I know I've mentioned this here before but I'm always endlessly jealous of my partner who literally falls asleep as soon as his beautiful head hits the pillow. #insomnia
'Restful' sleep is not on here, because even when I do get 'restful' sleep, it's not really in my control to do so. I'm realizing some words hold more personal weight than others. And the more I can work around them, the more I can keep the parrot quiet.
My nervous system has so many ingrained problems with certain words and it's fucking weird. Triggers are a bizzare feeling when they calm down.
Just enough light to see the Angel of Waldemarsudde, and not the old mill, except for its reflection. Probably a few fairies afoot somewhere too - magic. 🧚♀️
I've had two nights in a row of solid sleep after a month and a half of intermittent #insomnia
What helped so far:
---getting off my devices earlier at night for a proper wind down
---breathing with intention to calm
---listening to guided meditation
---Ruminating wake ups were mitigated by going back to breathing technique & being present with the breath sounds and my heartbeat
Got panicky last night but instead of letting it build I took some emergency meds. Tried watching TV to distract while they kicked in, but it was a very tense police procedural and it just made me anxious. After panic then diazepam I fell asleep early and was out like a light for a couple of hours. Then I woke up and I’ve been awake since, tossing and turning. I’m not anxious or fretting about anything, just… very awake. Might read my lovely fantasy novel for a while #insomnia
Good morning friends, happy Thursday! Sunshine and coffee are the only things keeping me going. I finally gave up and started my day at 3:30, and the dogs were not happy about it, they prefer 4:45. I'm hoping to keep my head down and phone on DND to avoid pesky salespeople. 😉
What's everyone else's day look like? Hopefully, it's more exciting than the salt mine I'm in. No matter what your day has in store, have the best one you can! 🌄🌞