I've been trying to understand what it means that an autistic brain is bombarded with so much information. We spent some time at our summer cottage and I think I got some insight in this.
Instead of seeing the lake in front of my eyes, everywhere I looked I saw a detail. Its size would vary but it would still be a detail. A swan there, its partner there, no leaves on that tree yet, what a cool pattern on the small waves, what does it look like when I move my eyes this way, or that way, a car on the opposite shore, the shadow of the tree, I wonder what seagulls those are etc. A new detail with every single glance.
At the same time my attention tried to keep track of the dog and listened to birds singing and bumblebees flying around.
Now I wonder what it feels like just to see the lake.
Interesting. I do not see all those details, bc my brain deals with too much sound, wind, feelings, emotions. I have trouble seeing details others point out. What seagull?
My experience is more like a strong feeling while being there and seeing water in front of me.
It seems like now that it’s autism awareness month, the autism organizations asking me to give them free stim toys as “donations” in exhange for exposure is getting more frequent.
We are only on the 6th of the month and already 3 have messaged me asking for free stim toys. I’m sure there will be more this month.
@dansup May I suggest the following alt txt: very young tuxedo kitten sitting on bed with white sheet, face towards the camera and white front paws visible.
@LeftistLawyer Women get Long Covid more often, so I am not surprised to see the women's line above the men's line from 2020 on, while before that, they crossed eachother more often.
@actuallyautistic#ActuallyAutistic Can we talk self-diagnosis? The penny dropped for me last year. I'm only mildly autistic but that's enough to have made me wonder my whole life where I go wrong with social things, why others seem to know the rules and I don't, with predictable consequences. Because I am self-diagnosed I feel I can't be open with anyone beyond immediate family, esp work, as I don't have a doctor's note to back it up and I'll be accused of jumping on a bandwagon. Familiar?