purplepadma

purplepadma, 4 months ago to random

Good morning! I’ve decided to have a rest day from formal exercise and just do my walk into town. Tomorrow we’re going on a proper walk, a walking boot sort of walk, just 6k but should be fun, it starts and ends at a village with a castle and a pub, what more could you want in a village?? No other plans for today though except maybe start to think about what to take on holiday in 3 weeks time. We’ve a tight 23kg baggage allowance and I struggle to pack light. What are your plans for the weekend?

purplepadma, 3 months ago to random

Waiting at the airport for our flight to Curaçao. Can’t wait to get somewhere we’re staying longer so we can unpack properly and do more things. I’m wearing a maxi dress to hide my embarrassingly scarlet legs 🙈

purplepadma, 2 months ago to random

Mini Eggs have been had

purplepadma, 7 months ago to random

I don’t live in a city, but I live in a “15 minute town”, I guess. In 15 minutes I can walk to grocery shops, cafes, pubs, restaurants, pharmacy, opticians, dentist, GP, library, state primary school, bus stop to get to bigger towns, churches of three denominations should you want such a thing, community centre with adult education classes and sports facilities and gym, and swimming pool. The train station is a little further, but only 20 mins’ walk because I live on the opposite side of town. And I absolutely love it. Obviously we have to travel to access big supermarkets (although personally I get home delivery), the local hospital and secondary schools, but that’s inevitable. Why would you not want everything close at hand so you don’t need to jump in a car all the time?

purplepadma, 20 days ago to random

There were no cheese scones in M&S. it’s like Rhubarbgate all over again. I’ve got to do some more potting up of plants this afternoon, that’s something I used to really enjoy but right now the thought makes me quite literally lose the will to live. I’ll do what I can

purplepadma, 22 days ago to random

I feel terrible. I’ve held it together up until now but I’m very tearful missing Miss Cinnamon

purplepadma, 1 month ago to random

I feel absolutely awful this morning and Tom isn’t being very sympathetic. He is saying stuff like, “Right, you’ve got to push on through and do things, build your mental resilience.” TBH that makes me feel like he thinks it’s my own fault for not being “resilient enough”. I feel like he is running out of patience with me

purplepadma, 1 month ago to random

Very much not happy to be alive today. Not going to do anything to harm myself, no need for a police welfare check! Just very weary of continually fighting mood fluctuations and worrying about what tomorrow may bring and I've had enough. Tom says I'll feel differently tomorrow. We'll see

purplepadma, 1 month ago to random

I really don’t know how to fill my time this evening. Nothing holds my attention. Everything (including me!) seems boring but there are a good three hours until even earliest bedtime.

purplepadma, 1 month ago to random

I have just been very naughty and bought a new dress and shoes for my Friday night drinks party. Don’t really have the money but it’s my big birthday! I want to feel glamorous. Do we think Tom will notice the newness? He might

purplepadma, 22 days ago (edited 21 days ago) to random

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purplepadma, 8 months ago to random

The neighbour has been round with his net and a cup of chicken feed but Chick-Chick remains at liberty. At this rate will come back from our holiday to find the neighbours have given up and Chick-Chick is part of our family now. Town was empty but expectant ahead of the cycling, and there were two guys rigging up a sound system which was softly playing Harry Styles. At some points supporters have come out during the night and spray-painted words of encouragement on the road for their rider to see as they pass. I don’t have anyone in the race but I’ll go down and watch for a bit. I liked it when I was running a race and strangers clapped and cheered.

purplepadma, 2 months ago to random

I woke up with Walk The Dinosaur in my head. When I mentioned this to Tom he claimed never to have heard of it, so I had to go onto Spotify to prove to us both that I hadn’t dreamed it up. How has he never heard this 80s classic?

purplepadma, 2 months ago to random

The ice cream van has just arrived in my street playing the Benny Hill Show theme tune. Seems rather optimistic on the literal spring equinox.

purplepadma, 2 months ago to random

Too full of cold and fatigue to run and we’re cancelled our lunch plans for tomorrow. We’ve got no appetite aside from feeling yucky. Afternoon on the sofa for us.

