learned more about my flaws, I'm trying to figure out ways around them. Unfortunately, some of my emotional triggers are unavoidable at my job, so maybe it's time I try to find a more accommodating job. I haven't left yet since I still have to pay the rent, though. I'm hoping that whatever new job I find, the people there will be much more accommodating and understanding towards my conditions instead of dismissive.
Hi #ADHD, #AuADHD, any tips, or strategies that work well for you to prioritize tasks?
It's something I struggle a lot with. A lot of times I end up doing nothing, because I cant figure out what to do. Or, you know, let very important things on the to do list forerver unless they becone urgent and then feel really bad about it. I also struggle with allocating those tasks that dont fit in a routine, (because they are one time off, or rarelly needed), unless, of course, they become urgent.
I'm all the time anxious about all the things I should do or have to do, but I can never really grasp what those things are or how to organize myself to do them. So I always feel like Im not doing enough, and that Im failing.
I've tried looking stuff up online, but its a lot of stuff (some good some bad) and I got overwhelmed quickly. So, I thought asking here might help giving me some good starting points.
One of the many things I’ve been learning lately is the extent to which my ADHD interacts with & appears to compensate for or cancel out my autism. (I don’t think it’s actually that simple but…) My need for stimulation means that I have tolerated higher levels of some things than I might otherwise, such as noise (can’t do high pitched tho) & depictions/news of emotional trauma. (But I can’t watch horror, mindless violence etc.)
My “need to know” means that I watch a lot of news & news related programs, although quality reporting is getting harder to find.
When the news is of a very upsetting nature, it’s not surprising that I should feel distressed, as many NT people do, but my sensitivities have been heightened since self dx & I’m learning, slowly, to recognise the impact on my health.
What do other people do to remain informed without being overly distressed by unnecessarily emotive & sensationalist styles of reporting, presenting & discussing the news? #ActuallyAutistic#ADHD#AuADHD@actuallyautistic
i recently moved instances so here is a new #introduction (so happy to be a cutie :bear_love:)
i'm bella, 26, i use they/them and she/her pronouns and i have #AuADHD :sparkles_queer:
i'm a devoted leftist and currently leaning towards #anarchism :tranarchy:
i study english with a focus on #medieval#literature and #popculture (not necessarily in connection). i'm also interested in the reception of antiquity in the 19th century so i can basically critique it to bits. :bunny_evil:
i can't wait to finish my degree and become a teacher. (i also have a #philosophy degree)
i've created charts of some of my favourite books and albums. check it out, maybe we share some favs?