I've made it. My heart is happy, a couple of young deer were bouncing around as I came into the Abbey.
I'm not religious at all, but this place has a certain calmness to it, it soothes my mind.
Time to sit on a bench and just be for a while.
I don't care that rain is forecast.
I don't care that its really windy.
I don't even care that my hoody has a hole in the side (I'll fix it later...been saying that for a while).
I'm going to go out.
I'm going to buy breakfast (roll n sausage).
I'm going to sit by the river and just be.
I'll be grumpy when I get soaked, but, who cares. I need to get out for a bit!
I think I got near the 7 hours sleep I was aiming for, although my body was determined to get me up by 3 - nope, nope, nope, I did sleep again until 5.
Everything hurts today (we knew it would), today is going to be a very slow and gentle day! I do need to move to get the magic coffee though!
I might be brave and go talk to the downstairs neighbour today to let her know I will be fence painting as soon as my body is working again.
Just seen a spinning wheel for sale in a local group.
I have no need of a spinning wheel.
I want to try spinning though.
I'm going to bed before I end up making an offer for a spinning wheel that I definitely do not need but oh so badly want!
😬😂
How to tell I'm coming out of this latest suicidal state -
I'm chatty.
I have 101 ideas bouncing around my head.
I'm chatty.
I want to be around people.
I'm chatty.
I want to organise a craft group so I can stitch and be with people.
I'm chatty.
Went out into the garden to cheer myself up. The jungle is really getting going now. It needs so much work and honestly, I just can't manage it out. At least the bees love it. Rain started. Mission to cheer myself up failed. Ah well.
Morning folks, I am shattered and ouch. Yesterday was a fab day, a long day though on very little sleep. Going to bed at 1am wasn't my brightest move, on the plus side, I slept until 6am....so yay 😂
Todays plans involve stitching and Netflix. I do have a few things to do with the child this morning, but not huge energy consuming ones. Today, I refuel!
I love this.
I am a solitary creature.
I am thriving now I have accepted my isolation (mostly), I needed rest, time, space. So I could learn how to laugh again.
I will still be in my hermit cave though 😉