Hi 💜 I'd like peoples opinion on this topic and I'll try to keep it as short as possible. The question I want feedback on is:
Am I in the right to believe something is off with me and want help, or am I trying to find excuses?
A very broad question I know, but if you want to stick around for a minute here's some background info condensed into bullet points
(Also my esteem/confidence is like zero so posting this makes me deadly anxious, very sorry if I'm too lengthy, I have no other way of expressing this)
Been in the medical health system since 2020 for depression after failing my master's thesis work
I told them maybe it's ADD/ADHD or similar because some family members has it, but they denied that because:
• I'm being treated for depression, it would be impossible to tell them apart (That's fair)
• I've made it through school/higher education on my own (The part I'm not buying, reoccurring argument)
I ask my family about it, which is a taboo topic apparently, and they say I don't have it because:
• My younger brother has a ADD diagnosis and his needs are more severe (dyslexia)
• I've made it through school/higher education on my own
(Also, I should stop finding ways to excuse my laziness)
NOT DEPRESSED anymore according to my doctor and myself, but my issues still stands, which is why they finally in 2022 started putting me in queue for a diagnosis
• For the record, I've had medically treated depression at five occasions throughout my life so far, and they all seem to happen when there's been a major change in life or I've stressed out about the future
-// Things I feel correlates to having potential neurospice or similar
Executive difficulities
• I can't for the life of me organize anything, and if I try I die inside midway through and gives up (turning a big pile of things into smaller piles that I then put back into the big pile)
• There's always something that seem more important than organizing, even if the chaos at home contribute to me feeling like a complete failure
• Can't keep track of things in my head. If not noted down they're gone immediately
Dreams big -> Huge plans -> Burning passion -> Burnout -> Feeling like a loser -> Repeat
The few times I focus on something, my body hurts from sitting in some awkward position working on it for 6-8 hours without rest (And it feels like 20 min, wait it's dark already?)
-// Things that might not have any correlation
The greater half of my friends that have stuck around is official neurospicy, including my spouse (they just seem more real to me)
Sheep 💜 (I just really like them and I've realized they've become my fixation for the last couple of years)
-// Things that would "deduct credibility points" (?) (It's basically me gatekeeping myself)
I have no issues with eye contact and I prefer seeing people IRL (Although I get awfully tired after prolonged sessions of it)
I can sleep throughout the night (Quite the gift imho), although I never really wake up rested
There is obviously way more to this but it's already become an essay and still only scratching the surface
If you made it to the end of this, congrats 🎉
If no one ends up reading or responding, it's still a win for me, because I have something to refer to if I get asked and put on the spot
Thank you for your time, have a nice day 💜
If you are well organized, it is a healthy trait. no one would say you are "on the OCD spectrum".. but when that trait gets out of hand we would say you have OCD, and likely would be diagnosed as such.
I see (autism) ASD and ADHD as much the same way. Most people diagnosed with it who are high functioning dont really have it at all. It is just a personality trait and all in all a positive one. high-functioning ASD are just people without social hangups, good. And people with ADHD who are high-functioning are largely just amazing multi-taskers.
The harm in putting people on a spectrum is they see themselves asa diseased, broken, something that needs "consideration.. they arent, in most cases in the right proportions these "diseases" are in fact just super powers, things more people should wisht hey have really.
This is instead of leaving the project out "until I get back to it", which leads to an archaeological dig with the most recent project overflowing onto the previous project, which is overflowing onto the project before that, which... this results in a huge, oppressive, unmanageable, crushing mess.
The time/effort of putting it away and bringing it back out is far less than dealing with the mess.
It is so cringe when i hear people hijack general less descriptive terms like "neurodivergent" to mean really silly arbitrary things like adhd and autism... we already have descriptive terms and that word already means something useful before you bastardized it.
Some friends of mine who are on the neurodiverse spectrum (#ADD and/or #autistic) think I'm probably on the spectrum too. Their experience is that they get on better with people on the spectrum. They think that they like me is a strong indication.
What is your experience? Do autistic people have a "detector" for this characteristic?
Or is it really the case that you feel more comfortable with other neurodiverse people than with neurotypical people?
I have disabled all my #browsers using the #Windows#registry to stop myself from getting side-tracked all the time.
So far, it's been going surprisingly well! It's a bit annoying because I also can't look up #programming questions anymore, but it kinda forces me to think myself and actually read the #code on my machine.
Wondering about the experiences with #minfulness and #meditation for other folks with #ADHD, particularly "inattentive type" (or what we used to just call #ADD) and particularly if you experience hyperfocus.
I had a very adverse experience with a therapist obsessed with mindfulness apps who wouldn't listen or engage with my bad responses to them, and as I've tried to reconstitute my own practices, I'm wondering if hyperfocus tendencies alter what methods one should use. 🧵
Afgelopen dagen lekker diep in een #hyperfocus gezeten, gewoon verstand op nul en achter de dopanime gaan. Het resultaat ben ik weer prima tevreden over. #ADHD#ADD
Gezond leven, douchen en aandacht aan sociale dingen zijn wel compleet verwaarloosd.
My pharmacy is having problems acquiring Dexamphetamine and are offering me (the more expensive) Attentin instead.
Anyone had experience with the latter? #ADHD#Audhd#ADD @actuallyadhd
When one of them does something wrong and we don't know which one, they will both claim it wasn't them. We find that upsetting, because one of them is lying to us.
We don't want to punish. We want a conversation about what happened and why, and an apology.
But it can take days of asking before one of them admits it, and that time is horrible. How can we get whoever did it to admit it sooner?
My husband is presenting in an all-day #ADHD virtual conference with other experts in the field, including Dr. Edward Hallowell, for an #ADD/ADHD audience.
He put his slide deck on #Google Slides as required. Then technical glitches occurred (slides weren’t fully loading) during the test run. The IT person asked him if he was on a Mac (he is). According to the IT person, they have trouble with Mac users being able to run slideshows when there are multiple presenters.
Folks with ADHD, how did you feel when the acronyms shifted, and instead of having #ADD and #ADHD, now the "correct" term is ADHD?
When I was diagnosed in 2000, it was largely because they'd finally discovered that ADD without hyperactivity was a thing, and that girls/women presented as inattentive more often than hyperactive (thus why they were often overlooked). It still feels inaccurate every time I write "ADHD" in reference to myself (yet I often get corrected if I use "ADD").
Earlier today I posed on keeping my ADD driven space more organized by trying to make a habit of putting projects away before they're finished, but I realized that was coupled to how I store projects, so I had to write two posts on my "everything else" blog to cover it all off. This one links to the next https://ambitonline.com/nextrelease/2023/12/add-and-the-art-of-putting-it-away-before-its-finished/
I tried #strattera to treat #adhd but it didn't do anything for me, so my doctor switched me to #vyvanse, but the pharmacy has been out of stock for nearly a month so I haven't got to try it yet. I'm about ready to just give up again, and go back to #caffeine and #cannabis. At least I can actually get those.
@ironicbadger - you mentioned journaling in Self Hosted 115… have you looked at the structure / process called bullet journaling? https://bulletjournal.com is the foundation. It really helps with #ADD / #ADHD. Also, you ever want to nerd out on #FountainPens, hit me up... I’m soooo addicted to them!
[#bujo#BulletJournal ]
Is there a term for the concept of switching all (or as much) of your digital life to old school text based interfaces for the purpose of reducing sensory input, convenience and dopamine traps? Is there a community for that and how many useful tools are there for that? #computers#digitallife#qualityoflife#add#adhd#linux