Sadly, my BFF’s dad passed away on Tuesday. ❤️🩹😢❤️🩹
Grief is exhausting. Even when it’s not your own. My heart hurts for my friend having lost her last parent.
😢
He went to the hospital end of December for long COVID and they discovered cancer. It was aggressive lymphoma and long COVID weakened his immune system so he could not even begin to fight it.
Please stand by as my brain recalibrates. I have zero bandwidth.
IN OTHER NEWS #chemo was bound to do a number on my immune system but then came #COVID19 and it's been a double doozie on my body.
but here's some anecdata: THING1 got me some lactose free choco milk cuz I thought it would help with my dwindling appetite.
nope.
started wheezing and coughing within minutes. even as "lactose free" something in the milk (and i know it's not the chocolate) triggered a response. so i backed off for a couple of days. guess what happened?
am afrocarib, so i know my cow-dairy issues (which, btw, i don't have with goat milk products like Manchego cheese).
but am flabbergasted by how fast it triggers my asthma and all the related symptoms; which also are symptoms of #LongCOVID but not necessarily of #chemo.
so here's what i wonder: could LC19 on some people be the consequence of allergic reactions they don't know they have?
we need work done on the connection of allergies and COVID.
LMAO i just caught myself writing "good morn'" but it's almost 3pm. that's what happens after 3 days of forcing myself to sleep to heal from a hell of week of surgery and #chemo.
So, had a dr friend tell me yesterday that folks on the ASD spectrum can often feel pain differently from neurotypical people. There's pain and then there's this vague "doesn't feel right, but doesn't hurt" thing. It's different from not listening to your body.
While I despise taking any pain meds, taking them when I have that feeling is working and is suddenly making things SO much better. Total revelation. #asd#autism#fuckCancer
IN OTHER NEWS
it's 1:56, Friday morning and am up because it's still the Thursday of my #chemo and got ultra pumped with steroids.
#COVID19 did do a number on me, immunologically speaking. this was the second session since i got infected and it was the 2nd anaphylactic reaction i got from the chemo solution.
the day started not so good because i don't look like myself. my face is swollen, gained more weight, can't walk unassisted due to fatigue and am losing my hair. #fuckCancer indeed.
a close friend of my wife just passed away. we thought her cancer was in remission as there had been no news since autumn, but it looks like she went radio silent after finding out she was metastatic and didn’t have long.
My wife lost her mother this year back in February and I lost my dad in July 2021. Both to cancer. Her mom after the 1st battle, my dad after his 3rd battle.
While I always cherished family, I never thought I'd be in this boat, losing two very special individuals within 19 months of each other.
Family is now the top most important thing in my life, as it can happen quicker than you imagine.
BTW #COVID19 delayed my #chemo, so we cancelled our annual Dim Sum shenanigans with friends.
i did go out the other day, but TBH am even more paranoid about any kind of infection, #flu#theCold whatever since ending in the emergency room.
so even though my sons are here, it's been a very #sociallyDistant holiday season since turkey day; but my chosen family understands and that makes me happy.
Happy Christmas Pops! While I know it's not a holiday we celebrated as I got older, it's now the 3rd Christmas without you and it sucks so bad!
I miss you more than words can ever say and I love you more than life itself. Holidays truly suck without you but I know you're looking over Bianca and I so all is well!
today was the first time i went out to a food market in weeks.
crowding wasn't that bad but, JFC #COVID19#fatigue is real. i was just getting the hang of managing my #cancer#chemo fatigue. now this has made it worse.