BooleanBear

@BooleanBear@neurodifferent.me

Bookworm 📘 | House plants 🌵 | Urban art 🎨 | Budgie mum 🐦 | Science 🧪 | Late dx ADHD 🦋 | Partner autistic ♾️

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BooleanBear,

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic the smell of laundry detergent

squish, to random

Finally fixed a bug preventing auto-renewal of the certificate for this host, so we should not see any more cursed certificate expiry messages.

Appreciating everyone's patience over the past few months. Getting the site onto new infra has been a daunting task, but now it's done I'm trying to resolve some other remaining issues.

I hope this brings a smoother experience for folks. :blobcattea:

Also, this instance has just hit one year of operation today... :blobcatbirthday:

BooleanBear,

@squish thank you for all the work you do, I really appreciate having this community online. And congratulations on the one year anniversary 🎆

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BooleanBear,

@Autistrain @actuallyautistic @neurodiversity I love my headphones and ear plugs and am shocked at how much external noise affects me, and how long it took me to realise this.

BooleanBear, (edited ) to ADHD

Tasks that haunt me...

tehjessica, to Cats
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Big yawn, little kitty!

Same photo except the kitten is mid-yawn and it is huge, showing all his teeth.

BooleanBear,

@tehjessica that knitwear 🧡 :blobcataww:

BooleanBear,

@inasaba @underscore_ rooibos or redbush tea is a lifesaver when I want a real cuppa, but really should be sensible as caffeine affects my sleep. You can even put. A dash of milk in it, and pretend it's real tea :autistic_lurker:

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BooleanBear,

@ScruffyDux @hosford42 @obrerx @mux2000 @actuallyautistic wow, I had no idea that was why I need silence (or realistically my sound machine on) in order to get any sleep. I hate being so triggered by noise and light, but at least now it makes sense. So frustrating though 🌜

reginagrogan, to Autism
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I have and among other things

at uber final interview
Interview panel: if you had one person you could have dinner with, alive or dead, who would you pick?

Me panics

Me: my mom cause she died last year and i miss her starts crying

5 minutes of extremely awkward silence

Panel: ok.

Yeah i didnt get the

BooleanBear,

@reginagrogan that's a ridiculous question for an interview. I really struggle with anxiety and insane nerves during interviews and so would not have been able to answer this question. :ablobcatgrumpy:

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BooleanBear,

@pjw @academicchatter please do ask your librarian. They will be happy to help. This kind of query is their bread and butter :blobcatuwu:

BooleanBear, to houseplants

It's amazing how fast these pups have grown! :ameowalternate:

Young Chinese Money plant

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BooleanBear,

@Autistrain @actuallyautistic I've been experiencing this with a friend I haven't written to for months due to my burn out. I'm psyching myself up to log into the messaging service I used to contact her and see what her reply is. I will ruminate over it, so am struggling to actually go see what it is in case it's bad or she didn't even reply (unlikely though that is).

BooleanBear,

@Autistrain @actuallyautistic I totally understand this. I feel due to my belief in good manners I am obliged to acknowledge a message like that, as I would want others to do the same to me, but sometimes you just don't have enough spoons to process a reply. But then I feel guilty and awful about it, which is not helpful, and does not help me recharge, which is what I should be focusing on. Argh! 😖

liztai, to Cat
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With her sitting so close to the TV I am surprised she could see anything beyond pixels

BooleanBear,

@liztai with that kind of quality content who can blame her :blobcataww:

BooleanBear,

@nuttydepressor @cynar I'm struggling with my meds ATM too. If I take the full dose I'm functional but my anxiety is just silly. And the depression/moodiness has been bad recently, tho it was likely burnout from stress and full dose meds taken for work. It took me a while to realise it was the meds. Half dose today anyway.

BZBrainz, to Autism
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@actuallyautistic @audhd
Is traveling or moving an adventure or disruption of routine? A little bit of both? My routines are often deeply rooted in my familiar spaces.

BooleanBear,

@BZBrainz @actuallyautistic @audhd I'd say it's both for me too. I need time to process an upcoming journey or trip and that kind of helps me mentally prepare for and excuse the chaos on the day. But I still probably have my best days when I just follow my usual routine. Having said that, I enjoy doing new things, or seeing a new place, just not too often. It's taken a long time to realise that.

autism101, to actuallyautistic
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Most of the time when asked “How are you doing?” I actually tell them, because I forget I’m supposed to always say, “I’m fine” even if I’m not.

You think as an older adult I would have learned by now…but nope.

Do you?

@actuallyautistic

BooleanBear,

@autism101 @actuallyautistic I automatically say "yes I'm great" and then ruminate over it for hours, as I feel guilty for having been dishonest, even though they don't want an honest answer, as that has backfired in the past...

AlexTheAutisticArtist, to random

Why, if your intention was to talk to someone, would you go to a place with lots of other people doing the same thing and having to shout over each other and therefore making it impossible for anyone to communicate verbally with anyone else? Also, why do pubs not have sound dampers. Also, why do they play loud music? IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE!

BooleanBear,

@AlexTheAutisticArtist I've always thought this, and my favourite pub experiences have been me in a comfy chair in front of a crackling fire reading a book, people watching but not feeling obliged to speak to whoever I am with. I hate going to restaurants where there is loud music as I can't hear what anybody is saying. It mustn't be an issue for NTs!?

BooleanBear, to Cats

Hello and welcome to my 👋I am a mid-thirties, late diagnosed , with an partner. Coming up to my diagnosis 1-year anniversary 🥳 and learning lots every day, having regular “aha” moments. I work PT in a library and spend my free time trying to coral my unruly curiosity fairly unsuccessfully.

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