I'm realizing just how many things I want to try. I love exploring and learning, and just trying things. At the same time, I don't have time for anything, and when I do have time, I can't figure out what to start. Wondering how much of this is my #ADHD or my other things?
#NicheSupportGroup Idea: support group for people who want to get more active together but aren't Intense about it or want to run marathons and shit because our childhood traumas made us very conflict avoidant
"... it seems to me that if anyone has a disorder, it is the people who plod along paying close attention to every little speck and crumb, every little detail and rule, every minor policy and procedure in every miniscule manual. I think these are the people who have a disorder. I call it Attention Surplus Disorder. They did exactly what they were told as children, told on others who did not, and now make a living doing what they're told, telling others what to do, and telling on those who don't."
First, my most prominent #adhd symptom is a lack of sensory filters. Especially auditory. If I'm not in hyperfocus, every sensation crowds into the conscious part of my brain. I can barely tune out anything.
I also have misophonia, and since 2022 I have tinnitus and with that came a heightened sensitivity in the high frequency range.
It's so hard to convey to people that sounds can be painful even if they're not very loud.
@actuallyautistic
Glossy cover versus matte. I hate the feel of the matte and my spouse loves it. I’m not sure which is better for the majority of us. Matte is what’s up on Amazon for now, but the color saturation of the glossy one is so appealing. #audhd#adhd#autistic
If anyone wonders how I can post a tip daily and why it matters to me: managing both difficult household and caregiving issues is depressing. Thanks to #ADHD, that doesn’t go away but gets worse. Any time I can do just one teensy weensy thing that I can claim pride for doing is worthwhile. Talking about tasks that can start and stop on a dime. Can’t read a book straight through or get out my cameras but still I can do tiny things.
For folks with #ADHD I've got to know. Is it normal for us to consume something with caffeine and it actually make us sleepy instead of keeping us awake? I'm not on any meds for my ADHD yet, BTW. Long story involving 1 of my older brothers who's a meth addict & the panic of my Silent Generation mother. I'm trying the caffeine route 1st to keep her calm & keep the peace.
I got my official diagnosis as autistic yesterday. :infinity_rainbow: Im happy with the diagnosis and relieved to be done with this anxiety indulcing assessment process. And (in theory) the diagnosis gives me access to some legal protections, like asking for accommodations at work, which is why I decided to get assessed in the first place.
I was also assessed for ADHD. Even though all my ADHD assessments show a high probability of having ADHD, and that the ADHD characteristics I present have a significant negative impact on my life. I was not diagnosed with ADHD as well.
According to the psychologist who did my assessment, a person with ADHD could not have accomplished the things I have accomplished. From her perspective, I was able to keep my life together enough over the years, and all the ADHD related characteristics I present are due to autism + anxiety and depression. 🤷🏻
This all seems very arbitrary and ableist to me. I know that some professionals would use those very same arguments to say that I'm not autistic.
For the past few months, even without an official diagnosis, I have had access to ADHD treatment and have been taking ritalin. The drug has had a significant positive impact on my ability to do tasks that require I focus for more than 15 minutes, like programming, studying, or practicing art. Before, even if I was really interested in those tasks, I either would not be able to do them or I would do them but be miserable all along because I would be fighting myself all the way. With ritalin, I get to do those tasks Im interested in and actually enjoy them, which bring me such joy and relief. If my access to this treatment is now cut, I'll have to seek out a second opinion.
I'm #AuDHD so my autie 'special interest' is affected by hyperfocusing on not getting things done in a very thorough way.
Case in point: This A.M. I was trying to focus on work. Instead, I got distracted by this film frame because it says FOCUS and I felt compelled to colour-correct and restore it. #autism#adhd#asd@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd
Pondering whether it's a neurodiverse thing or long-term childhood poverty thing that finds me consistently going through all of my shoes and cleaning and polishing and repairing them each season. Either way it makes me feel calm and well taken care of. I know when I put my feet back in my boots next fall there will be new warm insoles waiting for me inside of them.
My latest song is about a relationship (friendship/client) I had with a covert narcissist (NPD). It's taken me a long time to forgive myself for falling for her bullshit. This video does a good job explaining how a covert narcissist operates.
If you're confused or new here, and want to follow along, just click on this post and scroll up to the top. I'm tryna be better about connecting it as a thread.
But I have #ADHD and might forget. Also, my #storytelling skills are not very linear and I tend to go off on tangents to explain some concepts like what a #MusicProducer even does, since that's relevant to the story.
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There were a few 🚩 early on that I ignored--the biggest was that she really, strongly pressured me to join her at a #LandMark seminar. She said it worked for her better than therapy. BTW, anytime you collab w/someone creatively, especially in #SongWriting & #Music which are very vulnerable processes, any struggles w/mental health are bound to come up. This was before I was diagnosed w/ #ADHD but I revealed that I struggled w/depression & just like, doing things? Focus? Achieving goals? etc. 16/
So being undiagnosed w/ #ADHD I went into #HyperFocus mode and did a deep dive on the Land Mark Forums and organization. And what I learned actually made me kind of shake with fear/nervousness. I was sitting at my computer reading it and my whole insides were just quivering like jelly. The whole things did NOT sit well with me, plus her pressuring me to join her at the next introductory seminar or whatever it was. Very sketch. 😬 :AAAAAA: 18/
‘Let me just’ for a moment please about #ADHD and how my medication helps my quality of life:
Option 1) I don’t take my meds and my brain is like 2 songs playing simultaneously while constantly being given direction to complete tasks in a language I only understand 30% of. Also add any mix of: forgetfulness, impulsivity, inattention, excitability.
Option 2) Take my meds. Silent brain go Brrrrrr.
All in all what I’m trying to say is when properly prescribed… stimulants are a life saver.
Oh! After all the ranting I've done about the #AdderallShortage in the US, I finally managed to get my prescription filled, thanks almost entirely to my amazing wife calling every pharmacy in the area. It can be done! I mean, not by me without already having my medication, but by other people at least. #ADHD
That #adhd moment when you get thanked for you speedy replies or efficiency and you know you only do all the things right away because otherwise you would forget they exist (or you would have to Put Up Elaborate Systems to make sure you do them later).
Relationship between sleep and ADHD
https://brainclinics.com/the-relationship-between-sleep-and-adhd/