purplepadma, 3 months ago to random

I’m in my soaking tub on our terrace. It’s like an incredibly deep, circular bathtub with a tap and shower attachment. The water can be very hot if you want, but as the ambient temperature is 27° I only need it warm. It would be possible to do this naked as there are curtains you can close around the terrace for privacy, but then I wouldn’t be able to see the flowers and birds, so I’ve got my bikini on. Not that anyone can see me below the neck once I’m immersed, and hardly anyone passes by, but you never know and there is the question of getting in and out. There is so much we could be doing but we specifically selected a room with a secluded terrace so we would have an outdoor space to chill by ourselves and we’re both reading. Oh, and I did not go for a run around the resort. Nor did I go to the fitness suite and run on the treadmill. Instead I slept late and had brunch, but hey. I’m on holiday, right?

purplepadma, 1 month ago to Bipolar

Anyone in the Fediverse manage their #bipolar symptoms via #keto? I have been reading more and more about it and I’m considering giving it a try #Ketogenic #ketogenicdiet #bipolardisorder Please boost!

purplepadma, 3 months ago to random

So we started chatting to this American couple in the pool, it took about ten minutes before the man went off on an anti-immigration rant. Apparently back in the day his Scottish and Italian ancestors had it tough getting into the USA but now we just let anyone in and give them all cellphones. I wanted to say, “national borders are a form of violence” but I knew Tom would never forgive me, so I artfully steered the conversation onto whether he had ever been to Europe in search of his family history. What makes people feel they can just spew their odious politics to people they have literally just met and be so sure that they are on safe ground to do so?

purplepadma, 3 months ago to random

I have been told my outfit is “too dressy for M&S” but idc

purplepadma, 2 months ago to random

I had to get Tom to come and close the bedroom curtains for me as it felt beyond me. Ridiculous, I know. I did manage to clean my teeth, which is major challenge when I feel like this. I really hope this low mood only lasts days, not weeks or months, my mood cycles are usually quite rapid but who knows. I’m heading to bed now, thank you for all the warmth that has been shown towards me on here today 💜

purplepadma, 3 months ago to random

Well my second evening alone is going well, I’m feeling cosy in bed listening to the radio and scrolling Mastodon. Not a trace of anxiety or low mood (no, it’s not that I’m doing better because Tom isn’t here!). I think it helped that I went out of the house twice. Anyway, I’m looking forward to tomorrow, I’m having my hair done and then I’m going to grab lunch with my bestie. In the afternoon I’m going to dedicate some time to planning my work for next week then I have a “somatic grounding” session, not even really sure what that is but I thought I’d check it out. Then Tom will be home 🥰

purplepadma, 2 months ago to random

Good morning, my mood is quite low this morning, I think that’s been creeping up on me for a few days. I have a fair bit to do today, and I don’t want to do anything. First I need to get dressed then make like that meme eagle and take myself in a stupid little walk for my stupid little mental health. I would rather go back to bed and cry tbqh. Hope you’re feeling more chipper

purplepadma, 4 months ago to random

I had a horrible dream last night. My childhood trauma was pretty mild by the standards of what too many people go through, and I’ve explored it in depth and been validated by two psychologists, but I still dream about it frequently. I just can’t get over it even though it was over 35 years ago. I feel stuck and silly.

purplepadma, 10 months ago to peloton

Little 20 minute #peloton interval run. I’m still not that fit, when she says “run at an RPE of 5” then she says, “You should be easily able to hold a conversation at this pace” I’m like WHAT??? My legs can do it but my lungs aren’t on board with the programme #running #fitness #FitnessJourney

purplepadma, 7 months ago to random

Well that was a rubbish night and then I went into town to post a letter and got rained on. My upper half was OK but my jeans were saturated so I went straight upstairs when I got in to put on some warm, dry clothes. Now I can begin the day properly. Standup comedy skills for academics today! I’m excited 😃 Anything fun on your schedule?